Sunday, April 8, 2007

Happy Easter everyone! I hope everyone is having a good day, and for those who have to go to church, aren't bored by it! [laughs] I myself find church interesting... and it's the only time when I can sing and people don't tell me to shut up too. XD See you all later, and have a good day! Enjoy the Easter candy! ~ Koki

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Time: 9:28 AM Mood: Meh - gotta get going! Music: Nothing [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. Sorry for not being around so much – I have been trying to get so many things done, but it seems that I keep running out of time, so I am going to keep this post short. First – sorry for not being around even though I should be! [hugs] Um… overall, not that much is happening than besides I am super busy. And I really want to be able to make time stop so I can get some things done. (This is why I hate sleeping in) I was able to watch Final Fantasy Advent Children Friday night – it was awesome! I really, really, really want to buy it now! If only I had some more money… I heard it was like $40 or something. Well, gotta go – see you all later! ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] Thank you all for your comments! [hugs] I am sorry that I can't reply to them now, but I am glad that you all are doing ok. Thank you for the wishes for good luck.

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Thursday, April 5, 2007

Time: 7:07 AM Mood: Waking up, but good Music: Nothing [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. Sorry for the lack of comments and being on here in general. I have taken your advice and have taken some time to calm down and make peace with some things – mentally at least. I am in much better spirits right now, and I am certain that things are going to be better than they have recently. So much work has been done! I have updated my site (finally) with a new layout, and some more music. I plan to add a lyrics section as well, and I have about seventeen more music files I would like to add to the music archive on Amaagari. I also have gotten some time to watch an awesome show – Sukisho! It is yaoi, but adorable, so there is your warning if you do not like such things. Um… not much else has been happening. For more specifics of what I am doing (if you are curious), it is all on my DeviantART journal. Mostly school stuff, which I still am backlogged a bit on… I have also been taking some math tutoring so I can pass the TAKS test and not be held back from graduating like everyone else. Isn't that kind of dumb to do that to someone? I can understand a final exam, but a state test that no one else does? But I am doing all right on all the packets, so there shouldn't be a problem with me passing it or doing all right. Thank you all for your comments on my last post, you guys are too nice and wonderful – I am so lucky to have friends like you – I really don't deserve you! [hugs, sweets, and happiness for all] I will see you all later, with hopefully some more to talk about! We have Easter Break starting tomorrow, and hopefully something funny will happen. Have a good day everyone, and I will make sure to comment today! ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] tiggerola: (Really? Awesome! I am glad she's not in that anymore…) And I guess that is, but is it really healthy? And congrats on getting such good grades and achieving your goals! I hope I can do the same when I go into collage. And he is somewhat of a joker, but most people when they were young and are super old now were. And no worries, I know that not everyone loves/likes coffee. I was spamming, so to speak. XD Hearts Mind: It's all right, it's all right! I have all until next March to get better at all the games, and hopefully they will have it back up. And I know, but really, I am beginning to think that for some reason, I cannot be like everyone else. I've even tried to be a little bit more selfish so I don't get walked on and used, but that has gotten me nowhere. As for finding things that I'm good at, I'll try. Never had too much confidence… Furry Chibi: [hugs] Thanks. That's what I try to believe whenever something like this happens. And it's a good thing not to get angry in front of parents… Eek. I hope people stop disliking you – there isn't any real reason to from what I can see. [laughs] Well, see you later and have a good day as well! My Last Breath: [squeezing hugs] I am sorry that this has happened to you before too, and so recently as well! I hope you feel better now… Thanks for the comment. I am going to relax on Saturday or sometime during our break. Ureshiinosuika: Thanks. :) But I am not one to burst out in anger, nor am I really in a position where I can and people won't think badly of me and treat me like something I don't want to be treated as. And thanks; he's all better now. And no worries about the Neopets thing. My user name is darkside_tears. Yours? Otemba: Aw, thank you. Not too many people say that to me… [hugs] I hope you have a good day – see you soon!

