Birthday • 1989-02-23 Gender •
Male Location • The States Member Since • 2005-05-10 Occupation • Collage Real Name • David
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Achievements • Surviving Anime Fan Since • 1995 Favorite Anime • Inuyasha, Wolfs Rain, FullMetal Alchemist, Naruto, Fruits basket, and other Animes Goals • To become the best at a lot of things and to make up for past sins... Hobbies • Playing vid games, snowboarding, working out Talents • Soccer, some school work, having women attracted to me (sadly), so on...
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After several days in England we went back to Texas and I stayed there for a few days and then left to Nebraska to visit my mother. My father and stepmother and sister went to Venezuela to visit family.
He had some fun there seeing movies and going to see a pack of wolves and also to the zoo. Halfway threw I went to my grandparents house in Canada. I had some fun over there and since they are old they gave me a ring they owned that had a nice jewel in it. We also went to a Native American reservation and had a really big lunch at the buffet in the casino and I almost threw up I ate so much. ^_^ I came back home to Nebraska and my mother and stepfather went to see Julie&Julia; it is a really good movie. Another day we went to see District 9 and I liked that movie but my mother liked it more since she thought it was a horror movie and it wasn’t.
I came back home to Texas and right now my father is bugging me to study math; he is really pissing me off especially since it is all his fault that I am not good at math anymore. I need to pass calc 2 this semester or I am completely fucked. My lil sister got her tonsils out and she feels sore. Tomorrow I am going out to eat with a few friends.
I went and ate with them and I had fun. Though at one point they talked about people that I didn’t know and stuff like people liking other people and I felt like the 3rd wheel. -_- I wish I had several girls within a stone’s throw distance that liked me. Sorry for the emo like rant; this is a place to toss my feelings at. But on the bright side I look muscular and have new clothes. My friends did say I look like what would happen if the guy from harry potter had gay sex with the guy from twilight. hahahahahaha
I have been thinking about how much I hate how my father wasted a part of my life traveling a lot. It’s all his fault my life is full of loneliness and poor math skills. This summer has been pretty odd. Its like for the whole collage year I have not been feeling what is inside me (being numb) and then when I didn’t have to think about collage and had more time for my mind to wander so I feel 9 months of my inner pain all in a short time.
I don’t have a music video for you so here are children coming out of a slide that looks like a giant penis with a fart soundtrack. Its lol.
PS: new VGCats up. It will hit close to home to vampire loving females.
Sorry sorry sorry. I had forgotten to post something. I will post on what has happened since I stopped this post and I will post it later.
I have not really enjoyed this summer as much as I would have wanted to. For one thing after getting hit by the collage I thought I could have the time off but so far I have been having regrets hitting me from time to time in my summer. Like how I don’t have a girlfriend, how I could have done more with my life, how others are having fun; its really annoying and pretty depressing. I have been trying to improve myself thought and try to keep positive and cheerful…it’s hard. *sigh*
But I am making progress. ^_^
I have also made progress on my body. Now I look somewhat chiseled; I look muscular. Now all I need is a good hair cut for my wardrobe and then an attractive attitude and personality and then maybe I could get a girlfriend soon.
In Paris there were a lot of people begging. I would think in a socialist country that there would be less poor people. A bunch of them were gypsies who were peddling the exact same story right next to each other. It is kinda hard to not feel bad when there are so many beggars even if a lot of them have nothing wrong with them and could still work.
These paragraphs are a day by day thing about my time in London and Paris.
We went to the arch thing and Eiffel tower and then later Notre dame. It was pretty creepy going to the top of the Eiffel tower since it is so high up and I am not found of heights. My sister felt abit ill so she was not in a good mood. Notre Dame was huge; I cannot remember how to describe it.
