Everyone who reads this please go to DarkWolfDemon's site he needs us right now!! That is all I am going to say cause you don't need to hear about me!!!
That fight that I got into with my sister in law has become an full out war!!! She is going down!!! I hate that girl. But, all of this wouldn't have started if it was not your my stupid sister. I am so so tried of my stupid family. They hurt me way to much. This is what my sister in law posted after the fight which is still going on.
I usually have only my two best friends and that's it for the simple fact that I have a hard time trusting people. The only person in this world that I trust is my best friend, Kayleigh, because she has never hurt me on the level that would make it so I couldn't trust her. I don't even trust my husband because I know that he could hurt me on that level. I know that I am messed up and I will be the first one to admit it and I have tried to change BELIEVE ME. It seems like every time I get close, someone always hurts me and everything gets crazy again.
That is what she posted. So, do you all think that is right not being able to trust her own husband? He has never done anything but, try to stand up for himself.
Nothing much is happening. School starts soon. I am taking German 1 which I can't wait for that. I have not got an job yet. But, I am still trying. I am trying for house keeping at the Hospital in Wahoo were I live. Also I at the Library were I would be stocking books. Otherwise nothing has changed. My sister in law is still mad at me. Which I could care less. I hated her anyways.
I am my mom is going to get me an Athrun Zala costum for the next con I am going to. I would buy the Itachi one like I wanted to do. But, it costs too much and since my mom is buying I didn't want her to buy the one that costs the most. Oh but, my sister in law thinks I only care about my self and I am childish.
I don't know how my old friends are doing they don't think about talking to me so I don't care.
I guess that is all. I wander how all of you are doing and if you read my poems I wrote. If not my last post has them all. It is 3:00 am so sorry if I miss spelled something.
Wie geht es ihnen? Which means how are you doing? or so no one gets mad how are you? I just got into an fight with my sister in law cause of my 9 year old sister telling her lies and she believe her over me. So, I am not feeling the best. I don't show it but, I am. You all are the only ones I tell how I really feel. For those that missed my poems I will repost them.
Every time we hury past each other,
we hit and tear ourselves on impact we feel the pain of each other's wings.
We were embrased in unclean.
impure arms because in our loneliness we didn't know any better.
The moment we connect,
eternity will awaken - I long for it.
Exposed in a flickering instant that flow by too fast I can't reach anything alone.
These mere wishes and fading words can't get us anywhere by themselves.
Though I fixed my eyes right on them,
I've still lost sight of the stars,
but one can steel it.
The light of our existance is confined by our lips.
It's dazzling from the emotions that are bottled up inside us.
Is it love taht lies ahead,
or will everything break apart?
It bewilders me...
Intertwind in this heat,
wanting to speak the truth.
Who do I protect them from?
This feeling you wanted so badly once,
if it's there...
Exposed in a flickering instand that flew by too fast, I can't reach anything alone.
These mere wishes and fading words...
Interwind in this heat,
wanting to speak the truth.
Who do I protect them from?
These feelings you wanted so badly once...
It lies in you.
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Whithin a cold fold in time,
you are sleeping alone.
The voice singing the song of prayer,
is about to shine its small light upon our path.
I saw a dream about you,
you were smiling like a child.
The promise of our future is close but,
yet distant.
Believing that I'll eventually reach that verdant morning.
Why?
Because I believe in the opeaning of the heavens.
The fields of hope.
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Not knowing when or were,
I believe you will come.
For you my thoughts are allowed to run.
Days are begining to change,
along with our hearts and this town.
But, we will always see one another.
Seeing a different dream.
The same thing is seen.
That day I took an oath,
not to lose.
We are always together but,
with hands never held.
The meaning of haveing been born,
is looked for.
Not knowing when or were,
I believe you'll come.
For you my thoughts are allowed to run.
When our errors and pains are over come,
our prayers embrace the light.
Our future is awkened.
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This is the first one I wrote for school.
I am loving and caring.
I wonder what is going to happen to me.
I dream that everyone will get along, and there will be no war, but what I have seen in the future is not good.
I accept my depression, and my feelings.
I want peace in the world.
I am loving and caring.
I pretend that I don't care about others' feelings.
I dwell upon the future.
I cry when I think about what might happen to me.
I worry about what will happen in the future.
I laugh when I talk to some of my friends.
I am loving and caring.
I imagine that I will be happy in the future.
I say that the worl is a bad place, and we can change it if we want to.
I confront my depression, and all of my feelings to God my Lord.
I try to make people happy.
I confess that I care about others' feeling.
I am loving and caring.
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Not knowing if you will ever see me for who I trully am.
I thought about you a lot.
Thoughts and days are begining to change,
along with everyone else.
But, will any of you really get it.
You will see me all the time, thinking you trully know me.
I am seeing somthing different in you now,
just like you are seeing something different in me.
The same thing we are both seeing.
I took an oath,
not to hurt you again.
And yet I end up hurting you again and again.
In all of this we are both looking for why we are here.
Not knowing if you will ever see me for who I trully am.
I thought about you a lot.
When everything is overcome,
our wishes, prayers, and thoughts will embrace the light.
Then our future is awakened.
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I'm waiting for you to realize.
At the same time you'll remeber the happness there was.
But, lots of time has gone bye.
Now all of those delights have pasted bye in gentle waves.
I've prayed that when you realize you are laughing not crying.
Now you are away,
but you'll come back.
One day when you come back we'll meet.
When did happiness become so fragile?
Easily destroyed by a mistake.
only prayers trun into light.
With the Lord I can venture past sky's distant wake.
I really want to deliver all of my thoughts to you under the new light.
Now you are away,
but you'll come back.
We'll meet again before that day break.
