Wednesday, August 5, 2009

   Writing...

Hiya... As the title suggests... I have been writing...still. My grandma can't seem to wrap her head around how or why I write so much. It's rather odd lol. She's taken to calling my book "The Great American Novel", which I find rather amusing. Chapter 1 of book 2 is almost complete. Gosh, it takes me three days to write a chapter... SLOW! I don't read much at all, which is totally weird for a writer, but I went on Barnsandnoble.com just the same to check it out. I didn't find anything worth my time. I don't know why my problem is, but I just can't read! I don't mean that I CAN'T read... in that way... but I can't read because my patients runs out. For one, most authors love description... but I hate it because when I read I don't picture things... I just read the words on the page... so description for me is kind of useless. I don't see what's going on... so I guess that's my problem. It's also why my book would probably fail. I don't use a lot of description. As you would imagine, it's hard to describe something you can't SEE! I don't see the houses my characters live in, or what they look like, or what they drive in... or anything like that. I focus on character development, emotions, and relationships mostly. I did describe Adrian's party dress in some detail though... that required several pictures for referance. It's not that I CAN'T describe things... If I have a picture of a place I can find the right words to paint a picture, but since there is no picture for the den of the Nash mansion I can't describe it. lol. Everybody is shocked when I say I write, but they become even more shocked when I say that I don't read at all. They all give me the How-Is-That-Even-Possible look. Apparently all writers read a lot... though I don't actually know since I never really did any research on the subject... but it sort of goes together I would figure. You write a book because you love to read books right? I suppose that makes me weirder than weird. I'm writing a book... but I dislike reading... why? I have no idea. It's sort of just become a compulsion... I just sort of do it... it's a little weird now that I think about it... I tried to read Stephenie Meyer's The Host. I was trying to be fair to the woman by trying out more of her stuff... but it sucked... more than Twilight... which is hard to imagine... She really is a terrible writer... I just don't understand it at all... really I don't. Apparently she can, and only will, write in the first person which annoys the HELL out of me! Especially when it's done as poorly as she does it. Her first person in The Host is even worse than in Twilight... I kidd you not ladies and gents. Not only that, but one of the characters in the book is named and I quote, "Fords Deep Waters." NO LIE! REALLY!?!? Fords Deep Waters?? Seriously!? Bella Swan and now THIS!? Is she trying to make herself seem stupid? I realize that character names are supposed to be creative but that isn't creative... it's STUPID with a capital S! *Bashes head on keyboard repeatedly* Why is she doing this to me? Why is she making me hate her more and more each day? Why is she such a talantless writer? I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW SHE GOT ANYTHING PUBLISHED! I don't understand it! Never have I been so utterly disgusted with humanity than I am this very evening. People on Barnsandnoble.com say this is a good book! FORDS DEEP WATERS people! FORDS DEEP WATERS!!!! This whole situation makes me want to cry inside. FORDS DEEP WATERS!!! It pains me to read this book! It pains me to see that stupid name in the prolouge! GOSH! She is the worst writer of ALL time! It makes me so frustrated that she's famous! GOD!!!! If anybody went to her website and read the first half Midnight Sun then you'll understand why I hate Twilight... other than the fact that the plot sucks and that Breaking Dawn scared me for life... (Birthing scene *shutters*) Every Twilght Fan EVER insists that Edward is not a stalker... yet in Midnight Sun he clearly states that he IS one. He said, andI I quote "[I was acting] like a stalker. An obsessive stalker. An obsessive vampire stalker. If you don't beleive me suffer through the crappy thing on her website for free. That begs a question for me... WHY IS SHE SURPRISED HER BOOK GOT LEAKED? She had half of the damn thing online as it was? DUMB-ASS! It sucked anyway. As far as I'm concerned the leaker did humanity a favor. As one of my good sources said, "If we'd only but known this would have stopped her so easily we'd have leaked Twilight and had the series done with before it ever began." Well I took some liberties with that quote, but it's esseintially the same. Golly am I ever ranting tonight. Reading that "book" was enough to get me rialed. Seeing that the world has lowered its standards so far is quite depressing. I feel like 50 years ago such a story would have been laughed out of every publishig company on the face of the planet. *Calms down* I should focus this energy on my own book... this post is very long... and rather angry... XD That's all. Bye! FORDS DEEP WATERS IS NOT A NAME!!!! Comments (0) | Permalink Saturday, August 1, 2009    New beginnings.... almost.... Hiya... School starts in a month and a week. It really kind of sucks. I've been obsessing over summer and suddenly it's August already. Summer shouldn't be able to go this quickly... there should be a law or something. I'm excited for Senior year for 3 reasons: 1. I finally get to drive to school! No more bus! I HATED the bus with a passion!! 