Tuesday, January 15, 2008

   Little update
Hey all,
Guess what?I've submitten the last three arts I've had scanned in a while ago.Lol,I know...I'm too lazy most of the time!X3
But I should draw some things and scan them in again,I haven't been drawing since I was sick...

I've also started writing my latest idea of a story.This time I wrote it down first,well...At least the important things,or else I might forget the good stuff and get stuck around chapter 3 again!(most of my stories ends around chapter 3 somehow...But that's also because I lose my inspiration and all)
I've submitted it on DeviantArt,here's the url if you want to read the first chapter!
http://kitsylove.deviantart.com/art/Ancient-Times-of-Cairo-Egypt-74721797

I think I'll draw some about the story soon.I also hope to make this into a manga one day,but I can't promise anything,since the Atlantis story died a while ago.(To be honest,Antlantis story was a kind of an inspiration for this story,maybe that was just a test story or something,I dunno!)
Well,I hope you'll enjoy reading it,if you read it.X3

Tomorrow I will go to the doctor at 2 pm.I need to go there to check if I'm doing okay and what I can't do for a while thanks to those antibiotics.(well,P.E. I can't do for a while,since my lungs are hypersensitive,lol,that's what she said,hypersensitive,and I'll difficulties breathing if I do too much.So I need to do things in easy-mode or something I guess...)And I'll tell her the things that still hurts or anything else.Well,what I do know for sure is that I can't stay home any longer!I'm so bored and I'm like...Working for school sometimes too!(well,that's because I just don't want to get behind too much,lol.)

I've also been thinking about my next education.I'm pretty much sure that I'll go do the Laboratory-education thing.I've always had something with microscopes,lol.And strange names of things that are in food,stones etc. just grabs me.I like complicated words.But the only problem would be maths,well...I already discussed it with my dad and I think that if it's not going with maths I'll ask for extra lessons or something.It shouldn't be something that should be able to stop me from picking this education!

Well...I finished reading Tokyo Mew Mew,lol...Yes,all 7 volumes in just two or three days.It did get me addicted,but not in the same way as Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode...Strange,isn't it?
And most people who's favourite character is Ichigo,hates Berry...Well,guess what?I don't hate Berry,at all!In fact,she's sharing the number one fave spot with Ichigo,lol.I just think she's cute,that's all.Must be because she just looks a bit like Ichigo,Berry's even more clumsy and just the whole thing with her childhood friend is just soooo cute,lol.X3
I find the whole thing about Ichigo and Aoyama a bit boring...Meh,I don't like Aoyama at all...So that might be it,lol.X3
I did liked the moments of Ichigo with Shirogane and Kisshu.Those moments were mostly just thouching or just too funny for words...I do recommend reading the manga of Tokyo Mew Mew!

Talking about the manga again...When's that stupid idiot going to call me to tell me that Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode is in?I'm like....Waiting for two weeks!He said it might take up to two weeks...Yeah..Well...It should be in any moment,right?
Then I hope I can go outside again,or else I'll be in trouble,my dad's not home till around 6 pm so they might be closed by then,but they should keep it reserved,away from others who wants it.
Oh well...If they don't call me,I'll search the manga on Ebay again...Might take another two weeks but it can be cheaper.(or more expensive,depends.)

Okay,I'll stop with my endless rants about almost the same subjects!

I hope you're having fun with your life,because I feel like jumping through the whole house today!X3(I shouldn't do that,lol...I'll be panting for air then thanks to the antibiotics...Oh yeah,today I had my last antibiotics,phew...Finally...Now hope I won't get anything else...I don't think I will,since I started eating more fruit and drinking more water...I should go out more often in the summer...All that for my immune-system!)

ByeBye!

~Kitsy~
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Monday, January 14, 2008

   Still a bit sick
Hello again.X3

I still feel a bit of sick but not sick enough to not start working on my schoolwork...I just can't sit still for so long and besides,I'm getting far behind if I don't anyway.
Tomorrow is my last antibiotics pills so after tomorrow I can actually go to school again,I think...Well,Wednesday I'm going to the doctor again to check if everything's going fine and all...(man,I have to say,I breathing more difficult thanks to those antibiotics...Graaah...I never want to be sick again...NEVER...T3T)

Sigh,waiting forever for that one phonecall from that manga shop...It has been two weeks now,right?He said it might take two weeks before Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode will come in...Graaah...

