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Friday, May 30, 2008
I got the coffee... Now, cigarettes...
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 It's funny how some people don't want to be around you, but you have that feeling that you want to be around them.
And it sucks knowing there's no legitament reason why that said person(s) doesn't want to be around you.
It's okay though, the person I want to be around is hundreds and hundreds miles away, thinking less and less about me with each mile between us. They're having fun without me, I'm just spending my time wishing I was their fun. It's irony...
(Fighting strong bouts of depression, makes me depressed...)
I have the coffee, who has the cigarettes?...
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Add on.
Why are women so frustrating?...
All my friends that are girls aren't, but the one's I date are a different story. It makes no sense to me, I please them, I say what they want to hear, I make time for them. But once I've done that, it seems they transform into some naggy creature. I like how I'm reasonable and don't dangle the past over their heads, but when it comes to me, they have no hesitation on bringing up my past mistakes.
I believe I'm a nice guy who tries too hard to make everyone important to me happy. Maybe, that's my problem. I do some things, I completely don't want to do. But I do them cause family and friends want me to. I don't hesitate, I rarely bitch about. When I get bitched out by some girl who I thought I knew about how she tried so hard in the relationship and I did nothing, makes me question the whole female race. I remember countless times where I went out of my way to put a smile on her face. I never asked for anything in return, I just wanted her to feel loved and cared to my fullest extent. I'm the one who called all the time to see what she was up to, I called or texted her every morning saying "Good morning, bright eyes". Why do I bother? Why do I have to feel like I have to go out of my way for these people. Fuck, if someone has the answere, I would like them to tell me. I guess, devotion and loyalty means nothing to anyone anymore... It's an old word, that's worn out and tossed around for everyone to spit out for some false reassurance.
I just want to say "I made a mistake being wih you, now I know... The only regret I have is wasting nothing but precious time on you and our relationship. I wish we can be friends still, but I don't think you're worth that either. I know you didn't value me as a boyfriend, so I fucking know, being your friend won't change how much I'm worth to you... Now go get lost somewhere."
God, I feel bad for blowing off my friends cause of her. She wanted to talk, she wanted my full attention. My friends are important to me, I rather stand next to them and leave you... If you can't except that... fuck...
I'm starting to realize, women aren't worth it. Now, I don't mind dying alone. Save me the trouble...
Contact me:
Msn:
slitwristtheory_02@hotmail.com
Aim:
safetydate@aol.com
Myspace:
myspace.com/minniewinnie
Song: Hands In The Sky(Big shot).
By: Straylight Run.
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