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Wednesday, October 6, 2004
Heartless...
Little impotent minds,
You promised me hope,
you promised me peace of mind.
Now I'm all alone crying some tears
That I wouldn't even think that could ever appear.
And now I'm all alone in the darkness full of minds,
That only tease, and never think of the pain that's inside...
I feel like the Macintosh OS. "Find Program HEART.exe.....searching....file not found."
Now, I run out to talk to a few friends, trying to get over the numbness, trying to show a little happiness or a little joy....
"You idiot! You're dealing with shit you shouldn't have to! Your heart is fucking gone!"
Dad's bein' an ass, sleep's bein' elusive...seems like I ain't slept a wink in a week, though I know for a fact I slept a good four, five hours earlier. Now, it's just.....
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
I've become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you!
Please, please, please don't blame yourself for this. You know who you are, and I know you'll read this.
I know I'll get through this. I know I can live, I know I'll grow stronger from this. PLEASE don't hurt yourself or blame yourself over this.
THAT would kill me, more surely than losing you could ever do. |
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