myOtaku.com: LiquidSilver

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-03-17
Gender
• Female
Location
• Inside 'The World'
Member Since
• 2005-04-24
Occupation
• Professional Sheep Critic.(is your sheep good enough?) And a waitress.
Real Name
• Brandi!

I managed to ditch a whole semester of school. DITCHING IS BAD!
Anime Fan Since
• Since i was little, But realized what it was around 6th grade.
Favorite Anime
•

Goals
• Get my GED, The Licsense.
Hobbies
• WRITING, reading, internet, music, culture, vampires, mermaids, art, subeta, harry potter, fantasy, bitching...mya you all know. xD
Talents
• Im good at writing. at least i think i am lol. its my passion, without it i would wither away and die.

myOtaku.com: LiquidSilver

Monday, March 31, 2008

im back.

sometimes, the terrible person inside me comes out so easily. the stupid, shallow, arrogent person that i know i can be comes out and i dont even realise it.

i tell you, i find it hard to argue with someone is very strong-headed. Someone who i dislike and who calls me childish yet her bantering about on a silly meaningless forum about how she doesnt like to be governed and how she thinks her opinion doesnt matter.

Its a forum. as a matter of fact, its my forum. I am the boss. she is just the post-whoring big fish in a little pond who spouts a bunch of bullshit that she thinks is witty and rebellious.

she thinks she's the better person yet, the only problem that was created was created by her, and ended with her. i certainly dont need her to hold my hand while i make decisions on my forum. she is member to something i created, something that i take care of and something that would be just fine if she werent apart of it. The other members thought she made something small into something big, and all of them have told me that they didnt agree with her.

And this little fued with her came at such a wrong time personally. my emotions have been swirling around and i just...i feel very overwhelmed.

I was rejected, beaten down, and very close to broke this week.

you know. i took a chance with that date. i met a guy that was a lot more interesting than me and i cant blame him for rejecting me. but you know what? i did what ive been telling you all ive wanted to do for so long. i stepped out of my little shell and...reached out to creating something better for myself. i have to say though, i feel like im back where i started, but with a little more pain to bare. i refuse to step out again....why would any other date be different? i am a plain boring person that has no life and never will. i cant bring myself to speak my mind casually and i cant bring myself to loosen up so its just pointless.

and i would also like to add that i am a very shallow and cruel person. i go from being rejected to rejecting someone that has only shown a tremendous amount of infatuation for me and i dont even bother giving him a chance. i am terrible.

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