Birthday • 1989-02-23 Gender •
Male Location • The States Member Since • 2005-05-10 Occupation • Collage Real Name • David
Personal
Achievements • Surviving Anime Fan Since • 1995 Favorite Anime • Inuyasha, Wolfs Rain, FullMetal Alchemist, Naruto, Fruits basket, and other Animes Goals • To become the best at a lot of things and to make up for past sins... Hobbies • Playing vid games, snowboarding, working out Talents • Soccer, some school work, having women attracted to me (sadly), so on...
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Welcome to today.
Listening to: new band that isnt something you want to hear
Feels: feeling better
The headaches are less severe and less frequent. Not sure if I am sick, stressed, tired or something else. I have been stressed though, things have been going on and I would rather keep quiet about. Just school and family stuff.
Its been snowing over the weekend and today there were icicles everywhere. Seeing the snow is nice, too bad I have not gone snowboarding this season. Too early a time to get up and not enough snow to shred the slopes.
I do not have exams this week so I have alittle extra time I still have some work to do and studying next week. Oh, and for once in forever we have a day off in this school. To that the only times we get off are summer, Christmas, spring break, presidents day, E-days and maybe something else but that is ALL that we get off, that and the weekends.
I have learned that some walls are never meant to be taken down. They are here to protect or to serve as a constant reminder to dangers. These walls are not real but metaphorical. I doubt I will fall for someone or get married but I think I will go to a bar and have some fun for once, what us men do best.
I worked out really hard and am feeling sore but good. I am looking stronger and thinner and am happier about how I look. Wrote abit extra but right now I am not looking to be with anyone, just have some fun. Just cannot afford trying to get close to someone again.
Welcome to today.
Listening to: personal song. : 3
Feels: stressed, tired, at rope’s end
Sorry for the long time, I have been busy.
Lets see. I messed up on two exams and got in another fight with Wolftrest, best week ever. -_-‘
I have been going downhill with depression and a really persistanct and hard head ache. But happiness comes back soon from insanity, not caring, and alittle things I will not tell. ^^
The woman I knew and loved is about a year dead. She was a wonderful woman. I loved her more than anything in the world. She was warm and kind and loving and…just perfect in every way. Now she is sarcastic and cold and close minded and…just, gone. She also demines and belittles me which pisses me off like no other. Guess it is best like this, never was meant to be with anyone. I miss how so was. I remember getting up at 5 am just so I had enough time to reply to her messages before going to school, and god I am not a morning person. I did a lot of things for her that most men wouldn’t do for their girl. As much as I want I can never get her back; I have as much chance on doing that as I do in turning back time and fixing my life. But life is not like that. The best I can hope for is an early death. It would be nice to have a purpose, just need to march till I am given orders.
I am feeling better now after getting that crap off and listening to good old war song.
The exams were brutal. I studed mechanics of materials well and when the exam came is was like the old one but with everything a lot harder. Not pipes for machines. And the geo exam I thought would be multiple choice and easy but it was not and for the love of god it was hard as hell. At least tomorrow I am going to work out till I cannot anymore.
Welcome to today.
Listening to: the emptiness in my head
Feels: tired and stressed
Today was a hard day today. Mondays usually are not good and today was bad. -_- I did bad on a quiz and a few other things I cannot remember ticked me off. Collage is hard and so damn time consuming. I was more pissed off today than I have been in a long time; I guess I just needed to get out some frustration. My morale is low these days, I would not care if I died…actually I would like too. Not saying I am going to kill myself but if it happens (hopefully soon) than I would be happy that my kind is gone.
I started catching up on watching anime that I haven’t watched. Bleach and naruto. Just a small bit, its odd looking at them since who knows how long I have seen them.
The computer I got is a large computer. It is really fast and powerful and it has liquid cooling and several large fans to cool it off. It also starts a few seconds after you press the start button.
