myOtaku.com: JD Person

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Birthday
• 1990-02-12
Gender
• Male
Location
• in my own little universe, the entrance to which is somewhere in inkster michigan
Member Since
• 2005-03-25
Occupation
• slacker/writer/brooding mystic/spaz/idiot/confused wandering lost soul/puppy [in joke] Straight, brown haired Eiri Yuki
Real Name
• J-D, Got it memorized?

Personal

Achievements
• i've managed to spend 10 years in school and never had a girlfriend, thats an achievment in its sadness. but i've been in school 12 years now...
Anime Fan Since
• i first saw Gundam Wing
Favorite Anime
• Chobits, Gundam Seed,excel saga, Bleach, Naruto, Ergo Proxy, Blood +, Myhthical Dectective Loki Ragnarok, Makai Senki Disgaea, Tokko, Pucca, Gravitation, Ikki Tousen, Full Metal Panic, Kare Kano, Blue Gender, GITS, Cromartie High, inuyasha,.hack,kenshin,
Goals
• to gain good friends and to meet up with "someone" over the summer.
Hobbies
• writing my Flamer Fic, surfin' the net, training with various weapons
Talents
• annoying people, being crafty in times of trouble

myOtaku.com: JD Person

Monday, September 17, 2007

Fighting spirit.
i feel like my soul is dead again, i think i felt this way before i got a little sick before, now i feel this way again and once more i'm sick, sicker than ever.

i'd say this illness is comparable to wonderful level of disease i contracted from Bev splashing me in the mouth with log ride water at Circus Circus, i have the same fun filled symptoms, mind shreddingly sore throat, tempreture irregularities, nausea. but still there are a few i'm missing, at least so far. my fever hasn't gotten high enough to make my eye liquids burn my eyes, nor have i experienced what i believe is vertigo, it felt like lag while you're you're playing x-box live, i'll just be walking along for a while then all of the sudden the world catches up with me, or as i turn my head it feels like the world needs to catch up, and then scenery just snaps into place. i think it might be because i have some sort of epilepsy, because it only happened in the flourecent lights of the hospital my dad was in, i say epilepscy because i experience the feeling of deja vue a lot anhd that sensation is linked to epilepscy.

but the new symptom i have now is that i have absolutely no energy, last time i was sick i had all my energies, but right now i just feel like my soul isn't driving me, i feel like a mech with no pilot. whatever i want to do just doesn't seem important, i have no drive to do things. sadly the things i do have drive to do won't work, i have a project due tomorrow and i wanted to work on it but i can't, the caucking gun i need to afix things to the project i don't know how to work it. i've never used a caucking gun before so i have no idea how to operate one, i could have got a lot done if it'd worked but instead i just layed around and watched TV, which may have helped me recover [i don't know if it is or not] but i just feel lazy and useless.

i hate being sick, because i may be lazy but the things i do do mean a lot to me, so not being ableto do all the things i want to makes me feel so weak and pathetic. i want to write my story, finish my project or decorate my room but instead i just end up being a lump on the couch, i really feel like all i need to go with my headache, hot flashes and abdominal pain is to break out a pint of icecream whilest i watch Montel Williams. my mom mentioned she goes through that stuff too, to which i applied "your overies are dying, you're supposed to feel this way, i'm young and male, this isn't natural for me." i also started crying when Bev didn't call me back in the morning when she said she would, well she said she would if she could get the cell phone, i suppose i could have called her but once again here i am wrapped up in a blanket crying because my lover is ignoring me. i seriously must look like Chris Crocker right about now.

speaking of whiny little fruits, i'm glad i didn't get any CC-esque "LEAVE KANYE ALONE!!!!!!!!" messages from you guys, i really wouldn't be able to take it, i'm spiritually broken and i', pushing an energiless body. the other night when me and my dad were getting throat soothing chemicals i could feel my body quiver, now i don't know if i'm weak and shaky or due to the fact i always tremble a little if i hold still, Bev sways, i shake. so it might be like The Doctor told Rose in the first ep of the new series "i can feel the world turn." maybe i'm just so weak my subtle trembles feel like full on muscle spasms, either way i'm not too happy right now.

i'm starting to think this might all be karma for me spouting all that venom about Kanye, but then again everything i said i truely believe and i'm glad you guys agree with me. i think it might just be all the negetative feelings i have inside that are cutting my body's defenses off at the knees, when you're under stress its easier to become sick, and i've been under some stress, i argued with this total dickwad in my 6th hour because he was making fun of my Animenetwork "Girl Power" shirt, so i layed into him and walked away with with a Gin Ichimaru-esque smile. i saw him in the hall and some little emo-ho he was with called me a "faggot" in passing. its fine though, much like a bundle of sticks i do have a lot of wood. so i was beaming with my successes in taking on someone like Wilcock who is seen as cool because he picks on people much weaker than him, so taking me on and being matched or even beaten really rocked his world, he learned that picking a word-fight with me is different than challenging a kid on crutches to a fist fight.

but as i was walking my weeny dog and beaming about letting loose all that on Wilcock we snuck up on a little squirrel who did see us until too late and ran out into the street into an on coming car. i thought he was just scared because he flipped around a little then layed down, so i thought he was just scared anf fainted, but when i went over to him, well are far as his eyes went he looked like a suprised cartoon character, so i walked away in shock, then ended up going back and pushing him to the side of the road so his body wouldn't get destroyed anymore. the image of that little guy haunt me, and along with having to do this project and my hatred of Kanye West i think my body is just too frazzled to heal properly, so i'll just be suffering for a while.

-Quote-

"if the bible were written today i'd be in it."

-Kanye West

♥ JD Person ♥
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