Monday, September 25, 2006

   Homecoming Week: Day 1
1st period: watched a baby whale get eaten by orcas... T_T ...
2nd period: analyzed a sermon for English class, which I didn't really feel comfortable about...
3rd period: got yelled at by the teacher because the whole class didn't do their outlines correctly (or at least, about half of the class didn't do them right... ^_^' )
4th period: took notes
5th period: did a warm-up problem wrong and embarrassed myself... ^_^'
6th period: got 100% on my quiz... XD XD XD
7th period: rehearsed for this week's half-time show

Overall, I'd say I had a pretty good day! ^_^ Now for homework... AAAIIIIIIYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XP XP XP ... ^_^' teehee... have a nice evening everyone!!! ^_^

~ LB ~
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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   Hello everyone!!! ^_^
Sorry I haven't been on for a while. This past week has just been extremely exhausting for me... -_-zzzzzz ... But I'm rested up now! ^_^

Anyways, I feel bad for not updating on Friday, but I'm sure you've already heard... FRIDAY WAS JOSH'S AND MY ONE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD

That's right! This happy couple has been together for a little more than a year now. ^_^ And I would just like to say what a wonderful year this has been. Sure we had some rough times, but hey, whose life is perfect? O.o ... o.O ... ^_^

Josh is a wonderful, sweet, caring person who is always there to make me smile... and hopefully vice-versa. But of course, those are things you guys already know. ^_^ Other things that you should know are that he's hardworking, is polite, considerate, and he's a Christian. ^_^ I wish everyone knew someone like him. He's so awesome!!! ^_^ DAISUKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alrighty, I'd better start on what little homework I have left... XD Have a wonderful day, week, month, year, etc... ^_^' Bye-bye hyuu!!!

~ LB ~
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

   KAWAII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

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   Helloes!!! ^_^
Hey there! ^_^ Soooo... in case you haven't noticed, I changed up my intro a little... and posted a new mp3!!! XD This one is "First Love" by Hikaru Utada. I first heard it in the Tsubasa Chronicle amv that's also in my intro. If you haven't checked it out yet... I COMMAND THOUEST TO DO SO!!!!!!!!!! ... ^_^' ... So yeah, it's absolutely one of my favorite songs of all time! Right up there with "When You Say You Love Me" by Josh Groban. ^_^ And yeah, there's a reason why I put that song up... but you guys will just have to wait and see!!! ^_^ Awighty, I've got homework to do ( T_T ), so I guess I'll wish you all a wonderful evening tonight!!! ^_^

~ LB ~
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Monday, September 18, 2006

   Hello Everyone!!! ^_^
Sorry I've been worrying a lot of people lately. (if you're someone who hasn't been on here for a while and just now decided to visit, that's okay, you don't have to read this... but you can if you want to!!! I'd like that! ^_^ ) It's just a lot of things that have been building up for a while but I just now realized it. I'll be fine though. Anyways, I have enough homework to do, so I probably won't be on anymore today... gomen nasai... T_T ... Alrighty, I hope all of you enjoy your Monday!!! ^_^

~ LB ~
PS - ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU, BOKU NO KARE-CHAN!!! KARE-CHAN ICHIBAN DESU!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
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   Hey Everone!!!!
This is GN (GhostlyNinja) I just thought that I would update for the kindest, most generous person I have ever known. Yes, I am talking about LB. Right now, she needs some support and friendly comments and pm's. Please ask your friends to visit her saite and sign her gb. Such a kind person as LB needs some kind people to help her too.
THANK YOU FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT ARE TRYING TO HELP!!!!!
.:GN:.

O luvi yausha LB!!!!
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Sunday, September 17, 2006

   IT'S A LOVE QUIZ!!! XD ... kind of... ^_^'

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

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   This isn't very much compared to other people, is it...?

Your Life Is Worth...

$966,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

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Monday, September 11, 2006

I won't hold back anymore...
I guess I've led everyone to believe that my life is all handy-dandy yay woohoo it's a beautiful day... Anyways, I'm sorry for that. I didn't want anyone to worry since I know a lot of people already have to deal with their own problems (which are more than likely worse than my own), and some of you don't like reading about other people's crap. But I guess the main reason why I didn't say anything before is because I didn't want to admit that everything seemed to be going wrong for me. But I'm done living a fantasy. I'm coming out with the truth.