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Sunday, April 1, 2007

Time: 9:53 AM Mood: Trying to calm down… Music: One Step Closer (Linkin Park) [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. I'm sorry for that lame last post, being selfish, whining, not commenting and visiting as I should have, and a bunch of other thing that I am sure I neglected to do, or did. I won't make any excuses other than I have been really, really angry for some reason. It's like I have been almost willing to blow up and curse out loud at any and everything. However, I don't. And so what angered I do have, I bottle up inside and it just ticks me off more than everyone around me is able to rant and rave – while I can't. One time I did get angry, and my friend was, "Whoa. I've never seen you mad before… This is weird…" And I had known the person for about four years. So that says something about me… but is it that rarely anything makes me mad, or I just don't show my anger? Probably the first one, I am not one who likes to rock the boat. And so… I've been secretly mad, looking for something to blow some steam on, unsuccessful at that, annoyed with my school responsibilities that have been weighing down on me, the people who love to annoy me and make my life a living hell, and just a bit confused as to why I am getting so angry, and trying to stop myself from going into a meltdown. Not being able to get that last score really didn't help either… I need a vacation or something – feeling like this is not good for me, or for anyone around me. A lot of the things I am angry at have to do with myself, oddly enough. I am getting tired of being unable to defend myself in an argument, getting put into the spotlight so easily, unable to get some certain people to leave me alone, unable to say no to people when they ask me for help, tired of complaining so much, tired of how I am always seeking attention and recognition from people for some stupid reason, tired of how I seem to think, do things and physically move "too fast" for those around me, and a lot of other stuff. And I have tried to work on these… but not have had much luck. So, once again… I apologize. And thank you everyone for not insulting me, etc. because you very well could have and I know you would have been justified. Other than questioning my feelings, why I am feeling them and trying to get a hold on myself, not too much has been happening. For a while, I had a 4.0 GPA (so I was really happy at that), but it has gone down to a 3.875, but that is still over my goal. I'm still happy. And as for the Neopets thing, no worries about it. I didn't get that last needed score, but it's ok. I think they do it every March, so I can work on it next year, and get better at all the games in the mean time. So I guess that my icon above fits that – if I am not mistaken, "mada mada" means " still some way to go before goal; not yet". Also, today is my grandfather's birthday! Yup, he was an April Fool's kid. :) And today is kind of special because last Friday, he got a heart attack, and that kind of scared all of us. Sorry that I didn't get around to telling you all about that… But don't worry! He's all right. He was able to get out of the hospital after a few days, but they had to keep him for a few more because he got an infection on the IV tube, and the nurses didn't catch it. Not to mention the doctor didn't show up the day he was supposed to release him… But my siblings and I are going to have to work on being more controlled and quiet so we don't stress him out this summer. With how hyper my two littlest sisters can be, and how much my brother and I can argue, I hope we are able to do that. It doesn't seem likely, but I am going to keep hoping and trying to work on all those problems all the same. Also, I have a fanlisting that I would like to advertise: It is for French Roast coffee – it is really popular, but I haven't had many people sign up at all for it. So if any of you guys like coffee, or know what kind of coffee I am talking about, come and sign up. Please? [hint, hint, nudge, nudge] :) I have also been working on my Artemis Fowl fanfics, and am thinking of moving my fanfics to a site of my own, but keeping them on ff.net as well. What do you guys think of this idea? Fanfiction.net needs some serious renovations, or it's going to loose a lot of the good writers on there that many people, like myself, enjoy. Well, that is it everyone. Sorry for everything, and the long post. I will try my best to comment on everyone's site today, and do anything else needed. See you all later, and have good days! ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] bloop81: Ah, no worries. Not too many people I know are on it, so I wasn't really expecting any help from anyone. [I did get it though, and that left me quite surprised that anyone would even care enough] I wish you luck on your unreachable goal; I am sure you can obtain it. arlihama: Really? Awesome. I would have loved for you to given me any and all tips you could (we were speaking of the same game), but now I have a year to get better at it. Hearts Mind: You – are just too awesome! [hugs and chocolate and cookies and cake for you] Thank you so much for trying to get that score for me, you are too nice and I cannot thank you enough! It doesn't matter that you weren't able to get it for me; just the fact that you tried just amazed me to bits. Furry Chibi: Really? Ok, I feel a bit better now knowing that I am not alone in this world. :) No worries about not being able to help, I understand completely. And yeah, I did hit the wrong score, and I am going to dislike myself for a while about that… I need to learn to slow down so these kinds of things don't happen as often as they do. Otemba: Oh, no worries. Thank you so much for wishing me good luck. Knights Edge: Oh, it's all right. No worries, no worries. It is just a lame little thing that I have gotten a bit addicted to, and doesn't matter in the end.

