Saturday, June 18, 2005

   AMAZING day
Today after art class I spent the day with my baby and it was incredible. We made love for about 4-5 hours and afterwards I was so tired from coming so times, but it was a good kind of tired^^ I can't describe the amazing feelings I felt with her. I screamed, whispered, and held on tight, never wanting to let go. I felt so safe in her arms, I know I will be with her forever. I love her more than anything in this world, and always will. And we got to make love in the shower too! It felt so wonderful! There's nothing else in the world, no words even, that can describe the feelings that consume me when I'm with her. I know we will belong to each other always...
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Friday, June 17, 2005

   A Day In Disneyland and the ER
Well the day started out great...Toria and I slept over Robin's house so we could leave for Disneyland early, and on the way over, I started feeling this sharp pain in my chest and ribs. I thought it was just a fluff, so I ignored it, depite it being very painful. We arrived in Disneyland, it still wasn't gone but we went on the Matterhorn and I screamed in Toria's ear on purpose whivh was fun, and Robin tried to pull her hair. Then we has a yummy breakfast that we had to wait in line for ages for, then we went on good oll Pirates of the Caribbean. After that my pain started getting worse. I was having a lot of trouble breathing waiting in line at the Haunted Mansion, and I was unable to walk anymore, my insides felt like they were being burned and stabbed at the same time. So we told some park officials that we needed First Aid but since I was having chest pain they sent for the paramedics. It was embarrassing being on a stretcher in Disneyland; EVERYONE is looking at you. One girl asked her mom if I was dead lol. Then they dropped me off at the nearest hospital and I waited. Then I waited some more. I finally went in and they asked me if I was pregnant. HAHAHA like I would be I'm a lesbian. Every single doctor asked me that tho. I got kind of annoying. Having a baby has nothing to do with severe chest pain and difficulty breathing. They gave me Tylenol and I slept for a while, then I woke up to see in the bed next to me a guy with both hepatitis C and D. Yikes. Jane tried to get the doctor's attention to get me out, since I was feeling better, but that took forever since he was dealing with other patients. And when I was checked out, they still had no idea what was wrong with me. ::sigh:: After we got out we drove home and on the way we stopped by King Taco in East LA. Twas very good. Tacos rock my sox. My baby had called me in the ER room and was really worried but then the service got cut off so I called her back in the car and told her I was ok. She was very relieved, and it felt good to hear her soothing voice again after all that. Well that was my day in Disneyland...doesn't that sound like fun? ^^ Sorry I'm neing sarcastic again. LOL.
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Monday, June 13, 2005

   Today's not my day...
yeesh I've been feeling horrible for the past few days...so I'm gonna whine for a sentence or two...it's that time of the month, I have a migraine, and ate something I'm allergic to so now I itch all over!! It's really annoying and I wasn't able to get any sleep last night. hopefully I can take a nap later in the day. I'm kind of relieved too because there was something I had been meaning to tell my baby but I was scared to. It had to do with the honry guy down the street forcing me into somethin by using threats that borderline on rape so I got scared and did as he asked. I didn't touch him and he didn't touch me, which is good, because that would have been awful. No one's supposed to touch or see me unclothed but my baby!^^ So anyway i finally told her, and she wasn't mad at me at all, which makes me relieved. (Although she does want to rip the guy's you-know-what off)She's very protective of me, and I love that about her.

School's almost done for now, I'll be taking summer school at home tho to finish up my homeschooling classes, which isn't really that bad. All I have left is algebra, art studio, and art history. I'll hopefully finish by august.

