My heart feels repressed.
there are these people on my bus who just love to make fun of my friend who is in the 4th grade and can't say his Rs right[just like me^-^] and his name is Reed and he syas it kinda like Weed. He asked them to stop and they just said in a babying voice "it's okay" and the way they said it. I think that people who can just say that kinda stuff so easy, I think they must have had it easy all there life. I mean with your voice you kinda don't know when you say something wrong and when someone points it out, after haveing all those people pick on you and stuff [when you were younger] even when that person is a good friend, when they say something even if its good natured it still kinda kills you to hear it. Like I have a friend who will say the word I miss said, every time I say it and so I just try not to say the word anymore.
Oh well. Even though I know it bad, sometimes I try just to act like nothing is going on when I really want to be Yelling my ears out about how [sometimes] I feel like haveing friends and talking to people is one of the worst choices I made in middle school, or how I wish I could just not talk anymore. It's these times when my heart feels like its barly beating.
It was raining today, nice add to this Lovely day. As I review my day today it feels like I have only made choices that are dreadfully bad. It hurts my head to think about it. apparently I relaly messed up our princpal's wishs about "make today a good day or........ Not]
I had a quiz today in math and failed it. I messed one of the question about a box and whisker graph[slightly because I was to careful] by 500 I anwered 200 the anwer was 700, those kinda graph are really... diffent. otherwise math is great I really do like what were learning[besides the graph thingy]. I don't know why, but I asked[I felt like it ^-^ the teacher if she had one of my favorite games 'Zelda Twilight Princess' she said no. -.- i don't think I loves her as much now. ^-^
all in all though I really hate today, and wish I could find the rewind button
"Let the rain of what I feel right now come down."-Into the ocean [blue October]