Talking about Tokyo Mew Mew,I've started to read the first manga.(yes I started with the second story and then started with the first story,lol.What?I've already seen the anime of the first manga,so I was curious to read about Berii!)
But to be honest,I find it...Less entertaining for some reason...Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode really just got me hooked,this one just...Somehow doesn't get me hooked.Okay,it's still fun to read but still...Does anyone feel this same feeling here?X3

Meh...I'm bored as hell...Might go read on with Tokyo Mew Mew or go watch Cardcaptor Sakura again...Or maybe I should draw a bit...I'm in a Tokyo Mew Mew mood again so I might try and draw Berii or Ichigo...Or not...Lol...I still have a load on my computer that still needs to be submitten.X3
Hm,time to get off my lazy ass and submit something again!

Nothing much else to say,so actually I'm wasting your time,lol.
I hope you guys are having a good time!

~Kitsy~
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

   Another update
Today I went to the doctor again,since I got difficulties breathing and all.I got a different doctor now and she examinated my lungs and told me I've got a lunginfection....WTF?<.<
Sigh,at least it's not pneumonia...I was being a bit affraid it was pneumonia,but it's not.X3
Now I have to stay home for a while...Damnit!X3
I've got antibiotics for the infection...Soooo,I'll remain sick for a while,lol.X3

~Kitsy~
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008

   Siiick...
Hey all,
I'm being sick right now...
But at least I don't have anything with hyperventilation for a few days.

My eyes darn itches,I had a little fever and have a bit difficulty breathing.I already called the doctor,but he says,if it hurts breathing call back later and we'll make an appointment tomorrow.Wtf,if that's going to happen(that hurting while breathing) then I know what I have and then I can't wait for tomorrow!(if it hurts breathing,then I probably have pneumonia,but it doesn't hurt breathing,yet so don't worry.X3) Also the doctor said there was some illness going around and it would be over at the end of the week...Great,two tests I will be missing.I can't stay home for a whole week!It's like I got another week off or something....

Yesterday,I did go to school but once the 4th period started I broke down all of the sudden.I suddenly cried and I left the classroom,my friend following.I really didn't know what was going on,I didn't really had a reason to cry...But yeah,probably it was caused by that illness I got infected with,lol.I feel like crying sometimes today too.

Agh...I barely got out of bed today...My dad saw me this morning and said 'okay,you're going to stay home now,you're really sick.' Well,I wasn't going to school anyway,but I also had to go to the dentist and we didn't called them 24 hours before the appointment to say that I just can't go out...Now I feel bad for being sick,because my dad has to pay...Meh,at some time today my temperature rised to 38 C. and lowered to 35 C. too,then it was just going up and down again,lol.I felt worried so that was the moment I called the doctor.I had to keep track of the temperature and just keep taking some medicines to stop the pain a bit.

I slept till 2 pm today,then my wifi was being shoved through my mailbox and first I thought 'hm...I don't want to get up' but then all of the sudden my mind said 'it's the wifi,it's in,it's in!Go look,stupid!' X3
But first I had trouble installing it,because the 'normal' way of installing didn't seem to work so I looked it up on the internet and guess what?Others had the same with this wifi from Edup.Lucky for us,someone else posted in a forum and explained what you exactly had to do before it would work.And now it works...<

Only read the following text if you have Pokemon Diamond or Pokemon Pearl!X3

Damn,I want my Mismagius and Palkia...And Misdreavus too...<.<
But those people want legendary pokemon and I hate it when the names aren't the original names or in kanji's!
Well,I put up my Honchcrow for trade and I want a Mismagius in return!I don't want to give away my Dialga which isn't even the level that person wanted it.<.< (he wanted to trade a mismagius around lvl 40 to a lvl 70 dialga...Yeah,right,I'm not stupid!)My Friend's Code,for those who want it,is 3179 5012 2575.

End of pokemon text,lol.