Mass effect 2 is a big game which is like role playing but in space. If you ever think of playing it you should beat the first one and then transfer that person into the second game, it makes BIG changes to that game.
I should go work out tomorrow (which would be today Tuesday). I wonder if I should run or go through the whole thing. I am not sure if I can afford being not at full strength this week. It would be nice to work out and also have a place to train in other places, like a punching bag. Getting stronger and more fit means a lot to me. I would like to have a sparring partner. I would like to lose a layer of fat so my muscles would be more predominant.
Which would you do, live forever or die young?
I would die young.
Could you guys/gals comment of KayuraWolfwood's site to make her feel better or something? (something bad happened)
Welcome to today.
Listening to: the Simpsons intro
Feels: tired
A quick type up. I have been very busy lately in school and otherwise. I hate waking up early in the day; I have been tired a lot and miss the days when I woke up late, at least it isn’t dark outside. I really need to crack down on work and study my arse off. Speaking of this I need to pay rent.
I am missing a friend of mine. I hope to hear from her again soon. She is my ex and I was hoping to get back with her since we are getting closer again. But it doesn't seem that way because we have not talked in a long while. I had wanted to ask her out on valentine’s day, just like I did several years ago. *shrugs* We got history. Anyways if we would not be lovers it’s still nice to talk to her.
I am looking stronger but I feel like I am a little fat. I should work on getting the fat off instead of the muscle on. I am also a little tired and would love a whole week off, to rest and to catch up on work.
Oh; I bought mass effect 2 and my new computer came here, both are nice things. I’ll talk more about them another day. ^^’
I cannot think up much else to say. Oh; do you like my new layout? Are you having difficulties with reading or loading or anything?
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Sorry for not posting in while; this week has been very busy and tired. I will post sometime soon. Thought I would have gotten more comments on the last post but one is more than none. ^^' Hope you all are doing well.
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ULTRA IMPORTANT: KayuraWolfwood is not doing well so could you all go to her MyO site and help cheer her up?
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Welcome to today.
Listening to: nothing much
Feels: tired
Yesterday is just like any other day, but with two classes instead of three. ^^’
I had some guy as a lab partner and he had torrents which made it really hard to concentrate but luckily he was smart and was able to know about the rocks so we were able to finish. Working hard for the past few days and waking up early have made me really tired. -.-
Communism and socialism sounds good on paper, take money from the rich and give to the poor, like robin hood but with the government. But if you look how communism and socialism are run its more like take from everyone and give to the government. I find it odd that people these days think people like Stalin(dead leader of USSR), Fidel Castro(leader of Cuba), Mao se tung (dead china leader and revolutionary), Che Guevara (butcher of some prison and Cuba revolutionary, guy on lots of t-shirts), Hugo Chavez (communist leader of Venezuela) are good people and revolutionaries; more like murderers and power hungry leaders to me and history books. Stalin killed twice as many people as Hitler did and it was not quick, it was by starving them; and there are many more that he killed with bullets and other means. Fidel Castro; is an enemy of America and tries to repress people who disagree with him. Mao se tung; killed many, starved many, anti-intellectual, ‘delt’ with people who disagreed with him, try going to China and see how free you are and how happy the people are under the communist regime. Che Guevara; racist, communist, mass murderer, cold killer. Hugo Chavez; socialist, radical, people that lived in Venezuela hate him, destroyed their economy and inflated their money to high extremes. 100 million people were killed by communism in the 20th century. To them if you need to die to advance communism, they will kill you, your family, and your neighbors. Know your leader and his/her past and the people he is with before you vote for him/her. I have been lucky that people have not try to slander me because I am anti-communist and anti-socialist.
