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Thursday, December 2, 2004


Love sucks. It really does. At least, in my case, anyway...
I suddenly feel depressed ... and I don't really know why. Maybe it's because my pessimistic mind thinks that Morgan doesn't love me anymore...

But I've almost solved that dilemma, because I've just sent her a PM on Gaia asking her if she loves me. *sigh* I guess I finally had to ask her in the end, didn't I? It's just been bothering me so much, I really had to know, and I couldn't wait any longer, so I just up and asked her myself. I'm actually surprised that I had the courage to. *shrug* Yoshimi was a great help, but Operation: Sneaky Yoshimi doesn't need to be put into action now.

I just got back from a band concert. Bleh, I messed up on one of the pieces, and on Christmas Chimes (or Carol of the Bells), the percussion screwed the whole band up. GAH. Stupid drums...

I feel like writing angst now... or maybe just crying. I hate when I think about the stuff I'm thinking about - it's a really heavy load for my mental and emotional stability. And I always end up asking the unanswerable question: Why does she act so intimate when she doesn't even like me like that? Or: If she likes me, why won't she just tell me?

>_< I HATE LOVE!! I don't really want to be in love with her, I just am! I can't fucking help it! AAGHH! And she's not helping my problem any... it's like she's just toying with me! >___< And now I really want to cry... and I'm tired, and I don't want to talk to anyone right now unless it's Yoshimi... so, I'll try not to become completely disconsolate. But my pessimism might make me reject all help and comfort anyone tries to give me. All you can do is try, though....

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Tuesday, November 30, 2004


BELATED Anime Birthday Special Post: Genjo Sanzo!!
OH MY GOD!! I totally forgot to post this yesterday!! >_< I feel so bad! I'm SO sorry, Sanzo!! But, I'm only a DAY late... ^_^;;

This post is also going out to hoping Panda-chan feels all better soon! ^__^

So... let's take a look at good ole Sanzo-sama:



YAY!! And, NOW, let's sing a happy belated birthday to the smoking, drinking, shooting priest that we all love from Saiyuki!

Happy [belated] birthday to you!
Happy [belated] birthday to you!
Happy [belated] birthday to SANZOOOO!!
Happy [belated] birthday to you!

AND MANY MORE!!!
BUT NOT ANY MORE BELATED, I HOPE....


*dances* w00t!! ^___^

And, now, for my infamous list THAT ALL OF YOU LOVE!!! BWAHAHA!!

Don't forget to:
1. Wish Sanzo-sama a happy belated birthday
2. Give him a present
3. Glomp him!! ^_^
4. READ SAIYUKI SANZO-PAIRING FANFICTION!!
5. ALL OF THE ABOVE!!!

And, so, that concludes my belated birthday post... And once again I AM SO SORRY SANZO!! I SANG TO YOU YESTERDAY, I JUST DIDN'T INFORM EVERYONE ELSE!! >_< But now you all know!! So, next year, you can all celebrate Sanzo-sama's birthday (AND ON THE 29TH OF NOVEMBER, NOT THE 30TH)!! YATTA!!

Well, until the next birthday!! ^_^ *goes off to the belated birthday party for Sanzo*

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Saturday, November 27, 2004


Anime Birthday Special Post: Horohoro!!
Yatta! Today is Horohoro's birthday! Wooooo!!



Let's sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Birthday to you!!
Happy Birthday to you!!
Happy Birthday to HOROHORO!!!
Happy Birthday to you!!

AND MANY MORE!!


I'm sure Horo-kun feels loved now.

And, to wrap up this update, I shall give you my infamous list--

Don't forget to:
1. Wish Horo-kun a happy birthday
2. Give him a present
3. Glomp him
4. Read HoroxRen, HoroxYoh FANFICTION!!
5. ALL OF THE ABOVE!

Now, be off!!

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Thursday, November 25, 2004


TURKEY DAY!! Shove your faces with that stupid bird and then shove PIE into that pie hole! (AND an Anime Birthday Special Post: Mannen!)
Well, I woke up late today, but I still got to see most of the Thanksgiving Day Parade!! ^_^ That was the most entertaining part of my day, unfortunately.

MY FAMILY IS SUCH A BORE! GAH!! That's why I hate holidays where there aren't exchanges of presents. (AKA, I hate the holidays other than CHRISTMAS.) But, I don't hate the holidays THEMSELVES, it's just the part where I have to spend time with my FAMILY. >_<

But, the pie was good. I liked the pie. It was yummy. I like pie. And I had a lot. Of pie. A lot of pie.

