Sunday, January 2, 2005

The city of glass that I live in.
Comments on commentary-

Lily- Bug me if you wish. ;P

DDG- Yeah, that got a little bit longer than I realized, hm. WOOPS.

Roxie- Cynicism is not well-enough defined of a word. Either you can believe that all the people in the world are selfish by choice, or you can believe that they do not know better. I am inclined to think that on the basis of primal survival, people are concerned with themselves to a very overt degree. It takes a higher understand to be able to spread your resources, whatever that might imply, to other people who need or want them. It's not your fault, I'm selfish sometimes too- I just try my best to not be.

That might seem a little arrogant because I am a little bit arrogant. *points to the part about being an elitist* =P

Shinfaru- I suppose it was, if you find that sort of thing interesting. o.o

The thin darkness here;

There was a disaster in Asia that has been implied by religious people to be a sign of this being the Bible's "Last Days". Id est, the Bible lists things that will be occur before Armageddon comes- the list includes an increase of earthquakes, wars, famine and a common sense of Godlessness as people go about serving their materialism more than their deity of choice, id est they are serving Satan in lieu of God as Satan has made Earth his "domain" for now [he is the King of Earth in other words], if you serve for material, man-made possessions you are inadvertently worshipping the Devil. I find it offensive that people are taking a human disaster and focusing on the ethereal- if there is such a spiritual being of higher wisdom, I would be inclined to believe that his signs of coming disaster wouldn't kill an entire generation of a region's population. If you are a human then for the sake of your species, when something as large and devastating as this occurs focus on the humanity involved- the battered, parentless children, the devastated families, the people who went out to fish so they would have food on the table that night and never came home again. Focus on the tangible, not the intangible- focus on the living, breathing chaotic disaster that exists.

I have no inclination to believe that any wise deity would will this upon any amount of persons as a trumpeting call signaling his 'glorious' arrival. If so, I have more reason to not be serving any God, Goddess or otherwise.

Not strong enough to make you appear.

I spent New Year's by myself mostly, ringing in the new year with plenty of thought and ritualistic recitation of vows that I would fulfill for this year. It was like a battlezone out here, there were fireworks going off in every direction imaginable- they were going off all across the sky, and it was beautiful to watch. Just me, myself, a hilltop and the fireworks. I was a bit irritated at having no company, but it was alright- I knew I wouldn't like to share that moment with a ton of people or anything, maybe just one person. What'd you guys do for New Year's?

Now I'm breathing;

In a matter of what seems like a few moments, your reading of this will become a memory. Years will pass by you almost in the blink of an eye, and yet the future seems to crawl slowly towards you- taunting you with it's promises, the past taunting you with moments you might have missed. Hindsight is always 20/20. I suppose what I'm saying is that time is an amusing thing- as, it seems like only moments ago I joined OB as an blabbering, foulmouthed kid. And yet, here we are- years later. New people have arrived on OB and old ones have departed, but I am still here. I have an understanding that our time together might be coming to a close by the end of this year, but that discussion is for another time. Whenever I do tell you goodbye, don't take it is a finality- I'm sure you'll see more of me, around places, peoples and things. Consider it a "farewell for now". As I always hold the hope that when people tell me "goodbye", they are simply saying "farewell for now"- but I know that sometimes it might not be true.As for me, I believe it will be true. But, my goodbyes are not for today or this week or this month- perhaps not even this year. As a man with no schedule, with no plan I must go day by day- so when I do depart, it might be sudden.

Until that time I will continue to be perplexed about the path I have chosen, and wonder if I did the right thing. But, I am sure that 5 years from now I will know that I did the right thing. The path through that five years is the hard part.

I could not breathe until you did.

I suppose that is all. I will see you all again. I hope you are well.

P.S. Thank you, Mr. Fett. That made my day- I was rather dismayed I had only one mention prior to yours, lol.

P.P.S. And, as always- Go Spurs!
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