2. I'm going to have 3 to 4 periods off a day... Beautiful.... 3. I'm but 9 months away from completing high school forever! To be honest, I'm ready for High School to be over... already. Just this summer alone I've come to realize how ready I am to move on. Come next year and I go to college I'll get to start over. All of my friends are going to far off schools. I'm sticking around here and going to our community college and I'm really excited to meet NEW people. People who actually like what I like... This summer has really shown me how much my friends and I have changed, mostly me I feel. To be honest I feel like a fish out of water with my friends now... I feel like I've grown up a lot even in the last 5 months or so. The license played a large part I think... I just find myself not enjoying my time with them as much... Then again I plan everything... and they don't like to do that. They enjoy being spontanious... but spontinaity makes me nervous... very nervous. lol. I'm like an old person. I like to have everything planned out and I need to be on time. I guess my problem is I'm ready to grow up, but my friends aren't. I feel very ready for adulthood. I feel ready for responcibilty and all of that sort of thing. I've been thinking a lot about my friends and everything... maybe it's just summer talking. I become such a hermit in the summer and usually get better for school, but I'm not so sure this year. I'll probably wind up being indifferent to pretty much everybody next year. I'm in a very indifferent mood. Usually I'm only indifferent to people I hate, but this year most of my friends annoy me too... to the point of indifference that is. Everything else in life is good. I've been watching movies, listening to music, driving, and writing constanly. I finally finished the book. I am now editing it. Probably will be another year or so before I think of it as "Done." Writing it has finished for now. The reason I say a year is because I want to edit it, change it on the computer, and then start school and look at it later to see if I still like it. If I do then I might take steps to get it looked at. Until that happens, you all know I've got to have a project. Thus the sequel. It's really not a sequel... more of a second part. It continues the story as if it were just the first book... extended... I guess that's what a sequel is isn't it? Well no matter. I've begun working on it and I'm 7 pages in WOO HOO! XD It feels so weird working on a new story. It's flowing well though, really well, so I can't complain. I'd still be working on it, but I'm so tired that I stopped myself. I need to sleep... I've been up too late the last few days... I'm going to try sleeping before 2 today. lol. Shocking I know... That's about all. Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Tuesday, July 28, 2009    Two in a Row... Hiya... I managed to post more than once in a row... I really shouldn't be proud of it. I should be proud posting every day for the rest of my life. lol. Just saw blood on the tv screen... had a bit of a freak out.... I spent the entire day watching episodes of The Big Valley. I think I have a probem though because I only watched the episodes where characters got injured... on purpose. XD I don't know what's the matter with me. I like peril... what can I saw? It's a little odd... but whatever. I think most people like to watch movies where their favorite actors are in danger for their lives... If not then I really am weird. I got so scared that Heath was going to die about 8 times! I am in the midst of the Stewart Granger marathon... today is the last day and am very sad about it... It's been a source of constant joy for 4 weeks straight. TCM is replacing it with the Summer of the Stars. So really it will depend on what day it is to see whether or not I'll have anything to watch. I shall write now while watching the movie... the next movie I don't want to be interrupted watching. Grace Kelly is in it with Stewart Granger... VERY exciting combination. That's all. Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Monday, July 27, 2009    Been running around... Hiya... I'm re-back again lol. I hate that I keep not writing anything here. I've been on Lapsworth a lot, but not so much on the internet. I've been writing like a fool and just haven't had time to type my life. lol Sailing was REALLY a lot of fun. It rained a lot, but we had a great time! We hope to do it again sometime when it's sunny. I was actualy up until 4:30 this morning. 