We went to Versailles; it was the place that the Sun king used to keep the noblemen busy so he can do what he wanted. The building was big but the garden was humongous! There was a bunch of paintings and statues but the harder spanned as far as the eye could see. My big sis lost her $1000 glasses so me and my lil sis helped to find them and we did. Later we had some ice cream and since they didn’t have chocolate I had lemon; it was like biting into a lemon every time I licked. T_T
On our last full day we went and just walked around Paris. At dinner my big sister and I got into a fight. I am not sure where it started but she started being in a bad mood and punched at my confidence a lot. We exchanged names and she stormed out mad.
Today my sister left without us saying “good bye”; I think it’s for the best since if I came into contact with her she would rip my head off. We took a train to London. I got to have my own wine and it tasted pretty good. I am in a hotel that has a good view of big Ben and the London eye. It is kinda nice to be back in a country that speaks mainly one language and it is my language.
Today we went to see the London Eye which is right outside our hotel and it was pretty fun going on it. The line was long but it went fast. I tried to get my picture taken on it but I was not good at getting it taken. Later we walked past Big Ben and went to Trafalgar Square which had a bunch of gay pride stuff around. Later we went to a famous toy store but just outside there was a gay pride parade; it was pretty fun to watch the parade and for some reason it made me feel better. (I am not gay) Anyways the toy store was pretty fun; had several levels of toy stuff and made me remember that even if it is not electronic it is still fun. Later the family walked through a minefield of clothes shops; the girls stopped at a lot of them. Later we walked through Buckingham palace and laid on the grass of a park for awhile.
On the last day we just hung about and later went to the Hard Rock Café. Someone was soon going to be married; congratz to them.
Over the past few days back at Grandma’s and Grandpa’s we have just been hanging around. My father and I have been going to a café to get internet over the days. We have also been doing some work on the back yard which took awhile but we did it quickly enough.
First we went to Florida. It was pretty nice there. There were a few women on the beach without tops on so the view was nice. ^_- (I am a guy, give me a break) There was a lot of gay guys about; pr so they looked. While being there I worked out abit too much and messed up my abs for about four or five days.
While going to England we had first class seats that are like their own cubicle. They have a tv, can swivel 90 degrees, have another seat in them, and also can go completely flat. I didn’t sleep though so I was really tired the next day when we went to Grandma’s and Grandpa’s house so I went to bed early and woke up late. It is also hard not to laugh when I hear little English children speaking. I also made a mess of myself if you know what I mean. -_-‘
Our Grandfather is not feeling well because there is too much fluid in his brain and spine so they are draining alittle of it. We went to an English hall today and saw a bunch of stuffed animals and a few plants and a lake full of ducks. There were also a few dogs there and a lot of couples there. I didn’t really like that because I so wish I had a girlfriend.
The whole family went to the country to see a town that had a famous English show on. We went to a tea place called “The Wrinkly Stocking” and it had really tasty food. We then walked around the town to find a fish & chips place and my lil sister lost her jacket but I found it. Later we went to some place with a castle and we went in the caves which went deep below the ground and was pretty cold.
The next day we went to Nottingham castle. We were able to see most of the town from there which looked nice and also was able to see the history and artwork there; it was pretty interesting. There seem to be more people here wearing hot topic clothes.
Today my father and I went to an English café so we could use the internet. I checked up on a few things and did some updates. The bad part was when I got a message from a friend of a girl I used to know. Later my father, lil sister, and myself went to a park to feed the ducks but the law now is that you cannot feed the ducks.
We went to London so we could catch the train the next day. The hotel was alright; it was fancy but just about everything cost something and cost a lot. It is like 30 dollars for a hamburger. We did go to an underground restraint and I had some nice wine.
We took the train to Paris and it is better than I thought it would be. People are nice and the city is big and clean. The family and I met my big sister in the hotel. We went to see a few sites and then go eat. I tasted escargot; it didn’t taste bad but it is still snails. >.< After the long walk home my feet were hurting.