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Thursday, March 29, 2007

Ok... I am really peeved now... and I am going to be selfish and stupid for once, like everyone else around me and ask someone to do something meaningless (in the long run), but important to me (in the current present time). I need some major help. I am on Neopets and there is a thing called Daily Dare. And I really want to complete it. But... I accidentally chose the higher of the two scores you needed to beat on this game called "Meepits Juice Break". Is anyone here on Neopets and especially good at this game, said above? And would anyone who fits that last sentence who is also on here be willing to go into my account (I will give you my password via PM and trust you not to do anything to my account) and get me a score of 2,000 NP or more on "Meepit Juice Break" and send my score in before March 31st please? I know I sound lame and pathetic, but please. Thank you for reading this even if you don't comment, or think I am pathetic as well. ~ Koki

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Time: 6:45 AM Mood: Ignoring idiots... Music: Le Chemin (KYO) [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. This was accidentally a repost of my last post... so yeah. ^^ It was mostly just a bit of a rant because that jerk in English would not let my friend Suzie and I work on our assignment yesterday, and in his "randomness" as my teacher calls it, suggested that I go over to Japan, and become their Prime Minister. When I said that I couldn't do that because I was a foreigner, he replied that I should get plastic surgery and change my race. What. The. Hell. I wanted to hit him so badly, or make some sort of comeback, but I couldn't, as I was in class. So I am thinking of getting my class changed for ANY OTHER CLASS than that one, even if I am uprooted from all of my classes and it's changed completely. But upon hearing this, my friends said that he should be the one who should be changing classes, and my parents agree, as I am not really doing anything but trying to get him to leave me alone. And to make things worse, my stalker is coming back, thinking that he can just walk up to me and say hi. I might have moved on and stuff, but for the moment, he still holds a bitter place in my mind. Next time I see him, I will have that letter written out for him to read and a slap. Um… I guess that is all I wanted to rant about. Sorry about that, and the fact that I put up the wrong post. ^^; In school we're really busy, and I need to get some assignments done, so I most likely won't update for a little while. Well, see you all later, and have good days everyone! [hugs] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] Thank you all for commenting, you just are just too awesome. :) Special note to Lemony Slash – of course I remember you? How could I not? [hugs] I've missed you sooo much! I am glad that all of you are doing well, and have or are soon to be enjoying your spring breaks. And halo fans – is there an online place to play halo somewhere that you know of? I need to seriously practice at it… [hugs for everyone]

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Sunday, March 25, 2007

Time: 11:50 AM Mood: Content Music: Under Pressure – Queen and David Bowie [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. Sorry that I haven't been updating as often as I should have. ^^; I have been busy with chores and other things, not to mention I have gotten into a habit of waking up late this past week due to my Spring Break. I've been staying up pretty late as well… Last night was my brother's birthday party (he's 15 today) and I played Halo with him, my dad and my brother's friends until about 12:30 last night. It was a lot of fun, all though I was the one who was always assassinated, splattered and sniped the most. -__- In our sniper tournament I was able to get them all at least once. ^^ Most of the time it was on accident and I didn't know that I was behind them, and when I did, I started firing like crazy in hopes they'd die. =D And then RPGd and stuff until 2:30. I haven't stayed up that late before… At least, not since I started high school. It's weird how school has taken over my life. I am pretty serious about it, and not many things in this world can ever cause me to forget homework or to do assignments. Especially this year… Um… Besides that, not much else is going on. I have typed up some more fanfics and stuff, and I will be editing one of my older ones shortly. I have even gotten a few more flames! But I have blocked the stupid idiots. ^^ Well, I have to go to school tomorrow, so I am planning to go to sleep early. Let's hope I can get back into the school schedule and not screw things up! :) Have a good day everyone and see you all later! ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] master hiko: Well, I generally like most movies, unless I find the plot just absolutely horrible. Like Blood Rayne. I mean – they could have done so much better with that, but it was just… [barfs] So it depends on you if you like the movie or not. OJaganshi: [hugs] You're welcome. I'm glad that some things are going right with your teachers. I wish you the best of everything! Ordinary Girl: Well, don't take my opinion for the official review! ^^; And yeah… but at least we both admitted it, and we're both terrible at directions anyways. And I will get better at Halo, I swear that I will… Otemba: Yeah… but it ends as soon as I go to school tomorrow. But I can see all of my school friends! So that's always good! A lot of people seem to be snipers as of late on Halo… Oh well, it's part of the fun. See you around! Knight Edge: Yeah, movies aren't fun to go to alone. And I am working on practicing, but it's hard with my whole family (except my mom) liking it so much.