I am glad to know that I am thinking of things to write that are not of my daily life. On this I come to a fact that love is spontaneous, such a thing cannot be forced. By this think of a couple staring into each other’s eyes. On the show everybody loves Raymond, Raymond and Debra (his wife) played a sex game which had the naughty and nice squares, naughty being sexual things and nice being lovy things (which was the only thing they landed on to Raymond’s dismay). For the game they had to stair into eachother’s eyes for 3 min; threw this Raymond was counting the minuets till they could do something else. If you have ever been in love or had a crush and they were next to you you might have caught yourself staring at your lover. Here is a short story about two couples staring at eachother.
For some reason my wife told me to look into her eyes for 3 minutes. I looked at my wife’s eyes seeing white surrounding her blue irises which surrounded her black eye thing. As I looked into her eyes I thought of how long it would be till I wouldn’t have to look at them anymore.
I was sitting next to my lover and turned my head to look at her. She sensed my eyes on her and turned her head to see me staring at her, she blushed and looked away and then turned back to me still blushing accepting the loving feeling we both felt for each other. Looking into her blue colored eyes, ‘’’’shining’’’…I could look into her soul; I wonder what are the thoughts behind those blue incandescent diamonds she has. For that moment we were looking deep into eachother… *more lovy stuff and maybe kissing*
Ok I had inspiration to write this but then I lost it but I’ll keep it as it is. Basically love needs to be spontaneous; it’s done, not thought.
Here is a video you should watch, it isn’t long so if you are here than take a look.
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ULTRA IMPORTANT: KayuraWolfwood is not doing well so could you all go to her MyO site and help cheer her up?
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Welcome to today.
Listening to: some song I dunno
Feels: really tired
This morning was the first time in a long time that I woke up from my alarm clock. I usually hate that or someone knocking on my door in the morning because the anticipation for when I have to get out of bed is bad; but it didn’t bother me today.
A friend kind of ticked me off last night and another friend I am still ticked off with; don’t worry, its non of you. Anyways I just need to sit back and cool off for awhile.
I am feeling really sore from working out yesterday. But the pain means I am getting stronger, faster, and better.
My classes are confusing and mind numbing, as in boring or complicated. I need to go study more often so I understand what they are talking about. I have been busy. - _ -
Grandpa bonked his head. It needed stitching but he is alright, still thinking he will drop dead tomorrow. (he has been thinking that for about a decade)
My first weekend after starting the new collage semester. This semester will be interesting; two geo a math and a physics like class. I watched the movie supersize me and it made me feel fat. -_- I work out and try keeping thin but I usually feel fat and ugly and weak. I want to become attractive and strong and thin; I really want to get a 6 pack.
I have bought a store made pie but for some reason when I cooked it, it turned out watery. I really wish I knew how to cook pies. I burned myself though.
I found out there is a movie made on a game I like called Far Cry. The movie is a…far cry from the game. :P Well it has some things like the movie. It’s pretty funny though.
Something that makes me worried a little is I thought of trying in an address of a friend on a sex offender list and there are several rapists and sex offenders near them. To me rape is the worst thing and they should be hanged after they are tortured.
Sorry; don’t got much to say, didn’t think a lot on posting today. -_-‘
Welcome to today.
Listening to: the echoing emptiness of my head
Feels: stiff and sore
Ok. I am in Colorado and have started the next semester of collage.
I am taking fluids, calculus, another geo class, and some other class. I am trying to use the internet at school but it is really really really slow, like a few kilobytes a second. Thank you collage for taking shit loads of money and giving us this crap. -_-‘ I am not liking my calc class; when I sat in the class it took a long while before anyone sat next to me, like I had the plague. And for some reason I do not like the teacher of that class.
I worked out two days ago and it is surprising how weak I got. Just means I need to work harder, longer, and something to become better. I just want to look good and to be useful in a survival situation.
I have not heard from someone close to me in while and I am kinda worried; but it’s best not to dwell too much on it.
On the government, isn’t it interesting when a republican says something that could be racist the media and everyone is hot on their ass but when it is a democrat they are quickly and easily forgiven. Besides that there isn’t much to say recently about criminal hill (aka capital hill)
