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Thursday, March 8, 2007

The Missed Sensations.....
I think something's wrong with me. I feel a little depressed, but I have no idea why. Its weird. Like there's nothing to me, no feelings, no substance, nothing. Its like I'm watching myself from someone else's body. Detached. I hate this place, this world, my own existance. I probably sound suicidal, but I don't care. I know I can't kill myself, there are things I haven't done yet. And there are people that would be devasted. Or at least I hope there are. My friends are concerned I know, I cut myself every friday. At least, I used to. They told me I need to quit. Its harder than they think. so the other day, I dropped my razorblade out the window. It was an accident, I was actually just cutting the screen off my window. But I guess that was a good thing, I really do need to stop. The last couple times I did cut, they seemed to inch closer and closer to the milky blue veins in my wrist. I'm trying to stop, I really am. I haven't cut in over two weeks. ^_^ Sometimes I do miss the feeling of my flesh being sliced open and the feeling I got as my blood ran down my throat. I'm a Human vampire. I can't help it.

A few of the kids have found out that I am bi. Many of them turned away. But I'm glad for the few that still love me, especially Brittni, Yoshi, Bud, Cain, Serina, my boyfriend William, and the others. Sinceraly, I thank you for being true friends.

Well, I have to go to athletics soon. What joy. I have several drawings I need to scan, and when I can, I'll be there for at least two hours scanning, resizing, and submitting them to the site. But alas, I am still grounded. Woe is me.

My background isn't showing up. >.< If you have any information as to why this is happening, please tell me! your help would be greatly appreciated.

Faretheewell. For now.

~Jester
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