I'm still waiting for the phone call from the manga store...They said up to two weeks...It's almost two weeks...I'm being impatient.X3
But really,I want my Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode.T3T
Lucky me it's only two volumes...If I also wanted to buy the first Tokyo Mew Mew manga I would spent even more than I have.
(they're around 11 euro's and in dollars they're 9.99....Hey,I have to pay more!The dollar price in euro's is 6.79!Hm,I do understand though,they do want profit from selling those manga because they also have to import them from America...But still!....)

My dad called me a few times,lol...He was a bit worried.You know,I never really get sick.This is like the first time I felt like this.
That's why I was so worried when my temperature was going up and down for a while.I did have had a little fever a few months ago,but that wasn't so bad as now,I now feel worse and also have to cough... *thinks of pneumonia again* noooo,it's okay...It's not going to be that bad,is it?...Geez,I worry too much,no wonder I got hyperventilation...(hyperventilation is caused by stress,fear etc. but can also be caused by other medical things but I think my cause is too much stress...)
But for the hyperventilation I have to get lessons in breathing,lol.Friday is the first appointment,but if I'm sick,I won't go...
But it's before school,so I think I'll go and see how I will do for a while.I don't want to stay alone home all the time,it's kind of depressing sometimes.

Another subject!
I finished Star Ocean 3: Till the End of Time!Finally...I was training all the time,because people said the last dungeon was hard,very hard...well,I was around level 50-60,I went to the dungeon when I was level 70 and guess what...It went waaay too easy,lol.Except for the Final Boss,but that's natural,I wasn't killed.
But even after finishing the Final Boss,there's so much to do...There are optional bosses...New dungeons you can access too and you can train your characters till over level 200... (from what I've seen from screenshots,it's possible,lol.)

Meh,I think I'm going to take some more rest,my eyes are tired...I feel tired...

Edit:I can't change my mood thing...I'm not feeling sarcastic at all!I feel SICK...=.=

Oh,I almost forgot,I have a Gaia Online account now,so anyone that has one,my name's KitsyLove there!(Gee...That shouldn't be too hard,lol.)

I'll be going now...I hope you're doing better than I am right now...

~Kitsy~

Edit: I wonder what has happened to Mastah-Aram?He hasn't been around for like...A whole year...He was a nice friend.T3T (one of my first friends here..)
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Thursday, January 3, 2008

   Bored...
Hey everyone.^w^
How are you doing?
2008 has started,wow,a year does go fast. Hm,not much to tell actually...I'm still waiting for the phone call from the manga shop...*stares at phone for hours,not moving*
It could take two weeks,she said...Great...
And I'm waiting for my Wi-Fi to arrive!I bought one(well,my dad bought it)on Ebay so soon I can have contact with the whole world with my Pokemon Diamond.
Monday I have to go to the doctor(finallyyyyy) lucky me,I have the first period off,or else I had to wait even longer.(that stupid doctor isn't there in the noon,great,just great...)

Sigh,I'm bored. I grew a bit bored on Tales of Pirates Online...And the other games started to bore me as well.X3

A few days left and then back to school again for me...I don't want to,lol. But,if I go to school,I'll draw again!(I only draw at school out of boredom.X3)

Okay,I'll stop this journal,I'm just wasting your time.X3
*jumps out of my window,but doesn't get hurt,since my window isn't that high at all*Maybe I should start writing my story that I was planning to write for a few months now...Hm...Maybe...Maybe not... Ohwell...

I hope you have a less boring day than I have.X3

~Kitsy~

Edit:I have a background now!You must still remember this one,I've had this one before.It's Nanoha from Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha again!X3

Edit2:I have now a Gaia Online account!My name there is KitsyLove,so if you have an account there,add me if you'd like.^w^
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Friday, December 28, 2007

   Hellow Hellow.X3
Hey there,
How was Christmas for you all?Mine was okay.Fun,fun.X3

Hm,with my hyperventilation is going alright now,I don't have to take he pills that much,but I do want to take one before going to sleep,since it mostly starts when I go asleep.I'm going to have a chat with my doctor Monday,so I'll hear what I'm going to do next.

