Thursday, May 31, 2007

Thursday, May 31, 2007 @ 3:30pm [EST CST] Blargh. Hey guys. Well the past week or so I've been gone has be extremely depressing. More depressing than most of you are probably thinking. Let's see... Where to begin? Let's give you a list... Studied 4 Finals Watched Latest Anime Eps Saw POTC3 Dad Came Home Had big fight w/dad Fount Out Dad's Secrets Depressed 4 Week Okay... So basically I had a good time all up until Saturday morning, when my dad came over. I hadn't seen him in a few weeks, so I was happy to see him. So we had a good time, bought a few books, etc etc. Then I don't know where the fuck this came from, but I asked him, 'Why'd you leave us?'. ::face/palm:: I honest to God never meant to say that to him. It just slipped I guess. So he started going off on how he's such a great father [while supporting 2 other families besides mine]. I got pissed at his reaction to the question, so I told him to shut it, and then all hell breaks lose. When we returned home [to my house], I ran inside and locked him out. Of course, my mother being oblivious to all, opens the door and lets him in. I start sobbing, because all I truly heard the whole time he was yelling at me was 'I never wanted a child like you'. My mom's more than confused, trying to calm me and my dad down. Then dad starts going off on how he supports our house and blah blah blah [bunch of fucking lies]. I get agitated and tell him that mom and I are the one's doing all the work to support the family, and how he does nothing but sleep around with women [hah. fucking idiot]. So all hell breaks lose, again. Bottom line is, he said things no father should ever tell his child. The words he said to me are stuck in my brain for good. No matter how much I want to forget what he said, the words just keep reoccuring and replaying themselves. So the whole weekend was wasted on me being depressed and not moving an inch from where I was sitting [the couch]. But besides that, my week's been okay I guess. My friend Meg came back from New York yesterday. She went to a Japanese bookstore in the city, and when she was there she got me a Death Note fan book [all in Jap.] and a Kira plushie. Her coming back so cheered up my week. And also, tomorrow we're going to see POTC3 again. =D Yay. And Saturday I'm planning on going over my friend Matt's house for a yard sale. w00t. Thank God I have friends, right? I wouldn't be able to live without them [including u guys]. ::HUGS:: -EE2- Comments (7) « Home