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Time: 8:26 PM Mood: A little ticked… Music: TM Revolution [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. How's it going? Not much is going on for me – my mom is kind of sick today, my dad is working here at home (he has cutovers and stuff), and I am reading comics, writing more for my fanfics, and generally being bored. It is really quiet here… I also made some coffee, which is always good. XD The move from yesterday (Ghost Rider) was pretty good. There weren't any dull moments, and some hilarious parts too. Action was awesome; romance was a bit cheesy. I still give it a ten. James and I got a little lost along the way, and nearly drove into another county, completely opposite of where we needed to go. But it was ok – I called my mom and she gave us directions. How she does that, I will never know. But we made it to the movie before it started; previews must have lasted an hour or something then. But after the movie, we both hung out and watched videos from New Grounds and YouTube and took this insane quiz too at my house on my computer. We then kind of lost track of time, and he stayed over for dinner. My little sisters kinda bugged us, but it was ok. We both agree that they're insane. By the time anyone noticed the time, it was around 9:10 and he had to get back home. So that was yesterday. Fun day. ^^ … But right now I am a little ticked because I suck at Halo and my little sister (whom I was playing against) likes to gloat over it. Little… [mutters words that should not be known by her] The radar, for some reason, does not work until she starts firing. Does that sound twisted and wrong to you, or what? Well, I am going to see if I can get some practice time while she is not hogging it and being a little… [insert insult here] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] Otemba: That is what the weather was like here, only humid. [giggles] Well, from your post today, we all know what it is! You have a good weekend too! jigglyness: Yeah, I remember wishing for a break longer than a weekend too. Weekends aren't long enough; not with the fact that we have projects and homework over the weekend too. As for writing, I am sure you can come up with something good! You just have to find that something is all. Talim-of-the-Wind: It wasn't really me who was sick, but thanks all the same. ^^ What is Premonition about? I haven't heard anything about it… It looks kind of creepy though…

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Time: 11:10 AM Mood: Erm…? Music: Hands Open (Snow Patrol) [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hey everyone. Today seems like one of those days where everyone is just… dead. But they're still alive, you know? We're all basically zombies who can't eat brains because we're cerebrum-non-tolerant or something here. It's pretty much overcast and kinda humid, and while I love the rain, it is not raining right now and it's not helping my allergies any. I am taking my meds though, but they make me sleepy. I lose no matter what. Hence the icon above… But it's ok. ^^ I am going to go see Ghost Rider later on today with James, and it's always good to see him. As for what has been going on since the last time I posted, not much. I have been trying to work on fanfics and my novel(s), but I haven't gotten much done at all. Same with reading my library books, all though my science project has been done for a whole day now. Oh yeah! I have a fanlisting now. :) It's for French Roast Coffee: Essence of Warmth But I am not sure if the "join" form is working right… Could someone (other than me) test it out for me so I can be sure that it works? Just put in something like "test test test" into the fields or a bunch of crud like, "…sothjsrtu-w68htu3835t…" so I don't accidentally add someone, ok? Thanks everyone for reading, signing my GB and leaving comments! You all are just so awesome. [hugs] ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] Hearts Mind: No worries – I get mixed up sometimes too. Don't worry about my dad though, he was feeling fine after ten minutes, and it was an accident too. We all laughed over it. But I am not sure if I want this strength of mine to be passed down to my future kids or not… Ordinary Girl: Neither did I. [laughs] Really? I do it all first because I move at lightning speed for this stuff and then ten times slower for other stuff. Weird, ne? And thanks, I'm glad to know that someone else thinks along the same lines as I do. And randomly pop onto your family for some quality time; I am sure they'd like it too. [passes over some cookies] Here's some cookies to get the bad tastes out of your mouth… tiggerola: [giggles] I love that song – I remember seeing the music video way back when; so great… I hope your roommate isn't with him still! [laughs] Awesome way to celebrate St. Patrick's Day! Have a good day! Otemba: But… I like organizing stuff. It's fun… And I know. It's fun to find awesome similarities with people. Differences are cool too. And I will have fun this break. You make sure to have some too. :) Solenm Serpent: Ah, no worries. I just tidy up a bit; normally things are OCD clean for me. As for the guy in English class, don't worry. If he continues with this stuff with me, I will be going to my assistant principal about it and I have my friends and the teacher in that class behind me on this. And yeah… Did I mention he's all right and that I apologized a million times? ^^; See you later! lucifer's wife: Isn't that the truth? Oh, if only this world was simpler… Joking around with my family is always fun. Furry Chibi: Ok, not too much blood is good. [lol] I have done the same thing as well! I once punched one of my friends in the shoulder as a "ha-ha" thing, and they said I punched them hard! I didn't, I swear! I apologized over and over all the same… As for them getting drunk, I am not too sure anymore… A glitch in the system? [glares at science project] I know. Seriously, I will kill myself from homework one of these days, and in my death note, I will blame the school system here. Have fun watching Death Note and enjoy the coffee! Master Hiko: Hey, it's been a while! I didn't wear green either, but I threatened my brother with death if he so much even made a move to pinch me. And not really... I give individual hugs to everyone. And nooo~ don't fear me and my weird unknown strength!

