Friday, January 12, 2007
Well... I talked to him last night.. He had said. I take it we're over? And I knew I just had to tell him how I felt. I could do anything about it any more. I couldn't keep running away. I had to stand up and face it. And it hurt to do that. But I knew it would only hurt MORE if I let it go on.
But he said he understood. We talked and he said he would miss me. And that he'd always love me. Which makes it taht much harder to deal with it. It would have been so much easier if he had hated me after we talked. But he told me that you can't hate the ones you love.
I feel like such a terrible person for letting all this happen. But I had to end it. I had to let go. I tried to hold on and keep things alive. But it just wasn't happening..
Thank you, all of you. Your words mean so much to me. I truly appreciate all the support you've been giving me and all the advice.
And Jag, there's no way I could just ignore you. Not when you give me a monster comment like that. Your advice meant a lot when I read it. I may not, not have feelings for him. But I don't have enough to keep this going.
I wish I didn't have to grow up. Stay a child forever. Never have to worry about problems. But that'd be so much worse than just facing them..
Once again, I could never tell you how much I love you guys! You're all like one big family to me. And by your reactions and comments, I know I can come to you guys anytime. And I know I will when I need to.
I'm in a major visiting slump right now. So I'll hopefully be out of it soon so I will come and visit you guys. When you visit men, it makes me feel bad for not visiting you..
Well, it's dinner time.. And I need to eat some.