0.o Because I hit a very serious portion of the story. A part of the story I didn't expect to happen... it just sort of came out and it was dramatic and I pretty much like it. I've also been editing what I've started with. This version of the story I feel is very near the final draft. The way I can tell that is that usually when I've written it in the past and have gone back to reread it I used to have to skim it because it was so terrible. Thus far with the editing I went back and actually liked the better part of what I wrote. Now that could be because the time between when I wrote it and when I edited it was only about 4 months apart, but I'm pretty sure the story is just finally becoming finalized. That sort of pleases me. As much as I love this story, writing the same one and reworking it for nearly a year and a half tends to get a bit tiresome. Especially when you've put a sequel on the back burner because of it... I don't mind so much working on it for so long however only because I know the longer I work on it the more it will improve since my writing continues to improve with each year. As it should, I certainly practice enough! You know it's odd. They say practice makes perfect and that practice is hard work... but with writing practice is recreational and sort of accidental and writing my book isn't really HARD work... it's more just long and tedious. I've been working with these characters since I was 10 or so, they've changed some but essentially the same, and they have personailties of their own... so writing a story isn't hard. Once you've got a plot the characters react just as anybody else would act so you don't need to think about how they wold react... they just sort of do. That's what happened last night with the scene I didn't intend to write. Events had been set into motion and suddenly I found them acting a certain way... a way I didn't really intend. It's a bit of a strange experiance when your book writes itself... when you want something to happen but you find the story goes another way... that never used to happen... but it is now. The only thing I really have control over anymore is the main story points... other than that the characters decide things for me... it's WEIRD! That was what was so odd last night. When I went to bed I saw the scene I had written as if it had just been in a movie I'd watched! I'd never felt like that before. Then I started to feel strange... then I realized I thought they were real for a moment... Summer is creating all sorts of problems lol. The book is becoming my reality........ I feel partially insane! XD I haven't gotten this deep into the story... well ever. I think this summer I've actually gotten MORE obsessed with my writing, if that's even possible! When I'm alone, which is a lot, it's almost all I think about... It's certainly a unique... and rather entertaining problem to be sure. It does insure I'm never bored. All of my friends are complaining of bordem and I'm just entirerly amused with my own mind... It's actually a good way to be. Oh sort of big news for me! I found out I can be 17 to work at Barns and Noble. I don't know where I got the idea that I had to be 18... but it doesn't matter! I can work there! It's VERY exciting! I printed an application and intend to turn it in once school starts. (I've got to figure out my schedule and work my work hours around that obviously.) The whole thing is VERY excitng! Th last thing I wanted to do was work in a grocery store... or in retail. B&N IS retail sort of... but the people who go there usually aren't completly stupid. It's also a job I can see myself having through college. Well that's my life update. I've still got a little over a month left before school begins... always good news. I can't bare the thought of not being able to write all day just yet... My brain is still in stay up until 4 am to write mode... I'm NOT ready to give that up!!! Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Wednesday, July 22, 2009    Sailing... Hiya... Tomorrow, providing weather allows us, my friends and I are going sailing. There are supposed to be thunderstorms, but I'm not terribly worried about it because there has been rain in the forcast for 3 days and only a few moments of rain one of those days. Either way we intend to drive down there, in two cars, and hang out on the dock if all else fails. I stayed up very late watching Stewart Granger movies on TCM. It's was very amusing, though he was the bad guy twice... I'm never a fan of my favorite actors being evil, but over all all of the films were very good. I know I've been missing days on here, but it's mostly because I've been spending most of my time watching movies, writing, and listening to the new DAUGHTRY album. Plus I've been watching the Yankees, who have a 5 game winning streak and have taken sole posession of first place in the AL East! ^_^ That's about all I've got to update on. I wish I were a little more interesting. Monday I went to Six Flags again and we had a fairly good time. Tuesday I did something but I can't recall what and today I went to the gym and sat around lol. Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Sunday, July 19, 2009    Random... Hiya... I keep running away. Haha. I realize my last post may have seemed a little odd... I really have no way to explain it. Just thinking about the old days on the site is all. I'm going back to Six Flags tomorrow, this time with Olga and Tsnade. It should be fun. Hopefully the new roller coster is open, the one that wasn't the last time. I want to try it. Just bought the new DAUGHTRY album yesterday. It's pretty good. Their first was great and the more I listen to this other one the better I like it. I love ot listne to to it. I love the band in general. The book is still going well. Just an update. I really don' have much else to say. Nothing interesting has really been going on. The Yankees are on a three game winning streak, so that's good. Yankees are only 1 game out of the AL East. That's all. Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Thursday, July 16, 2009    Cars and Friends... Hiya... I actually had something of a social life these past few days. Went to Six Flags Monday with Wafflez, then on Tuesday and Wendsday I hung out with Tsnade and Olga. So it was fun. Another friend on MyO bites the dust so it would seem. It's amazing how everybody's leaving. You know I figured something out about it I think? We all came on here because we loved anime and needed a type of escape YEARS ago. Right? Well we were all almost the same age, a few years apart here and there, but mostly close in age. We sort of grew up together as our own school system... and we all grew our separete ways. I mean... hardly anybody on here now is on here to talk about anime... those who remain are on for friends we made! It's interesting to think that we all needed this site for the same sort of reasons... and we're leaving for those same reasons now. I feel like all generations need a place like this... well at least a place for all of the nutts like us that is! lol. It's theraputic to type out your feelings and have people tell you they get it. I read some of my old posts and just shake my head. I was so different back then. If I went back in time I would hate myself! And my spelling and grammar were appauling to say the least. Haha, the grammar nazi in me has become worse over the years too. I just found that interesting to think about. People usually forget about this poor place once they go to college... then again TheO didn't help at all... the death of the site was much faster... MUCH Faster. I feel like it would have slowly declined over the next 3 years had there been no changes... but the changes did in 3 months what would have taken 3 years and killed us on here... kinda suchs. Never have really gotten over that. That's about all for this post! Bye!!!! And no, I'm not leaving the site, just reamanising. Comments (0) | Permalink Monday, July 13, 2009    Writing... Hiya... I'm fairly sure I'm no longer sane. lol. Hardly any human communication except with m grandma in days. Actually it is VERY theraputic. I thouroughly enjoy it. Now that the week is coming I become more of a hide away. My grandma is worried I'll become a hermit, and the deeper into summer we get, the more I love the idea of that. I don't know what's got into me, but I kind of like it. I have been either writing or thinking about writing for simply days! My brain almost hurts with thought. The only thing that has saved my brain has been movies. I watched 2 Bogie movies this weekend. I LOVE THAT MAN! And I watched The Greatest Show on Earth with a very young and SEXY Charlton Heston. SWOONSVILLE! I must get back to my writing now! Humphrey Bogart- Don't know what it is about that man, but I LOVE him to death!!!! Charlton Heston- The man is SO sexy it burns the screen!!! Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Thursday, July 9, 2009    Sleep... Hiya... Well Tsnade and I hung out yesterday. We went and got sushi and walked around the mall. I lost it when we went into Hot Topic. I hate that store to begin with, but then Tsnade decided, since we had been talking about it earlier and how ridiculous it was that something like that existed, to ask where the Edward Cullen Body Glitter was. The woman got SO excited and took us to the front of the store and showed it to us. I started laughing uncontrolably. Between the woman getting so excited to show us, the pictures of Rob Pattinson's ugly face around me, and her showing me legit body glitter I lost it! I was laughing so hard I was crying. To make sure that the woman didn't