Saturday, August 26, 2006

   poems to whomever but dont think they are about any of u! they are of a boy who i love
I never ment to disapoint you,
I never ment to make you cry,
But mommy they told you something,
You were never ment to kno,
I was trying soo hard to stop,
Mommy honestly i was,
I didnt mean to hurt you or daddy,
So i tryed my best to hide it,
But i guess my best wasnt good enof,
But I am soo sorry i hurt you,
And even more sorry i made you cry,
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I sit here day to day lost in your sparkaling brown eyes,
in a dream world where you are mine,
I just woke up and noticed,
How much you have changed me,
from an inoccent little girl to a suicidal teen,
no you wont win,
i woke up and im reversing your transformation,
I am me and,
That is that.
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In my head your mine and we are happy,
In your head Im a piece of crap not good enough to be thought of,
I see both but only love one,
You see one because thats the one you know of,
If you could see both would you feel the way I do,
Or would you still love yours because thats what youve been believing.



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   well my mom...
my mom and dad thought it over im getting sent to insane haouse again... yes again... i hate this my mom promised me ide never get sent back but its all with the fight with my dad she says it'll give me space.... i hate space i never know whats going on or what'll happen to me if i leave and never come back i hate this... i mean nothing would have happened if my dad ever slapped me........

well im leaving... ill be back in a week or less..
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Friday, August 18, 2006

   i unno
hmmmm i finished the prodject now and yeah i might fail but at the same time get an A how is that possible well i got a dyke as my teacher for that class -______-' that means she's gay.. GAAAHHH no dont get any ideas blehh ewwww ew ew ew ew ew ew ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!! neways she knows my aunt and they used to go out but then my aunt got married to sum other chick (yes i have a gay aunt....) so i gots connetions and besides the fact that i took a week doing this prodject it looks neat i drew a huge pic of the summarry i wrote a 7 page essay about it and then i underlined everything that i didnt know and crap then i summarrized the whole book and every chapter sooo yeah ^^ man this was a long week........ ><, neways off to ease my stress with hot pg 13 yaoi!!! lol im only a certian age so i cant watch porn yet and i dont plan on it for a while.

neways CYA!!!
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Thursday, August 17, 2006

heyy
well im back now from the cruise if i didnt tell you guys.... well neways i have to finish prodject before monday so ttyl!!
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Monday, August 7, 2006

   ....yeeaaahhhh.......
i feel better today sorry for any problems and if i changed to you guys well i didnt ive been like that but kept it locked inside i dunno how to tell ppl i only have 4 real friends.. (real life)

1.mishy (most trusting and best best best best best best ect. friend)

2. andrew (funniest and best friend.. i love him)

3. polly (bestest stuffed friend she talkes to me i swear!)

4. fate (another stuffed friend and he talkes to me too....)

well thats about it i have about 20 more friends online but thats about it.... but im in better mood u can talk to me when ever you want
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   .......
...... my life is retarded i have no reason to live a person i love doesnt love me my family almost kicked me out for yelling and throwing stuff at my dad cuz he smacked me across the face 3 or 4 times and then im probably not gunna be here next week or the week after that or that...... i might be gone forever i dunno i have no friends friends dont exist they say that they do but they dont...... if i leave and never come back you know what happened..... and i dont even know why im writing this.... no one reads these anyway....
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Thursday, August 3, 2006

   sorry
sorry for spelling mistakes!!!
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   andrew
today andrew came to my house and we were supposed to do a book report but my little sisters friend came over and we sorta got a frisby(spelling?) stuck on the roof >< anyway me and andrew got up and i slipped but almost fell he dove for me... *^^* yeah well we didnt fall of but we did get frisby(spelling again?) so we tried again for the book report but decided to go to golf course lol he tackled me for sum reason and well we had a moment like eye to eye he got closer but my sister came and had a look on her face that said "wtf?!?" so he got up quickly and crap...well i gave my little sister the glare since she knew i reaaaaaallly like this guy.... anyways we went rolling down hills called mishy but she didnt answer and blah blah blah then we went to my house again and went swimming... he didnt have any trunks so i lent him an extra pair cuz i put them over my b-suit.... god we had the worst conv. about it im not going into deitails but all im gunna say is that he only brought what he was wearing... he took forever changing so i went to the pool and he came out with only trunks and no t-shirt and i was 0_0 staring at him the whole time before he jumped in.. (oh and he has smexy abs ^^ lol) neways we got in blah blah blah and we swam until about 10pm then he had to go home >< oh and tomarrow he might come again but this time he wants me to do his hair like sasuke because im pool my little siter saw his hair back and it was like sasuke's but with out bangs! neways this is getting long sooo byezz!!
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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

   baggadaggada
nerff for today i unno wat to put but i went and saw johntucker must die for the second time and yeah my flippin comp is going slow so any one is welcome to call at any time on my cell at anygiven moment MY CELL THO!! last time i got in trouble cuz sum1 called my house at 2 in the flippin morning.. >< and i got grounded for a week well smoofle-ater and flurple and sukka-nukka are my new words ill be using them often plus once again my voice changed >< dammit well yeah a friend called and i answered

me: hello?
Katie: is miranda there?
me:this is her...
Katie:i think i got the wrong number
me: im sure u dont have the wrong number
Katie: are you sure i dont have the wrong number??
me:yes im GOD DAMNED SHURR U DONT HAVE THE WRONG NUMBER!
Katie: miranda UR voice changed OMG!! ur sound so mature!!!
blah blah blah yeaaahhh neways im going off this now soo cya!
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Monday, July 31, 2006

   owww
man i was stuck in a tree (dont ask how) and i fell off.... and now i sprained my wrist my mom doesnt wanna belive me and thinks im just trying to get outta camp >< man this sucks fuzzin monkey azz!
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