The family woke up and went to the Louvre (glass pyramid museum) and spent the whole day there. That place is really really really big. We thought we would spend more time somewhere else but it was the whole day there. I saw the Mona Lisa and the famous statue without arms. Walking around there all day made my feet hurt a lot so I was glad we found a food place close to our…um…hotel. Later we went to a restaurant that had really good food; but it probably tasted better because I drank before eating and I am still a little tipsy now and really sleepy. Rum is really good. I should post this soon because I am filling up more stuff every day and it will get too long to read all in one go.
Sorry for the long wait for the next post. I have been so lazy with MyO since VV opened up and since I went to college.
A bunch has happened over the past while. Since I will be gone for a month I will post as much as I can to full the time and the void.
Saw a few movies and they were not bad. Angels & Demons, Drag Me to Hell, Imagine That, Land of the Lost, Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian, Star Trek, Terminator Salvation, The Hangover, The Taking of Pelham 1 2 3, Up, and X-Men Origins: Wolverine. *takes breath* Too much. 0_o
I met two of my friends that are working at the movie theaters; I think I have a crush on one of them. -///-
I asked her but no response yet.
In collage I have B-C average but have failed cal 1 once and calc 2 twice; I have to take it again. Colorado school of mines is a real bitch. You pay tonz of money to teach yourself; but at least we have a 99% chance of getting a job when we leave.
In two days I will be going to England to visit my Grandparents and then to Paris for fun; I will see my big sister there. I bet we will have a lot of fun there. I will not have internet so I will not be on for at least a month. I hope that my encounter with my grandparents goes well; last time didn’t go well…
I put my cross collar (necklace) back on after so long. I am not atheist but I find that the world is to messed up to have a benevolent god ruling it. If ever a god be your own. My collar feels like a weight on me that I have been feeling inside since taking it off a long time ago.
I did the garden a long while ago. Uprooting plants (big things sometimes); digging holes; planting small trees and bushes; carrying and unloading soil. I got sunburn but it’s gone now. The garden looks better now but it isn’t finished. We have a few bushes lined up, a small row of small tree, a few watermelons in the counter, and put more grass on grassless spots.
We found a baby bird in the yard. It was pretty new because it only had a few feathers and was weakened. We picked it up and found a bird’s nest and put in there. It might not be the right one but it’s the only one we could find. He had a better chance at life than his brother whom I found flattened on the drive way. Hope he is alright.
I tried to get in contact with a few friends to hang out with them but they all seem busy so it’s a month by myself. Played a lot of games; watched a lot of tv; worked out some on the workout machine; and had an internet thing with a vamp. (werewolves and vampires don’t have to hate each other) I have so much time that I have pecks and am beginning to gain a washboard stomach (6 packs).
Don’t read the paragraph below if you don’t want to. Also the stuff below the video.
I got in a major fight with a girl named Wolftrest and fucked up big time. *sigh* Let’s just say she isn’t in Myotaku anymore and it feels like I lost my heart. There are more things but I put in on a post below the video but you probably don’t want to see it and if you do then it’s there for your eyes. I just need to let it out.
In short…Love me or kill me. (I need a hug so badly T_T)
I am having problems deep within me and a few on the surface right now. I am sorry, I am sorry everyone. As I write this I feel like I am going to fall to peaces.
Living somewhere else for 5 years and coming back home to the United States feels like I have been in a coma for 5 years and everyone has moved on and I am alone. There was nothing to do in Trinidad.
People move on, we loose friends, memories are lost, people die… The world seems to close and MyO; my world for a long time is dead. I want to delete but so many memories. I could just cry…
*grits teeth holding back tears*
I shouldn’t talk about this. I should just go work out to metal to make me feel better. A weapon wouldn’t feel…feel this pain…this loss…
Give me strength…
The preaching’s of a madman and I bet only one to hear of it. I submit to time as long as I will be the one that dies this time. If you felt what I felt it would be “I understand”, “Is that all”, or how I feel “…so this is the pain of loneliness”
Sorry for not posting alot. I usually post at midight so I can put up the postjust as the new day starts but I cannot stand staying up every day.
