Friday, September 23, 2011

It's been a long long time

It's been a long long time hasn't it? Yes, I know I haven't been updating or commenting in quite a while. I am so sorry. I have been so busy with changing my life around that I lost track of time. I have to be at work in 30 minutes so I have to make it short. However, I moved to Maryland about a month and a half ago. Israel drove me up here in a truck and he went back to Florida. So far, he is living there and I'm up here with my dad. I don't know when he is coming back buy for now I guess we are just taking time apart, although he says we are still together. When I got up here two days later I got a job at a grocery store that is very close to me. I can walk there in less than 7 minutes. So it's perfect for now. I got my Maryland ID which actually took me forever to get because they always wanted something different each time I went. I actually had to fight with the lady to let me get a number. lol I told her I wanted to see a manager. She got pissed at me too. Now I have to go to the college to get myself settled up for classes and in state tuition. Soon, the seasons will start to change and before I know it, the year will change too. My life is going by so fast! haha I am so happy too. But I really do want to start getting back on here. How has everyone been? I hope you been well. I will check back tonight to check on updates. I should be able to comment too. However, sometimes the internet goes out here because it's free from the landlord. SO I cannot complain. lol I will see you all later! I miss you all

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Hey everyone! My last post must have been misleading. I am still going to post on here buut I am finding hard to actually write a good long one. Plus, its hard for me to read posts too. But I am still going to try my best cause you guys are my friends! And i really don't want to leave.. ^_^ So right now, I am watching horders and it's really sad. some of these people act so crazy about garbage! My boyfriend says I am beginning to horde but you know, all my things are neat and clean and I don't collect trash. I am a clean freak! I just have problems letting go of sentimental things. But I can. haha I'm not a horder. Im also playing WOW. My friend got me started with that game and it's not so bad. However I think Oblivion and Fable are better. Oh well. Anyway, my email again is lerae201@gmail.com. Just in case you didnt get the last post. Find me on facebook if you want. ^_^ I hope to hear from you all soon! Love you guys!

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Find it so hard to keep posting on here!!! Hey everyone. SO I haven't yet moved because my set date is in July. I still need to pack up. Everyone, if you want to keep in touch with me from time to time, Please find me on facebook. My email is lerae201@gmail.com I have to go now, Gonna go grocery shopping. I am so hungry!

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Hello everyone! So today I am going to work at around 4. I get to go home at 10 so I don't have to stay all night and close. I really should change my availability to anytime now. I just don't really want too until my car is fixed. Right now I am depending on rides from friends to get me to work. I would rather walk but it's so hot outside now and walking would be miserable. I guess it's summer time in Florida now. I heard Harford county is pretty country but you see, there isn't anything here in Tampa either. You have your mall, restaurants, and the beaches and You have Bush Gardens but you need money to go and it can get old if you do it all the time. I think the move up there will be good. Anyway, I have to go walk my puppy Snoopy. I gotta get ready for work soon and i know he needs a walk before I leave for work. That wouldn't be fair to him. ^_^ So how is your day going? I hope it's well. Has Summer vacation started for anyone yet? I hope to talk to you again soon! See Ya!

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Hello everyone!How have you all been doing? I have a lot to talk about this morning so I hope my post wont be too long and boring. Well, I finished off this semester with B's so I am very happy with that. I will be going back to school in Maryland in the Spring and Summer so I can graduate by next Spring. I am a little upset that I wont be able to go to school in the fall but I have to be a resident of Harford county for 3 months before I can get the out of state fees off me. I wont be able to afford college. It's okay though. It will give me time to find a job and a place to live without the hassle of studying for classes. So, Israel and I took time apart and we decided that we don't want to be apart. It's so hard to explain but I think me and Israel love each other too much to actually want to see and be with other people. We talked things out and we ust can't be away from each other..... I don't know, it's just so hard to stay away.So, me and Israel will be moving together up North and we will start over new. I think it will be healthy because we have so much history in Tampa and I think it will be better to get away from osme of the people here in Florida. Alos, my friend Alyssa who ust moved down here from Deleware is now moving back up North because I am moving too. She says she doesn't have any friends here and she doesn't want to be alone..... I feel kinda bad too because well, she moved down here and now she is leaving. She didn't even get to see the cool parts of Florida. lol Oh and I will also get to see my other friend in Deleware! That's right Bubble's Megee!!! I am so gonna visit you once I move up there. I feel like I need to get out of here faster. I just wish I could be living up there now. I just need $2,000 to move. I only have 810. By the time we have to move, I may not have all the money. Which sucks. Me and Israel have been thinking about if I go up there early and start looking for a job and place to live but I don't want to be away that long anymore from him. So tofay I have to go to work from 3 to closing time. I hate closing sometimes because even though the store closes at ten, we still have to stay like an hour or two after the customers leave and when the customers leave like 40 minutes after the store is supposed to close, it really sucks because that means we can't clean the floors and start staking up things. It slows us down so much. ugh. So, how have you all been? It's been so long and I feel like we lost touch somehow. Let's reconnect!