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Time: 8:41 AM Mood: Sleepy and busy Music: Good-bye Earl (Dixie Chicks) [ P O S T ] - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - The update thingies aren't updated… I just noticed that and it's weird. Think people at MyO celebrated St. Patrick's Day a little bit too much or something? XD No offense anyone; just poking fun at people! Anyways… Meh… So sleepy. But I have so many things to do. I need to look over my site and make sure that everything is up to date, go over my fanlisting (possible ones mostly), sort out a ton of stuff on my computer, correct a lot of information about myself that is around the Internet, and all of my daily Internet responsibilities. And then all my real world stuff! But it's ok. I am the only one awake right now at my house, and I have Spring Break all next week! So, yayness! Um… not much else is going on. On Friday the jerk from English class insulted my family big time, and I was so justified for killing him, but I didn't. And I'm over it now, so it doesn’t matter anyways. I told my mom about this, and she told me that I would always run into people like that, but that there were others who made up for him. Like all you guys. [hugs] Oh yeah! Last night, my family and I were joking a lot – good times. During this, my dad stretched and complained how his back hurt from working on his Corvette all day. He lost track of time, just like I do whenever I am doing something I like. And so, I was enlisted to rub his back, being the only one in a five-mile radius who can give a good back massage for free. ^^; Well, I was tired, but I did it anyways. We're still joking at this time, and my dad says, "You can press a little harder," to which I say, "But I'm tired. Maybe if Justin makes me mad enough, I'll get some energy." So he (my brother Justin) laughs and threatens that he will go into my room and destroy it. I then yelled at this and accidentally punched my dad in the kidney. Needless to say, my dad is in a lot of pain and I am exclaiming, "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" over and over. My dad, through his pain says, "It's ok – now I know that you can take care of yourself. Justin – you die." No one died, so it's ok. He just laid down with an ice pack for a while… My mom did look and reported that I did give him some red spots that might turn into light bruises. So, dad – I'm sorry! >.< Oh, I also have a chemistry project I need to do. Stupid teacher, giving us homework over the break… This always happens. Well, I am off to all of my chores and duties now! See you all later! ~ Koki - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [ C O M M E N T S ] Furry-Chibi: I guess I did. But I have Spring Break like I said, so things should calm down immensely. And I know… [eek] Sorry that social studies is hard for you. I am sure you'll do fine on it all the same! Good luck! And is it really that violent? Oohh… I might have to look into it now. ^^ As long as the blood isn't overwhelming or the main focus, I don't mind blood and gore. And am I really that funny? I'm glad I brought you some laughs all the same… Have a good day! XxAerithXx: Aw, thanks. [hugs] And it's all right; the most we can ask out of you is your best and you're the kind of person to give it your all. And yeah, I do tell her that lying is bad, but it doesn't get through her head or anything. She'd nearly ruined Christmas and so many other holidays as well. As for the guy, same with me. And really? Um… here you go… [hands soda over] You have a good weekend too! Otemba: Thankies. You are too nice. :) And manga is awesome. Go to mangavolume.com if you have some extra time – so much manga, all free! And really? Cool. Maybe you and XxAerithXx should do a drinking contest. And no worries, he isn't bothering me anymore. If he does, I'll show him. See you around, and you keep your head up high and proud as well! NocturnalClivya: Thanks. [hugs] Same with me. It stops super bad days from occurring and it doesn't mess up the cosmic balance either. [giggles] See you soon! Ordinary Girl: Yes you did! Every visit from every person since day one has helped making the number the number it is. And no – you are nothing like my sister. She has been having this problem for a while, her grades are really suffering, and she is just causing so many problems. She breaks promises, lies, and disobeys my parents and the whole nine yards. And yes, sweets do sound good right now… And I know what you mean! What is up with that? At least you do something though. And I have heard of those beans… were they Harry Potter related? As for our contest, you never know! Knight Edge: [laughs] Our teachers just did it as a dare and to see who was the toughest. You should have been there, it was so funny. And you were right... My day was a lot better than yours. I'm sorry. [hugs] But I am sure that things will get better for you - don't give in and never give up!

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