Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I know
Meaning less rant!


I know i should stop expecting so much from people, I should stop thinking that Young teens wont lie about stupid and obvious stuff and make up even dumber lies to cover it up.
It's so bad when I can see the bare assed lie and i can see through the cover up. I should stop expecting my calling it out is gonna bring out the truth.

what i am complaining about is not important, Its so insignificant but thats what irks me. Its so insignificant why keep lieing about it?

I guess these young people just want to make them selves out to be someone they aren't, or to make people think of them as a little cooler. Kinda back fires when the other people can see what you're doing.

Ah well, I just need to stop expecting so much of people.
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Saturday, September 26, 2009

   Salem draws on YouTube
^^ I liked watching vids of people drawing so i made my own!!

Do's you wish to see?
part 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8EYRZyGMnA
part 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LassGFUtEhI

working on a colorng vid of that very same pic ^^
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Saturday, July 18, 2009

Yesterday, when I was young
It seems the love I've known,
has always been the most destructive kind.
I guess that's why now,
I feel so old before my time.

Yesterday, when I was young,
The taste of life was sweet, as rain upon my tongue,
I teased at life, as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame

The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned,
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand,
I lived by night, and shunned the naked light of day,
And only now, I see, how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me,
And so much pain, my dazzled eyes refused to see

I ran so fast that time, and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think, what life, was all about,
And every conversation, I can now recall,
Concerned itself with me, and nothing else at all

Yesterday, the moon was blue,
And every crazy day, brought something new to do,
I used my magic age, as if it were a wand,
And never saw the worst, and the emptiness beyond

The game of love I played, with arrogance and pride,
And every flame I lit, too quickly, quickly died,
The friends I made, all seemed somehow to drift away,
And only I am left, on stage to end the play

There are so many songs in me, that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste, of tears upon my tongue,
The time has come for me to pay,
For yesterday, when I was young


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Saturday, April 25, 2009

A bit depressed
Sometimes, like everyone, i get depressed.
I'm feeling that way now because of something i just seen, It talked about suicide and stuff.
Don't worry, I am not suicidal, was once, never again.
But the girl that was hosting, said
maybe she just wanted someone to say "Are you alright?" and listen to her, that just kind of hit me and now i'm very sad...

I try my best to keep my problems to myself, cause 1 People don't want to be bothered by my problems and 2 some of the things i see as problems make people think i am horrible.
I know this cause every now and then i let a big problem of mine slip out, and it never ends well.

I think, It would be nice to have someone really listen, Not say they will listen then start pointing out the bad in everything you say...

When people tell me their problems, i truly try to listen, I try to grasp just why they feel that way. I wait till they are done before i start giveing my input and advise.

However, it feels as though people never really listen to me. I know there are people out there who say they are willing but I then have to be worried about what i let out.. so when they do listen i end up just talking about the small stuff that makes it seem like i whine for nothing.

It would be nice for someone to truly listen to me, about everything.

I don't need advise, nor is it the listening part i think i want.
I think it would be nice just to hear someone say "I understand" about the big problems
everyone seems to think that me feeling this way about certain stuff is bad, i would like for one person to understand the fear and anger I feel from it.

Every now and then i write it all down, I get it all typed out everything from when i was little to now, before i post it i read over it...
The delete it all.

I would like someone to understand, but if they would understand then reading all that would just resurface memories that they (like me) have tryed so hard to block out...

This was almost another one, but i think i will post this.
Sorry if even this has made other people feel shitty
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Monday, January 26, 2009

was it them that stopped or was it me.....?
Drama is not for DA it is for MySpace but~ Salem can't put this there cause the people i am going to talk about are on there and though its not bad i still dont quite want them to know.

One of my friends from elementary school had recently found me on MySpace and she started up a conversation, she asked how i was, she said she missed me...

the thing that is bothering me is...
alot of my friends i have fallen out of contact with and she was one of them though, we fell out some where at the begginning of Middle school, there was no hostility or argument we just, sorta stopped talking.
I don't remember very much from childhood (blocked out most of it) but i remember she started talking to my sister and it was around then we stopped talking.

Now i am wondering, did she stop talking to me or did i stop talking to her?
I could see my self avoiding people that hung around my sister because of how they would treat me after. Did i stop talking to her because i didn't want to be around someone who thought my sister was "cool"?
Did i stop because i hated my sister and didn't even want a shared friend relationship?
I still hate my sister and i dont care who thinks i am a bad person for hateing her.

This friend of mine though,
has never put me down, never had hostility tward me, hell i dont think we've even had a fight (but again I blocked out quite a bit of those years)

and i just wonder...
Was it me that caused the falling out?

Could it have been me that also ruined all those other friendships because of something stupid like paranoia that they will turn on me? Am i THAT twisted?

I always find ways to make people go away...
I Suck terribly
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Saturday, March 8, 2008

XP
the new version, i dont know if it has to do with bugs or what not but its made my comics look kinda Crappy, im going to have to resize the pages.
and i added a page to the Grimm tales

EDIT: i tryed modifying the comic so the pages wouldnt look so screwed up but... something seems to be going wrong with that too... does that "submit only one in 24 hours" apply to modifying pages too? *pout* now the pages i try to reupload turn up on the friggan front XP wah~ i dun know what to do~
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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Salem is a happy nerd!!
A long time ago I stayed up way past my bed time and watched an anime on the scifi channel (when they still had saturday anime) and there was one that was so cool but i couldnt tell what it was called, ever since then i have been asking around about it trying to figure out what it was called and today i finnaly got the answer (i cant believe it took me so long to get with it being pretty popular)

Urusei Yatsura - Movie 2 - Beautiful Dreamer

because i was little i couldnt make names out very well and the girl who i thought was named "love" happened to be "Lum"

I just watched the whole thing on YouTube and it is still every bit of awesome as it was when i saw it many years ago ^^ Cept now i understand more of whats going on!

I am a happy nerd today! Im so glad i found out what it was called!
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Saturday, February 16, 2008

Updates
More pages have been added to Grimm collections
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Friday, February 15, 2008

Updated
Grimm collection is updated
i will add all the pages bit by bit! like tomorrow or what not
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Thursday, February 7, 2008

   HOLEH!!
Life of the contract got featured ^^ im nt sure why but im happy about it

The first story of the grimm tales should be done by the end of the month, its all planned out now i just have to have time to sit down and draw it through ^^

Plus im thinking of redrawing the cover and intro page cause the ones i have up SUCK THE BIG ONE!! if ya know what i mean...

thats it fr this update sorreh if i wasted yo' time
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