Wednesday, March 9, 2005

I've seen better days.
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Shinmaru- Yeah. Double edged swords are common in society.

The lessons of wisdom and religion exist, but it is heavily fleshed in the dogma. There is much you can learn that is practical from religion, but it might be hard for some to see, heh.

Lily- *offers her his hand* I'll lift you out of the etc. =)

Hey, whenever I stopped, I stopped. My crossdressing phase ended several years ago. It was a psychological reaction to a problem that normal children shouldn't have to go through, lol. I'd rather be a whatever. I don't care, I'm human. That's all that matters. Gender is irrelevant to me, I'd still be pretty weird as a chicka. I'm a guy, so I'm a guy. Doesn't matter to me. If I was a chicka, I'd be a chicka. *shrugs*

Taboos are nice. They let people be foolish for free.

My SUV is too cool for you. I mean, it's covered in bird shit- how sweet is that?

Irish- Heh. Thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. ^_^

IBC, eh? Well, right now all I've got is A&W so. I'll try IBC out sometime, just for ye.

Society is *irritating* and I don't enjoy existing in it in the least. All the stereotypicalness of this country wear down on me constantly. I'm apathetic because everything is a rerun- the situations, the people, what they say, what they think. Nothing is a revolution anymore, nothing is a passionate fire. Everything is the same ol' dull rat race, everyone is too ingrained in their reality. I might be in the clouds a bit but I know it's a hell of alot better than being cemented to the ground. It's just, grr. I want to live fast and die young. I just want to be in *movement* to *exist*. I want to be freeflowing, I don't need to hear about all these plans that cement people right into the role of being a no one in the history books. The common man, the peasant.. I don't aspire to be that. I don't plan to live to 80, to 60, to 40, to 20 even! I'll live as long as I can as full as I can. If it kills me, I'll live. That is my plan. And I might die from living, which is funny, really.

Heh. Equality is.. interesting.

I think Parmenides and Tigger would have been good friends.

Roxie- I'm glad you agree.

*gives you batteries for your flashlight*

Lea- Heh heh. Tigger should have some root beer.

Ich bin tot.

Well, I've been mainly dealing with multiple attacks on my life's current [boring] serenity. Seems like fate likes throwing everything at you at once, but it's fine. I think I can handle it. Plus, it breaks the nice, stereotypical calm this house always seem to have. Nothing's new, don't ask. Our A/C is broken on my side of the house. That might not seem like a concern to some of you, but this is Texas. Daytime temperatures in spring hit 80 usually, which is nice- unless you're in a house that is like a heat sink, lol. Thankfully it's been cloudy and rainy so I think someone in the fate department likes me. Spring break is thankfully coming. I declare it a week of rest, relaxation and gaming. I re-saw Hero yesterday and was still impressed by the work of art in front of me. The biomass can go enjoy their crappy American movies, I adored this film and will keep adoring it. Also seeing Ziyi Zhang in any movie is good. Asians. I heart asians. Many hearts for them, yeah. Anyway..

Let's find something to talk about that is more interesting than ol' Kenno.

Die young and save yourself.

Topic for discussion.

I front when I want to, I don't when I don't. Not all the people at every place in time needs to know or understand what I am thinking, saying or doing. Either out of trust, that it isn't the place for it or the fact I don't know them- myriads of reasons. I'm not enigma, I just think that sometimes people are better off not knowing or they don't deserve to know. It's also how I deal with the common worry that someone is going to betray you. I know you. You don't know me. You try to backstab me. I'm close enough to you to backstab more precisely, more deadly. I don't need to trust or not trust. I just know all I can about people and if they ever get the weird idea to try to hurt me, I'm in a position to retaliate with ease. But I don't mean to sound like I'm planning to harm you, I really would rather not. I trust most of the readers of this very deeply and doubt you would try to hurt me in any fashion. And I would not want to harm you, either. I'm not malevolent with the information people give me through trust. You can trust me, but if you betray my trust well- an eye for an eye.

But I used to front in a more stereotypical way. I tried to force myself to fit in out of a desire to be popular or be liked. Eventually that fervor faded into apathy. Why did I want to be like these idiots? The popular people were all arrogant, elitist airheads who will probably end up with sexually transmitted diseases or as drug addicts. I want to be me. The purest form of me. As long as I am in contact with me, the way others see me is irrelevant- because I see me as I am. People are blinded by various things, you cannot always present yourself in the purest form to people- they will miss it so completely, so easily that it is somewhat amusing. I'm not saying I can see when people are themselves- it's hard to tell if people 'front' and then fade into the normalcy in their head. But the rules apply to all people and I am one of them. I would love for people to "understand" me, but they won't. Just like I don't "understand" some people. But would I present myself as a happy-go-lucky, fun loving adventurer? No. I could if I wanted to, but I don't really want to. Those who appreciate me for me are my friends. Those that want me to be someone else can go to hell.

I like people who can be themselves because they are doing something that alot of teenagers or young adults seem to fail at. Even if you are weird or seem to not be popular as yourself- you'll find someone to appreciate you. Somewhere, someday.

I guarantee it.

He likes to bleed but never smiles.

Topic for discussion.

Slipknot and Soulfly aren't death metal. They are nu-metal. Slipknot is the worse of the two. If you want Death Metal you should get some Dimmu Borgir, Meshuggah or Satyricon. With that addressed, let's move fluidly onward to greener pastures.

I'm german-mexican-indian-black-terran and I'm into.. whatever I want to be into. I like music. I don't like metal because I'm German. I like metal because I like metal. I don't like techno, gangster rap because I'm black. I like it because I like techno and gangster rap. I'm establishing a common theme here, you see? Your race doesn't affect anything. If you think it does, well- that's your problem. What you like is both an effect of how you were raised and your predisposition. Race is so irrelevant, lol. You are human, terran, earthian- whatever. That is all you will be, can be and will continue to be. The color of your skin, your nationality, your heritage are meaningless to me. You bleed the same as I do, you have the same anatomical layout as my 'race' does, you are just.. overtly similar. My interests are mine as a person, not as a racial entity. Just me. Ken's. Kenneth Andrew Howell's interests.

My race is very silly since I don't have one, really. I'm a mutt, lol. How mutt can you get?

*looks in mirror*

Sing you to sleep.

I think I'm out of things to say.

Hasta manana.

P.S. Horray! Let's get pissed about things that happened 60 years ago! =D

P.P.S. GO SPURS!

P.P.P.S. Ugh. Come here faster, spring break. =x

P.P.P.P.S. Fighting Chinese is always unhappy in my games. Thousands upon thousands of chinese running at me. <_>

Theme song of this post: "Song 2" by Blur.
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