Today my dad and I went in the city,searching for stores with manga.Most of them didn't really sell a lot but one of them was really cool.I saw Naruto,Black Cat,even Pita Ten and one,ONE volume of Tokyo Mew Mew...And it wasn't even Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode,lol.I asked about it and now it's going to be ordered,when it has arrived at the shop,I'll be called and I'll go there to buy the two volumes.Yay!My very first manga I will have!X3
I just need to have Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode,I had so much fun reading the manga on my computer that I just need to have it in my possesion!X3

There were also action figures in that store,some magazines etc,just the perfect shop for me,lol.

After that we went walking through the Chinese part of the city.Yes we even have a Chinese part here,lol.It's full of Chinese,Japanese shops even a supermarket were found there.And a shrine.We went inside and really...I felt like I was home for the first time.Believe me,I'm supposed to be in Japan or China,lol.X3
(you can already imagine me going to those Chinese/Japanese supermarkets in the Chinese part instead of going to a normal Dutch one,lol.I will really do that!)
But even the streetnames were in kanji or something,that was really fun,haha.

I've finally started watching Cardcaptor Sakura again,I've never finished it.I never came further than episode 16...Now I'm at episode 16 again.Wow,how much episodes can you watch in one day?X3

Well,yeah..Uh...That's all I have to say,I think...Me is going to watch some more Sakura today,then I'm going to play some Star Ocean again,fun game..Lol,I started overnew while I didn't finished the first saved game yet.Haha,I got bored of only training my charas and then keep dying because my charas are too weak or something...

What do you think of the background,btw?It's Berii and Ichigo from Tokyo Mew Mew,Berii is cute,she's my fave character,next to Ichigo,she's just like Ichigo,but yeah...Some people hate Berii because they think Berii is actually just replacing Ichigo,which is kind of true,the story in A La Mode goes around Berii and not Ichigo.But still I think it's fun.I just like the whole thing of Berii.X3
It's only a bummer that the mangaka got bored on Tokyo Mew Mew and kind of gave it a strange ending...I really wish she continued it but yeah,if she got bored on the Mews then we can't do something about it.I just wish they turned it into an anime as well...I really want to see Berii in anime.Oh well.We'll see if that will happen or not.

Oops,I kept ranting about Tokyo Mew Mew.X3
Well,I hope you will have fun with New Year's Eve and enjoy the fireworks,because I definitely will!X3

~Kitsy~

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Sunday, December 23, 2007

   Post post
Hello hello.^w^

Well,the past few night were litterally not okay for me.
I had pain in my chest when going to sleep,I was trembling and sweating and a stinging pain in my chest.
I have this since Thursday night.
Actually,I was kind of scared to go to sleep because I didn't know what this was.Friday night went okay,no problems at all,but last night was horrible...It hurt so badly and I was like,panting all the time.I let my dad call the doctor,but they would let us go to a whole different part of the city.First of all,it's the middle in the night,second of all,it's cold,third of all,we didn't have small money at the moment,so I had to keep strong the whole night.I couldn't sleep at all,just scared of that hurting feeling again.Around 4 or 5 am I finally fell asleep and woke up around 10.30 am.Then we went to the doctor...It was strange since this thing was only at night and not at day,but today,I also had it at daytime.
After a long wait in the waiting room we were called in.
After a little examination he told me that I had the classic things of hyperventilation. Hyperventilation?Wtf?Well,at least it's not that bad.I got my medicines.(great,even more medications...First my medications for astma and allergic things,then hyperventilation stuff...)Well,after we stood outside,I felt so relieved and calm again.(I was trembling in the waiting room and had difficulties breathing).
Actually I was expecting something like a heart disease or some infection of my lungs...Well,guess not.
Meh,I took the pills almost an hour ago,I think it's working already...I feel calm,no pain in chest anymore,calm breathing.

Oh crap,I think I'm feeling the side effects of the medicine right now...I can feel a bit slow and my reactions might be off...Also I can have memory loss too...Oh,great to hear that. I think I only have the bit slow thing,at least I feel better and calm now.^w^

Yeah...Uh...There was a disco at my school Friday.^w^
It was really fun,great music,everybody dancing.