Well that's all I'm gonna ramble about right now, so I'll see ya'll later!
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Saturday, June 11, 2005

   I'm HERE!!!
Well I finally managed to fix my internet connection so all is well in Dani-land.^^ I'm in a good mood, I just ordered two Kenshin Yamaguchirow artbooks! whoohooo! But I'm also sad because I can't talk to my baby for 48 hours because she's gone for the weekend cause she had to attend her relative's 80th birthday or somethin I don't remember. I've been listening to our love songs and looking at pictures of her constantly, and apparently she was too, before she even left...*blushes blood red* I had fun today tho, after art class my mom and my sister and I went out to Japanese food at Cho Cho Sans, which was sooooo good...udon noodles rock. Then we went to the anime store in Northridge and bought some pocky and some other sweet stuff and then to Wet Seal were I got some new clothes ^______^ Whew! We were quite the money spenders today. It's fun cause we don't get to do all that very often. Now all I'm gonna be thinking about is seeing baby on Tuesday...*stares dreamily into space*

oh yeah and to celebrate to Kaoru's hottness, here's some piccies of her! *_*

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

   Sorry Everyone!
I apologize that I haven't been able to visit your sites or post for a while. My internet connection has been dowm and even if it's up again, it's only for a minute or two, like right now. I'm gonna try and fix it, so don't worry I'll be back as soon as it's fixed!^^
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Sunday, June 5, 2005

   More Kenshin^^

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   my nose is stuffyT_T
waaah I have a stuffy nose, but my sore throat is gone. Baby mad it all better. I had sucha fun day yesterday. Baby took care of me and fed me soup by hand and then we cuddled and then we made love. It made me feel so happy. Later when I was feeling quesy she laid me down and stroked my tummy^_^(don't ask I'm like a puppy I love tummy rubs)When her mom came and she had to leave I was missing her already. I get this big heartache every moment she's not with me and I know she gets it too. I went to sleep not being able to get her off my mind.

On the other hand I was trying to distract myself by looking at hott pics of Kenshin but that didn't work because in some pics he looks like Shane(baby) and that made me miss her even moreT_T

*sigh* I'm just so in love huh? It feels so wonderful yet at times it can drive you crazy(like right now) lol
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Friday, June 3, 2005

   kenshinny goodness^^
YAYS! I found more Kenshin pics, esp. of Kaoru, she's hott^^ These are by doujin artist Shinji Yamaguchi me like her art vey mucho.

Yes, I'm Kenshin-obsessed. It's been like that for 3 years @_@
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Thursday, June 2, 2005

   I did it!
Today I finally yelled at Roger. After about a year of holding my anger in and not saying a word I finally let it all out. I still have no idea waht my mom sees in him. Today he was going on and on about my eating disorder and dissing my entire existence for it and telling me every thing that was wrong with me. He said that I should go to a psyciatric facility which is ridiculous because mental is the last thing I am right now, he said my mom should control waht I eat like a child, and told me that I am the worst child he has ever come across and that my life is doomed. That made the most pissed off I had ever been in my life. I asked my mom if I could duke it out with him and she said yes, and then I let the fur fly. I had never yelled at anyone like that before because I am tired of his constant critisizm of me, my mom and sister and I did not hold back. I told him to shut his mouth until he knew the whole story and to not humiliate us but he still refuses to change. i kept yelling until I started crying and couldn't take it anymore to my mom broke it up and I ran upstairs and started shaking and tried to find ways to distract myself, then later my mom came up and said she couldn't believe what he said that it was cruel and that she was proud of me for finally getting the courage to stand up to someone. I never show anger, so I was proud of myself too. Actually I was angry waking up because last night this guy I know down the street kept asking to have sex with me and no matter how many times I said no he wouldn't listen. I told him I have a girlfriend and I'm loyal to her nor do I even want to cheat on her with anyone. That didn't stop him apparently. He told me she wouldn't know and that made me so made I swear I was about to blowing smoke out of my nose. Luckily Robin told him off and then he got offline and I blocked him on my buddy list. But if he ever asks me that again I'm gonna tell him to go fuck himself(pardon my french)I feel like I'm finally gettting the courage to stand up for myself. Makes me happy. Especially when I'm so sick of having guys view me as nothing but a sex object and now treating me otherwise. Carleigh always treats me like a precious treasure and makes me feel so loved tho...^^makes me feel all giddy and warm inside. I can't wait to see her on Saturday, feels like such a long way away...T_T

And I want pasta right now.
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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

   kaikan phrase
I loves this series! MUST...GET...MORE...
wai im obsessive

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