Monday, August 21, 2006

   No More Breaks
Before I get into about today I want to clear up about my last post. Everything went okay with David and I. One of the things that I love about him is that I don't need to talk to him about everything. What I mean is that, I swear he can read minds!! What happened the last time I was with him went like this: After talking to David on the phone about going out with his father to look for a new game he wanted I went out and got stuck in a traffic jam (not rare around here!) immediately when I got on the interstate. We then decided to meet up at the mall instead. After walking around and getting some ice cream (Mr.Dugal bought it for me) Mr.Dugal (David's father) and I established an even better relationship between the two of us^^. (David's family is the greatest^^) Mr.Dugal then made it clear that I'm concidered part of his family^^. (now the only thing to do is get David in the same positin with my family... knowing my family, it's not going to be easy) Lastly, we went back to David's house and I watched him play the greatest game I have seen yet!! I forgot what it's called but it's about Vincient from Final Fantisy 7. Holy Crap what a great game!! As I was leaving David stopped me and told me that he was feeling the same way. I practically jumped on him, I was so happy. So everything is solved and my other half is being held down once again, only to be let out when I need to do work or to defend myself. (she's also my serious and stronger side of me)

Yesterday was a really good day^^. I was finally able to decorate my bathroom!! Oh man I love it now!! Well, like everyone else with very little money I went to Wal-Mart to find my stuff. Luckly I found exactly what I wanted which were: a see through kurten (sp?) that has bamboo pictures on it, a fuzzy egyption green toilet seat, a fuzzy rug and a soft towel that are the same color as well. I also got new binders and a messanger bag for school^^.

Today marked the first day of school for me which also marked the fact of me being a college student ;3. My first class was English Writing which was pretty cool including my teacher and the students there that I met. After getting used to the computers and doing some work, she ended the class before 2 when the class was supposed to have gone to 3:10. I still have a Speech class later on tonight that's from 7:00pm - 9:50pm, so I'll be crashing once I get home. I wasn't as nervous as I thought I was going to be cause last night David was so sweet and called me up to make sure that I wasn't too nervous by making me laugh^^. *sighs in a loving way and cups hands around own cheeks* That boy spoils me. Here's my schedule:
~Monday~
1. English Writing 12:30pm-3:10pm
2. Speech/Communication 7:00pm-9:50pm

~Tuesday, Thursday~
Only. Math 8:00am-9:15am

~Wednesday~
1. English Compostion 12:30pm-3:10pm
2. U.S. Government 7:00pm-9:50pm

Yea, I know it's a messed up schedule but that's what I get for signing up so late. Oh well, at least I got Fridays off completely. The only down side to that is, I've got to work on Fridays, Saturdays, and after church on Sundays. That means I wont be able to see David for long periods of time!! *crys* Other than that, that's all. Sorry for the long post... again.
~Seeya~
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Saturday, August 19, 2006

I Fear My Other Half . . .
OH NO NOT AGAIN!! Before I write what I really wanted to write in, I have to ask someone like Edge or Zero if they can help me with my post again. This time it was my fault cause I just wanted to take off that video that I had up for so long but then this happened!! THIS MAKES ME SO MAD!! So if you it wouldn't be too much trouble I would aprishiate it.

Now back to what I really wanted to say. . . Well, I've been thinking a lot about my relationshipe with David (Dead Leaves) lately and I've come up to my worst fear. . . I don't want to hurt him. . . It's not like I want to break up with him; not at all, it's just, knowing how I really am I fear that I will end up hurting him. Why do I fear this? Well, it's the simple fact that my other half is starting to come out more and more. I hate my other half so much; all she is, is a tramp and a selfish brat that doesn't care for others. I've made the mistake of letting her walk aroud as me for almost a year in the past and distroy my reputation. Ever sence then I've kept her sealed up deep within me, not letting her see a strip of light, but some how she always manages to come out without me knowing till it's too late. So whenever David and I are alown together I can feel her manipulating me. Lots of people will say that's just teenage hormones, but it's not cause the way she is is disgusting. The second she's satified, she leaves the person behind without a second thought. I can't do that! I love David, but I don't want to hurt him! I'll addmit that she's a part of me, but I fear her becomeing me. What I have done with David is nothing more than what I have done with other boys in the past (not sex if that's what your thinking, she hasn't gone that far). I just fear that I will become what I have been expected to become by others in the past. . . I had a boyfriend whom I loved dearly but his mother was so horrible. The way she stared down at me and spoke to me, she didn't even want to. I was even told by his friends that his mother hated who I am just because I was Puerto Rican and the bad expirience she had in the past with a Puerto Rican. His brother also told me this and even my boyfriend himself. "They're all the same!" she said "She'll just leave you just like the rest of them! That bitch!" I guess I'm just afraid of proving that she was right. I know of the bad reputation that Puerto Rican's carry, but that doesn't mean that we're all the same. . .
That's enough blahbing on for today. Thanks to those whom have taken the time to read this sorry excuse for a post. I guess I just needed to express my feelings. I just hope that David doesn't read this; I'd rather tell it to his face then let him find out like this. I'll talk to you guys later. . .
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Out For So Long!!
Oh man!! I'm so sorry that I haven't been on for such a long time, I just got cought up with all the different things around here. I've been so busy with so many things that I've had no time to update (really I'm telling the truth)! For one I've been dealing with all the things at my new college named Northern Verginia Community College (NOVA) like signing up for classes, buying books, and checking out the place. Sence I didn't sign up to NOVA till the last minute I got a really weird schedule to where I don't have any classes on Fridays^^!!!! I'll get the schedule to you guys later though. I've also been looking for a job for a good while but I'm proud to anounce that I've got a job at the mall, but not just any job, I'm selling cell phones at Verison^^! I mean MAN, they the second they found out that I was looking for a job and spoke fuent Spanish they practicly hired me on the spot! Here it's imposible NOT to find a job! But I was blessed enough to where I'll be working Friday's and weekends at the mall for $7 an hour pluse extra for evey cell phone and extras with the phone^^!! *falls on knees crying* OH GOD THANK YOU!!! NOW I CAN AFFORD GAS!!