Uh,yeah,I don't have anything to tell more now...
Oh I do!I've finished watching Kanon 2006 and I finished the whole manga serie of Sailor Moon and also the manga of Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode.
I think I'm going to buy Tokyo Mew Mew A La Mode,I really liked it. Meh,perhaps I should also read the other manga of Tokyo Mew Mew,the first manga that is.
Well,I hope everyone's enjoying the freedom of the holidays.^w^

ByeBye~

~Kitsy~
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Sunday, December 16, 2007

   Updates,updates...
Hey all,
How are you doing?
I'm doing fine,one week to go and I have freedom until the 7th of Januari!Yaaay!And Friday is a day that we celebrate Christmas on school too...Not that it's going to be fun,most people here are just not motivated to do anything fun.Oh well,with my friend around,it's definatly going to be fun!X3
But still...A disco after having Christmas lunch at school?Christmas+Disco=BAD COMBINATION...Unless they do a Christmas themed disco.O3O

Talking about school,it's going great,only I need to find my next education for next year and it's not really easy to pick one...I have until March...=w=
I'm interested in Laboratory things,continueing Administrative education or something with teachers or something.(an education for becoming a teacher...I like kids,but I don't think it's the right thing for me...So I'll have to choose between Lab education or Administrative education...Augh!I can't choose!=w=)

I also got my first report!It's a nice report with good grades.=3
Yeah,only P.E. a bit less,but it's still sufficient!(I have astma so I can't do as much with P.E. than other kids and the teacher always gives me sufficient grades even when I fail at running and all.^w^)

Hm,I want to say more things but I can't come up with more things to tell...That's strange,I really feel like I have so much to tell...Augh!(Dang,I have something with 'augh' and 'dang' today...Blame games for it.O3O)

Oh,I got my birthday present from my friend.^w^ (My birthday was on April the 20th,lol...) I got a little bracelet with two little bells on it.(you know,those bells which are actually for a collar for a cat).I think it's really cute.
Except my dad,no one seemed to have noticed it.*imagine me waving with the arm the two bells are hanging at in class,making a lot of ringing noise,no one seems to notice* Really,even if I do that on purpose no one notices...Oh well,I don't care.

I also got the birthday present for my friend as well.(her birthday is on the same day as Angel's...Hm,perhaps the people born on that day are the best people to be friends with,since Angel and my friend of school are both my best friends...Scary,really scary.O3O)
She was going crazy when she saw a little ballerina girl with glitters and all,which was actually meant for putting it in a Christmas tree and I bought it for her.She was really happy with it.X3 Lol,yeah...We both have strange birthdaywishes.I catbells on a bracelet and she a ballerina for in a Christmas tree.X3
Oh well,as long as we're happy with it,right?X3

I also have submitten three drawings a few moments ago.^w^
Well,it's actually one and the same drawing but then one as a sketch,one redone the lineart on the computer and the last one coloured on the computer.I'm also using that same drawing as my avatar.I made an animation out of it.X3
Yes,I was in the mood,I think.O3O

hm,now I'm really out of things to say...
Well,I hope all of you have a nice time and will enjoy Christmas soon.^w^

See you later!*waves* (yes,I'm feeling good today.O3O)

~kitsy~


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Thursday, December 6, 2007

   Jouuurnal post...(yeah,random)
Hey all!^w^

I'm feeling much better now,thanks for your sweet pm's and comments^w^
I was kind of sick a few days ago but now I'm feeling better again.I just went to bed early and didn't do too much on school if I didn't have to do that much.(normally,I continue working till I can't).

I was having a weird day today.I was tired and with P.E. I was having a lot of fun,laughing a lot and such,but AFTER,I was feeling so weird,I was being grumpy and all.It was like the happy mood was pulled out of me.
But I did have a really stupid,yet funny moment while playing Volleyball with a classmate...I smashed the ball against the thing that was holding the line and it bounced right back into my face...=w=
Ouch my nose,is what I said,lol.My classmate was almost rolling on the floor of laughing.X3
But my head went back while being hit by the ball,so now I'm kind of having a bit of pain in my neck.=w= (really...I was having a real anime moment,lol...)

After that we had office-experience class.(damn,I don't know how else I should call it,lol.) We worked a bit,but mostly of the time,we were busy with turning the whole classroom into a nice place with a Christmas tree and other decorations.It was kind of fun,but I was still having that strange grumpy mood somehow,I just couldn't have fun.