I had a dream where I was in a convertible with a friend and I got out and laid on my back on the hood of the car with my head hanging off the front of the car and he was driving fast through traffic. I contemplated that it would kill me but I wouldn’t care if I died.
It has been pritty lonely around here lately. My Dad left to Boston but will be back later today; and the other family members are doing their thing.
I went to see several movies lately. They were Star trek, drag me to hell, up, monsters vs. aliens, and night at the museum. Most were pretty good movies.
A few days ago I went to see the Terminator movie and I thought it was pretty good. It was better than the third one. I also went to see the Angels and Demons movie. It had an interesting twist to it that I didn’t see coming. Though I have to say I hated the guy that was doing all the dirty work; he seemed like a pric.
My little sister was in her room and a cockroach crawled onto her. She was quite loud on her protest of it. She was red faced, screaming, and acting as if someone took a huge dump on her (meaning she felt like she needed to cleanse her body and get as far away from the cockroach asap and would go through walls to accomplish that). She is fine now but s is sleeping in her parents’ bedroom; I don’t blame her, bugs are nasty creatures.
A day or two ago I had to do the yard with the family. Ahem, I mean I do the yard while my dad supervised, my lil sister did a few things here and there (one being taking my shovel), and the step mother doing whatever she does. I did have some fun the first hour or two by believing in my good German work ethic. But after several hours or taking plants out of the ground (with deep wood roots), planting new ones, cutting up one whicked spiky plant, and a few other things here and there I disserved a good rest. I was lucky to escape a sunburn but not so lucky as to get some thorn stuck in me from that plant that was so persistent to leave. One in my finger that came out easily; the other in my foot that buried itself under my skin, its feels nice to get it out. I worried about the sunburn because I have pail skin which I like because its means less damage to my skin over time.
This answer probably will not be answered by the small crowd that I ask to. But do you ever feel a dark feeling to do bad things? And I do not mean beat up mean people that were teasing you, I mean kill people just for the hell of it.
I find it so funny on how stupid our leaders are. Especially some like congresswoman Carolyn McCarthy. She is a democrat that is very much against weapons in the hands of civilians yet she doesn’t know anything about weapons or the use of them. Her famous thing is condemning against barrel shafts while not knowing what the hell it is. And then there are the people that think incendiary bullets means heat seeking bullets. (heat seeking bullets don’t exist) It is incredible how people with little to no knowledge of a subject can have a word in it and people believe them.
My father has left for a work meeting; I sure hope the company pays for all this traveling. I am not sure how much he has been traveling since I am not there; but it must be lonely for the family.
To as known a mindless night. Its how funny how days bad conditions we have a thought that it could be as bad as a dream. Then the world is one big dream to me.
I suppose I shouldn’t talk too much of the government because it just pisses people off. But I do wonder what those people at the collage were arrested for during the speech.
*shrugs*
Not much else to say today…oh, I found out meet the spy was leacked.
It has rained here today which is nice. I do love the rain; it is so cleansing. Not much has happened today; played team fortress two and I have to say I hate those spies. There might be a patch for the spies or the snipers soon. I also played more of the empire total war game; there are still many bugs but I can get past them and crush a few more nations. Not much else too note worthy; well, the stuff before was probably not noteworthy at all. Trying to post more often is making me low on things to talk of and it’s the second day.
It’s odd how I have had the same dream within like one or two weeks of each other. It is about me and a few other people being in a medium sized building that has no surrounding world around it and everything is slowly dying and decaying. I feel like it is some type of purgatory. The small world is hopeless in its essence. I feel a taste of that in this world sadly…
I feel so lost so many times; and the hole in my chest does not give me the idea of getting any better.
It’s not just the economy; it’s the lies and the drama this government is causing in its first few months. He says he is going to help the budget by cutting a few million dollars and then goes on a billion dollar spending spree. If you haven’t watched the news you could still hear how he is tossing and losing money left and right.