As everyone could have guessed I've been hang out with my boyfriend David (Dead Leaves) as well^^. I'm going to go ahead and call him by his real name for now on cause I don't think he's going to get back anymore. Anyway, I've been hanging out with him often ever sence I got here. It's just so wonderful that David and I can be with each other again cause of the army moving us so close to each other again^^. With this we're getting to know each other more and growing closer and closer to each other every day^^. I've already been to his house numbers of times know and got to see his room too. I'm rather jelous of his room cause with his sister out of the house he got the basement all to himself; he calls it his Bachler Pad. And I have to addmit it is a really cool with his own TV (with cable and Anime Network!), 2 lazy boys to watch it, his own new computer that's able to play high quality games, his different sword hung up all around his room, and it's all Japanese style including his big, soft and comfy bed^^ . . . . HEY! GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER!! IT'S NOT LIKE THAT!!! AND DON'T GIVE ME THIS WHOLE "Actually I wasn't thinking it being that way untill you brought it up" CAUSE IT'S ALREADY BEEN USED WWWWAAAAAYYYYY TOO MANY TIMES ON ME!!! SO QUIT IT!!!!!

Tomorrow I've been invited to go to a water park with David, his family, and David's best friend Johnathin (sp?). Classes you ask? Well, my classes don't start up till the 21st. I'm sorry to my friends that have school tomorrow, but don't worry it's only a weeks difference. I'll talk to you later^^
~Seeya~
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Monday, July 31, 2006

   Cool, Sufisticated, EXPENCIVE!!
I don't think I spelled sufisticate right, but oh well^^.
Hey guys, how's everyone doing? I hope everyone doing alright. Me? Well, I've been around enough to get an impretion on the place and just like I remember it's really high classed, rich quality society, and polite people when they're not talking on thier cells. The only down side to this place is EVERYTHING IS SOOOOOOOOOOO EXPENCIVE!!!!! For example, the gas prises here are $2.90 or higher!! In Washington D.C. which I was able to go to 2 days ago, thier prises get up to $3.39!! It's like the closer you get to President Bush, The Less He Cares!! But the weird thing is that one gas station would have one price and a gas station right across the street from it would be 10 cents lower but you would still see poeple going to the one that's more expencive! What's with that?! I'm I the one who's too cheep?! Or is it that everyone here is so rich that it doesn't matter?!! I wouldn't dought it.

Everything may be expencive but with that you get better quality^^. Like right now I'm in a really nice cafe where you can get different kinds of breads^^, has really nice jazz music playing, they serve great coffee's, and they have free whireless internet access^^. It's one of those cafe's that you would only see in movies where they're in a big city. It's great^^

So far I've been living inside of my house for about 2 or 3 or 4 day's know... well, I've been in the house sence the last time I posted. Anyway, the only problem is that the day before we got our house the truck with all our stuff was ready but we didn't have a house yet so they just put all our funiture and everything else into storeage and said that we can't get it back till the 8th! I know it sounds stupid but that's what you get for being only 30 minutes away from the most important place in the country! Also about my house is that it's located in a very nice neighborhood (i can't spell for crap!) that's clean and well kept^^. The weird thing(and don't get me wrong) is that the people who do live in my neighborhood are all minority!! Now I'm Puerto Rican which counts me as one so don't start saying that I'm racist! But I mean I haven't see a single white person there AT ALL!!
The only time when you do see a white person is when you go by the REALLY BIG homes that are imposible to afford! It's really cool though^^ I've never lived in a neighborhood that where all minority^^! My parents where saying that it's because the people that live around us are real hard workers just like him^^