A lot of things have been happening since the beginning of summer break. Of course, I was stressed out with all the summer reading I had to do. But then there was the time I wasted on other things when I could have been reading. And in the time I ended up spending reading, I could've been spending time with Josh. I know I hurt him a lot because of this...

Then there's the stress from marching band. I was just so ticked off at the freshmen and all the other older people who refuse to work. All I could think was, "Why should I care when I know those lazy bums won't work?" as I stood by and watched something I loved deteriorate right before my eyes. I've even considered quitting band after this year. For those of you who know me personally, you know that this is something I never would have thought of before. I dunno, everything's just falling apart...

Then here's the biggie... time between my friends and Josh. I've always made it a habit to make new people feel welcome. I remember when I started marching band last year... no one talked to me at first. I just stood on the side, looking at all the groups of friends who hung out all the time, just hoping that even ONE person would say hi to me. I then resolved to never allow another freshman to feel as isolated and insecure as I did.

That was when I met Mariah... she, like most freshmen, didn't try. But on top of that, it already seemed as if no one liked her. I just felt so much for her, so I wanted to be friends with her. So put yourself in this scenario: you're the new person and you absolutely know no one would ever want to even TALK to you; then a random person comes along with her boyfriend offering her friendship to you. Would you jump at it, ecstatic that you're finally wanted?

I guess that's how I felt a lot of times before, except no one extended themselves to me. Mariah was different from everyone else, but after a bit, I already liked her as me friend.

Then at band camp one time, when we were eating dinner, Mariah was sitting by herself and asked me to sit with her. I told Josh that I was going to sit with her and that he could come, too, but he didn't... and everything's been falling apart from there. Mariah was first afraid to even talk to me because she didn't want to upset Josh, but after a few arguments and harsh words, I guess she just finally resolved that Josh didn't like her. And from then on, she's been trying to talk to me all the time, and whenever she does, she asks Josh to leave.

I'm not saying that it's all Mariah's fault, and I'm not saying that it's all Josh's fault. It's just hard to keep two of your loved ones happy when they can't stand each other...

This started back at the beginning of August and has lasted all the way up until now. Josh has been complaining that we don't get to spend as much time together. I try, but between giving time to my friends and Josh and my extracurriculars and my homework, I feel like I'm about to collapse from exhaustion...

And it's not just between Mariah and Josh. There's another one of my friends that likes talking to me whenever she can (which isn't often), and that usually takes up the time Josh and I do have without Mariah...

I wouldn't say that I'm used to it by now, but I've experienced this so many times before... The first time was in first grade. I had 2 best friends from Kindergarten. When we moved into first grade, they were in the same class and I was in another class. One of them I had been friends with since the beginning of Kindergarten, and the other one had moved in halfway into the year. During our first grade year, my first best friend wanted to spend time with me, but my other best friend got annoyed about that. In fourth grade, my best friend (a different person) and I made friends with a new girl in our class. However, my best friend and my new friend started arguing over me, or at least they couldn't see how we could all hang out and all still be happy... Then all throughout middle school, my 2 best friends (one of them is a different person, the other one was my original best friend from 4th grade) kept fighting about a lot of things, and then they started fighting about me. And then there was last year, when Josh and I started dating. His best friend just so happens to be my older brother... you can imagine how awkward it is for your best friend to be your "baby sister's" boyfriend...

But anyways, I just wanted to get all of that out. I doubt any of you will even bother to take the time to read this. I just wanted it out. I've been holding in these feelings for so long. I'm not sure if I should be sorry for hiding this from everyone or if I should be sorry for telling you... but either way, I'm sorry... I just want everyone to be happy with each other... I hope all of you have a good day today...

~ LB ~
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Sunday, September 10, 2006

   Sooooo...
Our football team lost their last game... again... I feel another losing season on the way... (YOU GUYS STINK!!! XP XP XP ... talking to the football players anyway... ^_^' ) And on top of that, I have a million things to do for homework. Seriously, I'm taking 7 classes and no study halls, and now I have 5 classes worth of homework (possibly 6)!!! ... T_T Oh well, can't be helped. I'll talk to you all soon! Have a nice day! ^_^

~ LB ~
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