I'll always be waiting for you.
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Answers we are all looking for them.
When I thought I would be able to dictate even time.
Is when all of this started.
As time passes by,
our thoughts are changing so very fast.
Our hearts passed by each others,
I hope for that again.
I wish that when it happened that time could just stop.
But, the two of us are still searching,
searching for true love.
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I am posting an poem I wrote. It is based off of the frist I am poem I wrote for English 9. I never showed you all that one. But, here is the 2nd one.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I wonder what we are going to become. And what is going to happen to me and my friends in the future.
I dream that our planet will have no wars. That we will always be able to live on it. That everyone will be able to get along with each other.
I accept that if this is to happen we all will have to work very hard. Also that this is far away. I accept my depression and all fo my feelings.
I want no wealth, no fam, and no hate in the world. I want to help the government do all of this.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I pretend that people don't hurt me and that I don't really care about all of those things.
I dwell upon all of that I did and how to not let those things happen again. Also upon the future of our planet and its people.
I laugh with some of my friends and my family. Also at the people that say don't worry about the future because we can't do anything about it.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I imagine the day when everyone will become friends and when we solve all of the problems we are facing right now.
I say that there is gods or a god. But, we will never know which religion is the right one. Right now we live in a time with lots of evil. But, there is good in all of us, and it will matter upon time to show us all of the good.
I confront all of you that read this to try to make an difference. It all starts with one. It will be hard but, we can do it.
I try to make people happy, but to get things done some people will have to get mad. But in the end, they will see that what is being done is for the good of all.
I confess that I have done bad things and made mistaks. Everyone has and will, but to accoplish this we will have to understand that and move on.
I am on boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
Every time we hury past each other,
we hit and tear ourselves on impact we feel the pain of each other's wings.
We were embrased in unclean.
impure arms because in our loneliness we didn't know any better.
The moment we connect,
eternity will awaken - I long for it.
Exposed in a flickering instant that flow by too fast I can't reach anything alone.
These mere wishes and fading words can't get us anywhere by themselves.
Though I fixed my eyes right on them,
I've still lost sight of the stars,
but one can steel it.
The light of our existance is confined by our lips.
It's dazzling from the emotions that are bottled up inside us.
Is it love taht lies ahead,
or will everything break apart?
It bewilders me...
Intertwind in this heat,
wanting to speak the truth.
Who do I protect them from?
This feeling you wanted so badly once,
if it's there...
Exposed in a flickering instand that flew by too fast, I can't reach anything alone.
These mere wishes and fading words...
Interwind in this heat,
wanting to speak the truth.
Who do I protect them from?
These feelings you wanted so badly once...
It lies in you.
Whithin a cold fold in time,
you are sleeping alone.
The voice singing the song of prayer,
is about to shine its small light upon our path.
I saw a dream about you,
you were smiling like a child.
The promise of our future is close but,
yet distant.
Believing that I'll eventually reach that verdant morning.
Why?
Because I believe in the opeaning of the heavens.
The fields of hope.
Not knowing when or were,
I believe you will come.
For you my thoughts are allowed to run.
Days are begining to change,
along with our hearts and this town.
But, we will always see one another.
Seeing a different dream.
The same thing is seen.
That day I took an oath,
not to lose.
We are always together but,
with hands never held.
The meaning of haveing been born,
is looked for.
Not knowing when or were,
I believe you'll come.
For you my thoughts are allowed to run.
When our errors and pains are over come,
our prayers embrace the light.
Our future is awkened.
This is the first one I wrote for school.
I am loving and caring.
I wonder what is going to happen to me.
I dream that everyone will get along, and there will be no war, but what I have seen in the future is not good.
I accept my depression, and my feelings.
I want peace in the world.
I am loving and caring.
I pretend that I don't care about others' feelings.
I dwell upon the future.
I cry when I think about what might happen to me.
I worry about what will happen in the future.
I laugh when I talk to some of my friends.
I am loving and caring.
I imagine that I will be happy in the future.
I say that the worl is a bad place, and we can change it if we want to.
I confront my depression, and all of my feelings to God my Lord.
I try to make people happy.
I confess that I care about others' feeling.
I am loving and caring.
Wie geht es ihnen? For those that want it to be corect. Ich bin sehr gut. Oh and I should tell you all that Ich bin sehr gut means I am very fine. Which is an drect translation.
I am posting an poem I wrote. It is based off of the frist I am poem I wrote for English 9. I never showed you all that one. But, here is the 2nd one.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I wonder what we are going to become. And what is going to happen to me and my friends in the future.
I dream that our planet will have no wars. That we will always be able to live on it. That everyone will be able to get along with each other.
I accept that if this is to happen we all will have to work very hard. Also that this is far away. I accept my depression and all fo my feelings.
I want no wealth, no fam, and no hate in the world. I want to help the government do all of this.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I pretend that people don't hurt me and that I don't really care about all of those things.
I dwell upon all of that I did and how to not let those things happen again. Also upon the future of our planet and its people.
I laugh with some of my friends and my family. Also at the people that say don't worry about the future because we can't do anything about it.
I am an boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
I imagine the day when everyone will become friends and when we solve all of the problems we are facing right now.
I say that there is gods or a god. But, we will never know which religion is the right one. Right now we live in a time with lots of evil. But, there is good in all of us, and it will matter upon time to show us all of the good.
I confront all of you that read this to try to make an difference. It all starts with one. It will be hard but, we can do it.
I try to make people happy, but to get things done some people will have to get mad. But in the end, they will see that what is being done is for the good of all.
I confess that I have done bad things and made mistaks. Everyone has and will, but to accoplish this we will have to understand that and move on.
I am on boy with great ideas. I am a loving and caring person.
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