To answer some of Yensid's questions let me start off with the question of my father. My father is still in the army and is not going to be retiring for a few more years. The reason why he just decided to live off post is because whenever we were moved we were ALWAYS stuck with a CRAPY house so finally thinking that Fort Belvoir (the base he works at now) would have high quality homes, but after checking it out my father threw in the towel and bought a house off post knowing that we will stay there for more than 3 years and also knew that the house would go up in prise over the years to give our family a good investment^^. Another question from her was about what states are concidered the south. Well, I'm not too sure about that. All I know is about Virginia but I'm pretty sure that South and North Carolina are called the south as well cause of thier love for log cabins and thier mountins (yes i have been there, but if I'm wrong i'm open for corrections).

Well, I think I've made my point for now and made this post long enough. I hope it's not boring but there's always those few that can't take good writing (*my other half talking* she's in the zone cause of the place she's in so please excuse her big headedness). I'll talk to you guys later whenever we get internet in the house or when I come back to this AWSOME Cafe^^!!
~See You Then~
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Friday, July 28, 2006

   I'm Still Alive^^
Sence my last post I've moved from the south in Georgia to the north in Virginia (yea, yea, i know that virginia is considered the south but if you where ever to say that to a virginian, you'd be killed... oh you think i'm kidding? if only you knew). I actually used to live in Virginia years ago when my father was still in the Navy. It's not the same as it was when I was in elementary school but things change through the years^^... duh... Anyway, the day before yesterday my family got out of the house we had in the army base in Columbus and got on the road. Sence then we've been in hotels sence then.

Today I was also able to walk through our new house. Now keep this in mind, this is the first time my families lived in a house outside of a base sence I was 2, so please excuse me for sounding weird... Anyway, the house is BEAUTIFUL!! I LOVE IT!!! Including the fact that I have my own batheroom^^!!! My mom and dad's room is HUGE!! And they have one of those HUGE tubs that has water jets^^ I can't wait to take a bath in it^^!! It's so Beautiful and big!! The only thing is that I just don't feel safe cause I'm so used to being inside gate with gards everywhere! I guess you can say I don't trust the civilian world yet, but I'm going to have to get used to it.

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EDGE*!!!! THAT'S RIGHT, EDGE HAD A BIRTHDAY THIS LAST 26th AND I WANT EVERYONE TO GO TO HIS SITE RIGHT AFTER THIS AND TELL HIM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! Edge was a great friend and still is to me so I wanted everyone to know that I'm so glad that he's made it this far... even though it seems like he's going to kill himself in some STUPID way!! Wheather it's accidently falling off a car, *cough, not wearing a seat belt when he drives down the freaking highway at 100m/hr, cough*, or doing something to upset HLW. Either way, I love you Edge and always will and so do many others^^!

Well, that's all for know. I've got to get to sleep^^
~Seeya~
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Sunday, July 23, 2006

Thanks For Everything^^
I want to thank everyone including my friends that I live near by for understanding my decition that I have made^^

Well, yesterday my cheeks were still a bit swollen but I went out anyway to get a hair cut and eye brows done with my mom. There was a new hair stylest there that's Puerto Rican that did my hair. Holy Crap my hairs never looked better!! I got my hair done a different way all thanks to her^^ It looks better than ever!! I'm never getting my hair cut by anyone other than a Puerto Rican cause I'm Puerto Rican myself and they now how to take care of my hair the best^^!! Even my brother liked it, which is so hard to do cause Saul is one of those guys that love dressing up nicely and is very clean. I guess you would call him gay but actually he acts like it but he's the straightest guy you can find. . . yea . . .

Anyway, everyone knows that my house is completely empty but I actually like it this way. I've noticed that whenever my family moves, we are always end up living in an empty house for a few days cause we're cheep to rent a hotel but my family gets closer whenever this happens; we end up talking more and for once Saul and I are getting along again^^ I've forgotten how funny he can be cause it's been so long^^

Well, tonight I'm heading out to Players Pool Hall (bar actually) to tell the rest of my friends that I'm leaving instead of staying. It's going to be sad but I just hope I have fun^^

That's about it. On Monday I'm getting my stitches out of my mouth, but the weird thing is that they're already coming out cause when I woke up this morning I found out that one of my stitches came out last night so I must have swallowed it! I'll talk to you later^^
~Seeya~
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Saturday, July 22, 2006