mistake me for an overly in love Twitard Tsnade told her we were NOT fans. Then the woman got all disapointed and said not everyone can like everything. It was unbeleivably funny. We even managed to see Twilight Perfume, "So you too can smell of lavander and freesha." WOW. I almost got into an accident because people drive entirely too fast through shopping center parking lots. Luckily I have quick reflexes and managed to miss the idiot. Tsnade is taking her driving test tomorrow and I hope she passes. If she doesn't she'll have to wait until August to take it again because she's getting surgery in a week or so. So we'll see how that goes. I should really be asleep now. I've got 2 appointments tomorrow. One at 10:45... but I can't seem to go to sleep yet. I intend to once I finish it post. Stewart Granger night was awesome. I watched two really great movies of his I'd never seen before. Moonfleet and Beau Brummels. Both of which I loved. I can't wait for next weeks Grangerthon. No, TCM doesn't call it that... I do... because I'm ridiculous. Yankees won again. We're on another good roll. Just in time because we have to catch up to Boston and quick. I've got to go off to bed now... before I get distracted with something else. Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Tuesday, July 7, 2009    Getting back into the habit... Hiya... Alright, posting seems more normal now. I think I can do this all of the time. Since it's nearly 2 AM and I don't have much to do. Amberian Dawn's new CD comes out today supposedly! YAY! It sounds REALLY good. I have to get a Zune gift card for myself so I can buy it. I finally got over my whole, "I HAVE TO BUY THE CD FOR THE CASE!" thing. It took a damn long time though. Now I buy a good portion of my CDs through Zune. I enjoy the solitude of summer so much. Maybe a little too much... There's something wonderful about not having to talk to anybody for almost entire days that is just plain awesome. I love to be alone and not talk to anybody. I think it's abnormal to love to be alone as much as I do. My sister hates it, but I think so much that it's nice to be alone. Speaking of summer... it's amazing! XD Do you know what I did today? Of course you don't... if you did that would be really creepy. I went to bed at 5 am, slept till 2:30, went to the gym, and wrote the entire rest of the day... it was epic. I love that summer has pretty much just started. It's beautiful to know I've got a full 2 months of this almost. Sweet. Tonight is week 1 of TCM's Stewart Granger marathon. Every Tuesday night in July TCM is playing Stewart's movies. It is a very exciting thing since I have only seen 3 of his movies! (He was primarily a british actor so most of his movies were never huge in America and thus were never turned into American DVDs). So I'm really excited to see his films! He was EXTREMLY DASHING! A swashbuckling type, like Errol Flynn, but better looking. The most interesting fact I learned about Stewart Granger is that his real name was James Stewart! HAHA! He had to change it obviously, because if Jimmy! My Jimmy! The one whose museum I went to see! My grandma told me that a few days ago and I was like, "NO WAY!" It's true. The good people at imdb.com told me so. It's funny because they look and act nothing alike. Jimmy is from Indiana PA and Stewart is English. Jimmy plays cowboys and an ever man, Stewart always plays the dashing hero. It amuses me... XD You know what else is weird? If you look at old movie stars and their publicity photos, they almost never look at the camera! Isn't that weird? They smile and look good... but never look at the camera. Here's a challange: Go and see if you can find a single picture of Clark Gable where he is looking at the camera! It cannot be done! I assure you it can't be done! I've tried! Another impossible task is finding a picture of Dean Martin or Humphrey Bogart without a cigarette! It' possible, but VERY difficult! It takes a long time... Apparently my movie posters are rare. I went to try and find pictures to show you guys, but I guess I'll have to go upstairs and take pictures of them for tomorrow's post. While I'm at it I'll show you the new Man Wall! XD and I'll show you guys that I don't exaggerate how many movies I have. I bought the Sims 3 the other day! It's really cool, but at the same time there is A LOT of information on the disk and it took up all of the extra room on Lapsworth here. So I can't really play it right now. I mean I do, but it's really slow. I'm trying to clear off disk space, but it's very hard to do. They made a lot of great improvements to the game though. I can't wait to get it working! That's about all I can think of at the moment. Time to go back to writing again. ^__^ Bye! Comments (0) | Permalink Pages (130): [ First ][ Previous ] 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 [ Next ] [ Last ]   Anime | How to Draw Anime | Anime Wallpapers Top of Page