When I came home,I immediatly took a shower and now I feel a lot better.Hmm...It's stupid that our bathroom is waaay to small for a bath...Okay,note to myself:Next house has to have a bath or else I'll cancel it anyway...Even if that house looks so cute.

Well,yeah...I don't really have much to tell anymore so...Oh,oh!I almost forgot!X3
I have submitten three drawings a few minutes ago,so go to my portfolio to see them,if you'd like.X3
Okay,that really is everything I have to say.X3

Cya!

~Kitsy~
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Monday, December 3, 2007

   Why I was gone this weekend...
Yeah,for those who didn't notice,I was gone this weekend,since I wasn't able to comment and such.
Well,here's the story;
I had to get the medicine from the pharmacy for my dad and me on Thursday.I completely forgot about it.Next day,I went to another city with a friend since we had the whole day off.I came home around 4 in the noon and I just didn't think about the medicine and the pharmacy at all,so you can guess...I forgot again.My dad punishes me first with a week no computer...Okay,first of all,no one should do that,since I just need to go on the computer to see how everyone is doing and all. Most of my friends are on the internet,not in real life.
Later while we were shopping,he asks me if I'm angry at him,or at myself.I'm angry at myself,alright?Of course I'm not angry at myself!Okay,I forgot to get the medicine from the pharmacy,so what?Nothing can change the fact that I forgot about it,Monday's another day to get it anyway so don't worry!Damn...He already 'halved' the amount of days I have to be without the computer,as you can see,I can go on the computer now already. The whole weekend,I was being grumpy,I just couldn't keep it inside and just go along with the flow.He was being grumpy as well,but that's not the problem,the problem is,that when I'm saying something in some kind of probably annoying way to him,I have to stop that,while he can go and be grumpy all the time.He's also trying to be funny,first I would laugh,but now I'm only feeling disgusted by him.The whole week I felt like that towards him,since I know he has contact with those 'stephfamily' again.I don't mind him having contact with them again,as long as I won't be involved(which he already did) and won't go live with them again.I mean,seriously,after three times of breaking up,that should be enough of evidence to know that it's not working.I also told my dad a while ago(a few months ago) that I don't want any contact with them.Saturday,this is what he asks(not even ask) to me: Hey Eva,draw an anime for *insert the name of one of the two kids of that stephmotherwhatever*.I first said that anime was animated and the things I draw is called manga.I did draw something,but with mixed emotions.I mean,why should I actually draw something for a person I actually hate?Gosh...I really don't understand why I even took the time to actually draw something for that person too...Damn,my dad doesn't take my words seriously!I can't even tell him my own opinions without being interupted by his own thoughts all the time of what I'm telling him,while not having heard the whole story.Then again,mostly of the time,he disagrees with my opinions and he's that kind of guy that you can't talk to anyway.
The whole weekend was spent with reading and I felt like crying all the time.Today,it was so weird.I felt that something strange was going on with my body.Everything went slow for a few moments and one moment I felt myself almost slipping away.Perhaps that my inner bucket of emotions is getting full now and my body reacts on it...My friend told me that if I needed to stay somewhere else I could stay at her place as long as I want.She is the only one who I told about the real situation with the 'stephfamily' and she told it to her parents,which leaded to that I'm welcome anytime.She also knows that I want to go to America or anywhere I can be away from my dad and everyone else I hate.I'm also almost about to run away from this place and go stay at my friends house only for school and then leave this whole place to life alone.I know that's normally not an option,but you can't talk with my dad at all!I can know it,since I have been stuck with him for now 16 years!Sometimes I really think he's doing it on purpose and I'm wondering if the whole thing he did for me in the past was even worth it anyway,I mean...Seriously,I really feel hate towards my dad right now.I can't even smile normally,he's so being ugh...And it all started when he got contact again with 'stephfamily'.Gosh,I can't stand it anymore...
I know all of this sounds confusing right now...But if it really concerns you,you can send me a message and I'll send you one back with the whole story about the 'stephfamily'.(which can be long,or short,I don't know)

Besides of that,I'm kind of doing fine,I think.
Sorry for this depressing journal...=w=

~Kitsy~

EDIT: Now I understand why everyone thinks it's hard to live alone with only your dad...
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