PIE IS GOOD!!

But Pocky is better. I mean, pie isn't near as good to be considered a drug. Pocky is. Pocky is my drug. And Ramune is my alcohol. HA! I DO do drugs! And I AM an alcoholic!! FWAHAHA!!

*cough* Yeah. Anyway, I'm already thinking of Christmas! And, because I'm so sweet, I'll probably give all my close Otaku friends a good ole virtual present! ^_^ w00t!

Oh, and along with it being Thanksgiving, it's Mannen's birthday! That cute little silver haired ten-year-old from Prétear!



Let's sing Happy Birthday to him really fast!!

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to MANNEN!!
Happy Birthday to you!

And many more!!


And, I must make my list as well:

Don't forget to:
1. Wish Mannen a happy birthday!
2. Glomp him!
3. Give him a present!
4. Read MannenxHajime FANFICTION!!
5. All of the above!

Well, so ends my post!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANNEN!!

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Sunday, November 21, 2004


Belated Anime Birthday Special Post: Tohma Seguchi!
Well, it's only belated because his birthday is on the 20th... but, it's only ONE day! ^_^ I'm sure Tohma won't mind. And for those of you who don't know who Tohma is, let me show you:



So, now we must sing happy birthday to the cute little blondie keyboardist from Nittle Grasper that just happens to look a little too much like Quatre Raberba Winner from Gundam Wing! *takes in a big breath*

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to TOHMA!!
Happy Birthday to you!

AND MANY MORE!!!


w00t! That is basically it for Tohma, coz there's not much you can do for him... But, I shall make my list anyway.

Don't forget to:
1. Wish Tohma a happy birthday
2. Give him a present
3. Glomp him
4. Tell him how kawaii he is
5. Tell him to lose the fuzzy jacket, coz it makes him look like a pimp (but he can keep the hat, coz it's cute)
6. All of the above

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Saturday, November 20, 2004


My brain is dead about trying to put something funny and clever here... meh.
Wow, I got to learn ALL ABOUT SEX yesterday. It was so much fun!

*cough* SARCASM!! It's my best friend. I think it should be everyone's friend, really. But, anyway...

Sitting through four hours of nothing but crap that I've already heard about sex is very boring. Especially when two of those hours are ALL ABOUT ANATOMY! What fun! Now, it's not DICK or COCK, no, it's PENIS everyone. PENIS. And it's not a PUSSY, it's a VAGINA.

¬_¬ God, no one cares! I know what the hell all of that crap is, medical or slang! Gah.

And then she went on to talk about contraceptives and all that other nice, interesting crap about sex that I've ALREADY HEARD.

But I'm sure you don't want the bloody, gory details, and I don't especially feel like telling them. So I won't.

W00T! My mum bought me the fourth DNAngel manga for going to the stupid sex-seminar. Heh. I got something out of wasting four hours of my precious life hearing things I've already heard. Life can be good.

Oh, God, they're coming to the Yami-goes-fucking-PSYCHO! episode! Ack! HIDE!! I sware, they're going to mess it up, but it was SO FREAKY in the Japanese... eep! I REALLY don't want to piss Yami off when he's just lost his aibou. *twitch*

Be afraid of the next YGO episodes. BE AFRAID.

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Thursday, November 18, 2004


God created the trumpet and the musician. He saw what he had created, and it was good.
I went to District Try-outs today. I was there for at least FOUR hours. Gah. All that wasted time just to find out EXACTLY what I already knew!

I didn't make Phase II. Gasp. I already KNEW I wasn't going to make it. So we could have left before the results were posted. But, no, we had to prolong my misery of... sitting.

I sware, I was as red as a beet when I walked out of the try-out room. I was practically shaking I was so nervous in there. I screwed up my scales, and ended up not having the nerve to play the one I could two octaves two octaves, and then I went and basically blew (haha, no pun intended) my etudes.

Yippee! I ended up making 24th chair out of 26! w00t!

Yes, I take great pride in my failure. Especially when I don't want to do something and am forced to do it. It's all because I never really cared in the first place, so why should I EVER care?

And, hey, at least I didn't make LAST chair! But, then again, I was there, and Jazzy (who made last chair) wasn't. Heh.

Mr. Doby is probably going to make us actually PLAY in class tomorrow. Bleh.