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This is how I feel!

Well, I just found out that I will be going by myself to maryland. I find that okay because I ust want to take a break from Israel and be by myself visiting my family. I know it sounds bad but it's true. I don't think I can spend the rest of my life with him. We had two fights this week. One was more of an irritated argument. The first one was about kids. As you may know, he is 21 and i am 20. I have big dreams. I want to get my masters and get a great job before I have kids and I may be around 27 or 28 when that happens. He wants kids when I turn around 24. He says if Iwe don't have kids but like 26 then we wont have any at all. I find that really mean. I want to get my life straight and settled and live first. Not throw my life away right in the middle to have a baby. Seriously.You know, I feel like how I did when I lived with my mom. I even put a password lock on my phone so he can't get into it. I don't even talk to him about what I feel anymore because he doesn't understand me. We are so different and I don't think it will work. Anyway, sorry about the complaining. At least I have a place to go up North. My dad wants me to live up there with him but with my own place. yay! I already got the acceptance letter to the community college and i am getting all my financial aid taken care of. I just hope life up north is better. My grandmother loved it so maybe I will too ^_^ Anyway, I should be studying for my exams tomorrow. My final exams are on May 3rd. Oh! Im nervous. Take care my friends!

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Cherry Cheese Danish and an XXX Vitamin Water

Oh this morning feels likes an eternity! lol I had to get up early like always with my boyfriend so we can save on gas. I don't really mind but sometimes I just want to sleep in before school. I really can't wait to start summer vacation. I will be getting ready for the big move to Maryland and I really cannot wait. I have to send my transcripts to Harford now so I can get myself enrolled. Anyway, how are you all today? I noticed that everyone hasn't been updating as much and I know everyone is busy but I miss you all! lol Is everyone taking summer classes or will everyone have a summer vacation? I still have to work so it wont be too much of a break but it's better than having two things on my plate. Anyway, I finished my Astronomy term paper and it turned out to be seven pages long. It's very boring and very factual so yeah, writing it was a huge pain in the butt. I was even falling asleep while writing it. So, I feel like I have been slacking off with my studies and I don't like that. I am hoping to get on the ball once I go to a better and new college. At least I hope it will be better. You know what they say, the grass is no more greener on the other side. On a good note, me and my sister have been talking again. I was talking to my mom but she blew me off because I think she found out that I am broke too. I will never know. I am going to call her again once I get minutes on my other phone. I have two phones now. Israel doesn't get to see my other one though. I really want him to stay away from what me and my mom do. He doesn't want to interfere he says but still. I would prefer it to be just me and my mom. Okay, well, I have to go print my essay and catch up with my sister now. So I will post and comment as soon as possible okay? Miss you all! Have a great day!

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It's been a long while hasn't it? Let's catch up

Hey everyone! How are things going? I know it's been a long while since I last wrote but I want to start back up again. School really has taken a lot of my time and well, so has work. I still live with Israel and things have gotten better. I moved out and we got our space but we decided to be with each other again. However, we both agreed if we get that bad again then it will be best to go our separate ways. This semester has been so much better than the last. Did I tell you that I got health insurance? Well, a month ago I almost died from an enlarged colon from my colitis. I stayed four nights at a hospital and was able to get medical insurance coverage and my meds. I am so happy now. All my flare ups are gone and I have been in remission since my hospital stay. Now I am on a diet and lots of exercise too. I gained weight from lack of energy and activity. I used to be 124 and now I am 140. It's a bit of a weight gain but now I am working back down. Last I checked I was at 133. I felt the extra weight on my body and I saw that I wasnt fitting into my clothes as well anymore either. Now that I am healthy again I can do more about it. Oh and guess what? I am moving to Maryland after the Summer is over. I am going to live closer to my Great Uncle, Father and Grandma and I may be able to actually meet my cousins. I never met them before or talked to them. I wonder what they are like. I will miss my family here though. After my grandma's passing, I have had this great urge to get up and leave this state. I feel like it's what my grandmother wanted to do. She never liked Florida and before she died she wanted to go see her family up North in Virginia and Kentucky and all her friends in Maryland. I am so sorry that I haven't been here in so long. How long has it been? A few months maybe? Well, I noticed that others haven't been here as much either. Maybe once the Summer starts we will have free time again to talk and pots and have fun.