   Make It Clear
Let me make yesterdays post clear for everyone. If you have been keeping up with my posts for the past month or so, you know that my father as been ordered to move to upper Virginia right next to Washington D.C. Sence I've only lived in Columbus GA for only a little over a year, I decided to stay in Columbus for my first year of college, also to stay out of the house and to have my own life by myself about 3 states away from my family. Then at the last minute I changed my mind from staying in Columbus GA to moving with my family to Virginia right next to D.C. I feel really bad because I know that my friends are upset even though they don't show it. I am sorry to my friends but I have to look out for myself.
~That's all~
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Friday, July 21, 2006

   My Mind Is Made!
Well, my whole house is empty now and there's a Really loud eco. I'm used to it though, sad but true. The only weird thing is after all the times that I packed my things, watched them leave in a truck, I would always find myself face to face with them all at a new home, but now I know that I will have to leave most of my stuff at a home that I will not get to know for another year. The only thing that was going through my head was, "I'm going to be living in a dorm, out of the house for the first time in my life, by my self, 3 states away from my family." My mind spins...

The decition that I have made was soly made with my own well being in mind. There was no one that influenced me at all, only the thought of me. This decition is being supported by my family and I hope my friends will as well. When you read this I hope you will put yourself in my position and understand why I came to this decition, or at least respect it.

After hours of thought and stress I have decided to make a change. I have decided that staying with my family in Virginia is the better decition for my college future. I know that I have said that I didn't want to be with my family and that the colleges there were no good but I looked into them and they are of good quality and are made for those students that didn't make it into the colleges that they wanted to get into first. I know that it's late to make such a decition but the community colleges that excepted me are very understanding.

This decition will effect my friends that I know in person, but I will try my best to expain my actions. I wanted to meet up at Players this Sunday so that I can tell the rest of the group that hang out with. At first I was going to tell my friends on Sunday instead but I thought the sooner the better, plus it will give them time to cool down and think twice before killing me...

That's all I have to say. I'm sorry to those that this post made no sence, but the next one will be better.
~Seeya~
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

No More Computer
This morning I was woken up by my mom telling me that the packers where comeing to the house, so I had to move to my parents room and continue to sleep. I couldn't help today cause I'm still swolen and my meds make me dizzy and drowsy. In one day (today) they packed the whole house and know I don't have a real computer to get use anymore. The computer that I'm using right now is my fathers but he needs to use for work so I wont be able to post almost at all anymore. I'll try to every so often to post whenever I can or get someone else to for me^^.
Pretty soon I'll be heading up to northern Virginia about 10-20 minutes away from where Dead Leaves lives^^ I can't wait!! We're going to have so much fun!

Well, that's all I've got to say for today. My mouth is killing me so I've got to take my meds so to stop the pain. The second I do take it it's going to knock me out. To Dead Leaves: Sence I don't have a computer, you're going to have to call me instead^^
I'll talk to you guys later^^
~Seeya~
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

   The Godfather Look
Well, yesterday I got my wisdom teeth pulled. Lucky for me, or that's what my doctor said, I only have 3 wisdom so I don't have to go through 4 times the pain, but it hurts either way. When I first got there I was nervice but once I they were getting me ready for the sergery I was distracted with that little beeping thing that beeped everytime my heart pumped blood. Apparently my heart rate is slower than normal and I kept on being asked if I was an athlete or if I played sports. But anyways, after putting an IV on me they but put a breathing thing over my nose that had laughing gas going through it. MAN that stuff made me feel weird!! That gas makes you feel completel numb! If you've never gone through it, it feels like when you are woken up by a bad dream suddenly and your body has that tingle feeling. That stuff put me through a complet trip! Once everything was ready, my Doctor (awsome and very responsible person) put that stuff that knocked you out. At firts I didn't feel a thing but then I felt like my head was spining. What felt like 5 minutes later, I woke up and my mom walked in. They put on that head wrap on me that you would see in anime and cartoons. Throughout that whole day I was asleep thanks to the meds that I was given. I also want to thank the feeken meds that made me throw up twice.... or was it 3 times? When I woke up this morning, my mom walked in and started to giggle at my face; my face is completely swolen! I can tell you that I look like 2 things, a chipmunk that stuffed food in its cheeks, or the Godfather female from. My mom can't stop giggling thinking that I look cute and Saul laughs at me saying that I look like Sandy Cheeks from Spongbob. lol^^ I'll think about putting up a picture cause I think I look funny too^^

Today marks the day that my family starts packing but I'm just going to have to trust my mother with my packing cause of my condition. I mean it's getting hard to continue with this post so I'm going to have to stop now. I'll post up later when I get better^^
Seeya
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