But, hey, on the bright side (OH MY GOD! SOMEONE CALL 911! I'M BEING OPTIMISTIC!! AAAHHH!!), I can BURN MY ETUDES!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!

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Sunday, November 14, 2004


Yeah, I finally got off my lazy ass ...
Yes, I've been a lazyass the past couple of days and I haven't posted. Shame upon me. Shame.

Anyway, I just got around to watching the YGO episodes I taped (even though I already know what's going to happen - coz I've seen the end of the Rafael episodes). Cry for Yami! It's okay, Pharaoh, you'll get your aibou back! T__T

But, you know, it's kind of Yami's fault if you really look at it. I mean, if he had accepted defeat without having played the Seal of Orichalcos, Yugi wouldn't have lost his soul. And Yami just would have lost. Oh no. But, NO, he had to play the Seal AND lose at the same time, so now his aibou's soul is gone. I guess that's why he went all breakdown-Yami. He realized what he'd done a little too late. Tisk tisk, Pharaoh. Tisk tisk.

I still feel for you, Yami, yes I do. I just felt I had to point out that stupid (*cough*STUPID*cough*) mistake of yours.

Oh God, I just realized most of you haven't seen Yami go PSYCHO-PSYCHO. *gasp* I won't spoil it unless you ask me to, so I'm gonna keep my mouth shut for now. But, GOD. He goes NUTS. I mean, he TOTALLY loses it to the max.

I'll shut up about it now, though.

I've just thought of another little something that has already blossomed into plot-ish-ness for a story. w00t for mentaru. This time, though, it's an original 'fic'. With lots of vampires. w00t-ness.

I shall tell you now the main characters of my story, and more details will come later:

~Alexander - who the story is centered around
~Beau - Alexander's lover and 'fledgling' if you will
~Renée - another one of Alexander's 'fledlings'
~Aeryn - changed to give Renée some female company
~Ciara - Aeryn's sister
~Diego - the vampire who changed Alexander

When I explain the happenings in my story and the background of the characters, I know it's going to sound awesome. But, until then, the details are for me to know and you to find out later. ^_~

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004


   Why do endings of most vampire books always suck?
BAH!! I finally finished Interview with the Vampire, staying up until around MIDNIGHT - AND THE ENDING SUCKED!! I was so pissed! And, not only that, but I was almost in TEARS, too. T___T WHY, LOUIS, WHY?!?! ARMAND WAS SO IN LOVE WITH YOU!!! T___T

*huggles Armand plushie* I wub 'ou, Armand. Don't worry about that butthead Louis...

Anywho... I must now borrow The Vampire Lestat from the happy library so's I can continue in my reading of the Vampire Chronicles, of which there are seven books so far.

I can't wait to get to the sixth book in the series! Coz it's all about Armand! YATTA! And, since I'm assuming I'd have to read the other five before it, I am, and now I have to hurry and read all the others so I can get to my Armandy-kins! w00t!

I feel like making a quiz... though I don't know who'd actually TAKE it... But, nevertheless, I still feel like making one. I guess I'll do that later.

Have you ever had to take FIVE tests in ONE DAY?? God, I had FOUR in a row!! And then one seventh period, which I'm pretty sure I FAILED MISERABLY. Cry for mentaru!

But, I'm not going to rant about that... I WANT TO SEE INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE - THE MOVIE!! Must... go... to Morgan's... soon... BAH!

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Sunday, November 7, 2004


Greetings! (No pun intended... I think.)
Yes, that's right. I've got two greetings up! w00t! I hope the other two I sent in will show up soon...

I went to Laura-Jane's birthday party today. It was fun. Her brother, Alex, is fun to talk to. Coz he likes anime. w00t. And we like people who like anime!

Morgan's been more open to hugging me since the last Friday she came over. Does that mean anything? Anything at all? Or am I just paranoid like that?

God, I wish there were people at my church that like anime. That's the reason I can't connect with any of them! Because I'm freaking obsessed with anime, and if I made a reference to anime of any kind, they wouldn't understand. And they'd probably be all like, "Yu-Gi-Oh is stupid" and stuff. Bah.

I'm finally close to finishing "Interview with the Vampire" now! w00t!

But now that I've been looking at Harry Potter speculations and things that will be in the upcoming books again, I WANT THE SIXTH BOOK TO COME OUT FASTER! It's not coming out fast enough, I tell you!! Not FAST ENOUGH!!

Ah, well, I must hurry and try to get to the end of IwtV now, so I am off.

Ja ne, minna-san!

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