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Sleepy but awake

Well hello everybody!!!!! Me and Israel are fighting again.... well he is more mad at me than anything.I am getting mad because he wont answer his phone, I can't find him anywhere and well, it's just annoying. As of today, I am doing well. I skipped my Astronomy class. I have found that class to be very boring and well, I will go next class. I just don't feel like being bored to death and I thought I should post up here so you guys wont worry. I am sorry that I haven't been around as much. I am getting my computer fixed and it should b done by Thursday. It had an electrical problem and soon it will be working again!!!! YAAAAY! Now I wont let Israel use it again because he would pick it up by the monitor screen and let it dangle in the air. Not so smart or he would leave it where it could fall off the side of a table or chair and when I would tell him not to do that he would get pissed at me and tell me that it's okay. You know, even if it was okay, why couldn't he respect my wishes? Sometimes I am starting to think me and him are not going to work out. My friend says I can stay with her if anything ever happened. maybe me and her can get our own apartment? lol I am starting to like that idea though. Israel is becoming so controlling and it I think the stress of it all is giving me ulcers. There was a saying in a book that I was reading at work. It said "Ulcers are not caused by what you are eating but by what is eating you." I found that so true. Anyway, I am waiting for Israel to get out of his math class. i don't really want to fight with him at all but it's going to happen. Oh Oh!!! Since I celebrate the spring, I started my own little garden! I am making an herb garden and pepper garden. I really like how its gonna look too!!! I can't wait to actually use them for cooking. I bet my food will taste the absolute best! If i had more room I would actually grow my own fruits and veggies. How organic is that????? Then I wouldn't worry to much of where my food is really coming from. Just gotta be careful of disease and bugs. I'm sure I can do it. People have been doing it for thousands of years. Anyway, I am gonna go and comment on your sites. I hope you guys are doing okay and are having a wonderful day. Talk to you all later!

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No worries....... well maybe a little

Hello all. ^_^ I am pleased to announce that I am back and ready to start posting again. I am sorry for the long absence. I really missed you guys too! So, I took my little unpaid vacation from work and I feel a bit more relaxed. I calmed down and I collected all my thoughts and I understand that my grandma is gone and that now she is all around me. I miss her very much but I know she would not want me to live angry and sad. But I know she wants to be missed. lol Me and my mother have been fighting alot. She says I am the reason why my grandmother is dead. She says that when I moved out I should not have been talking with my grandma and that I should have left her out of my life. My mom and my grandma fought the night before she died....... so I can see why my mother is so upset but I wish she would not put this kind of blame on me..... It really hurts. I may take a spring break off work to do some cleaning. I like that idea. Get rid of the old and in with the new! Maybe have a little yard sale? Who knows. I don't really have much to seel. I will probably donate what I don't want anymore to a charity or church. Also, I made a new friend. Her name is Alyssa. Me and her hang out and talk bout everything. I haven't had a friend I could actually hang out with in a longn while. I'm probably gonna hang out with her tonight after I get out of school. So, I found out that it's been getting hard for me to sleep on my own. I've been stealing meletonin from the medicine cabinet and taking two so I can pass out fast. Do you think that is bad? I am hoping soon I will be able to go to sleep on my own. I should do that tonight. But when I take that medicine I don't wake up all through the night and I actually wake up feeling good. Without it I go to the bathroom and I feel the pain nmy stomach all night long. Tonight I have a college algebra test. I am a little worried because I know little to nithing about what I am learning in that class. It's so hard and it's really tough for me to focus with all the crap that is going on. I need at least a B to bring up that F I produced last time. ugh I feel like a loser. Anyways, I will post back another time now. I gotta get ready for my school day. and I gotta eat breakfast. However, I am thinking about starting a little diet. I don't want to eat as much as I do anymore. I'm not really gaing weight but I am getting out of shape. No food before 8:00 am and no food after 9:00 pm. Little meals for luch and medium size for dinner and breakfast. Then exersice and stretching when I get the chances too as long as I do at least 15 minutes a day to start. ^_^ Yay! No I just have to follow it. Anyway, see you all later!

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