Birthday • 1989-02-23 Gender •
Male Location • The States Member Since • 2005-05-10 Occupation • Collage Real Name • David
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Achievements • Surviving Anime Fan Since • 1995 Favorite Anime • Inuyasha, Wolfs Rain, FullMetal Alchemist, Naruto, Fruits basket, and other Animes Goals • To become the best at a lot of things and to make up for past sins... Hobbies • Playing vid games, snowboarding, working out Talents • Soccer, some school work, having women attracted to me (sadly), so on...
myOtaku.com: DarkWolfDemon
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Sorry for not posting…again. I will try to post more often this summer. Changed the site alittle; sorry for the 30 song and the new vg cats comic you cannot even read. -_-
I have been single for a long time. A school of 4 guys to one girl and no time to do anything but study is a really hard place to find a girl let alone keep sane. Just laugh and drink your fill. ^^'
I need a nice relationship with a good woman. Vamp girl tried to get me; god I mist have gone insane by almost getting trapped. Though relationships are binding and freedom is a nice taste that is ever the better when we are leashed like dogs to others.
I got out of collage and got an A, three B’s, and an F. Damn calculus 2. When we finnished with the exams we got to see a bootlegged copy of Wolverine and it was so funny seeing the wires and digital stuff since it was not finnished; we might have been drunk though. We were drunk at one point after the exams. :3
Its been about a week since my exams and I still feel stressed; plus my dad is bothering me about studying over the summer. *sigh* My emotions have been all over the place, except happy, but hell its alright.
Been doing a whole lot of nothing since we got back, and I mean nothing. Though we did go out and got a burrito and a chandelier.
I have watched a few episodes of hellsing and it looks nice. Also I have grown quite fond of a band called rammstein.
This current government seems to be not working out as many has happed. Have people not learned to be wary of governments that are smooth talking and act like they have all the answers. This administration seems to be tossing out a lot of ill in only its first few months; these next years will be interesting.
Boy, I never seem to post anymore.
Life has become really busy; I have had an exam every week for the past…who knows how long. Finals week coming up, I hope I pass all my classes, especially calculus and physics.
I have not been feeling good as of late. I woke up feeling like I had a hangover, sucks because I didn’t drink the night before. I feel stressed, tired, and sick of a lot of things. Also I have not heard from a few buddies in a long time. *sigh*
I think someone in our collage left and committed suicide a week or two ago. Some of the people here, including I, and wondering whether we should pity him or be jealous of him. We were all stressed a few back but now I think we all are feeling better. I have an exam to do, a write up on the geologic hazards of the town I am living in, a worksheet due, and a lab; good thing I got other work out of the way. It’s been hard to go to sleep at midnight, I am finding myself up at 2, and for this weekend I wake up at 10, it’s a bummer. I just want to get these three weeks over with and…ok after that I got some moving and visiting to do but after that I am going to sleep a lot, unless I go to France soon (which is really nice).
Oh, in the week when we wanted to die we thought it would be cool for a war aganst China to happen or a large war so all three of us would join or make a PMC (private military company, mercanaries).
Better get back to work; good luck to you all out there.
Sorry for the latest post. I went fucking nuts trying to study my brains out and doing so much work. I am feeling better after the exam and making a two page geologic history report (from now to 1.7 billion years ago) in 3 hours. I just needed to blow off some steam...ok alot of steam. Family being a pain, friends being a pain and having tons of problems of their own, seven shitloads of collage work, very little me time, etc. I do like helping my friend with their problems but when you know several of them that have problems every single damn day and you caring about them it take one hell of a toll. I still try to help ether way.
I do hate "drama", I prefer unfeeling numbers. You know, life as a system and equation and not something to think about and worry about jack shit. I am not emo; right now I suppose I am in a “don’t give a fuck” mood
I got more work to do, essays and exams, but I am going to go play some games, drink, eat, and sleep for 10 hours. If you didn't know I neglected my body and mind health for a week to catch up with work.
To Jamo (sorry for singling you out) but I doubt the world would be different without me. It’s not like those "I wonder what life would be like without me" thing, I mean a lot of people don't exist and they probably wouldn't make any significant difference. I do also hate the thought of attention grabbing; probably had some because I posted but I didn't think anyone would read let alone comment. But in all seriousness it was really hard not to kill myself, I fought myself hard not to, like fighting gravity.
Oddly enough it was kind of like me standing next to the edge of a big drop; I always have the feeling of jumping off; as if gravity is pulling me off the cliff no matter how hard I try to resist. I could be afraid of heights or something, I just keep away from edges. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to be dead but it has gone from close to going insane and killing naturally to “bullet through my brain please, haha” (as in joking about killing myself but not really caring if I live or die; it’s a good thing)
I would like you all to forget of what happened recently.
In other news I think I did ok on the exam (60% maybe), I found out I had an essay due yesterday and spent from 9PM to 12 midnight trying to make the essay (it was due midnight and I got out of the exam at 9). Just 30 min ago (a few hours in this post) I found my car door was not completely closed, the door wasn’t locked. Not good, I hope the white stuff near the cup holders was coffee; I also hope nothing was stolen or put into the car or anything. Oh and my car battery is dead. I have grown more in body mass; being I am bigger and consisting of only 7% fat (in the athlete range).
I remember that while ago I would post more. 3 months or more later I post again. Well I am depressed and in pain, thats the jist of it. I am currently confused on whether I am wanting to kill others or myself. Alot of internal things and external things are troubling me; I suppose I am glad no one is really on the old otaku anymore so they cannot see this, but what the fuck lets talk. I was having a very hard time trying to prevent myself from killing myself; one very powerful urdge, stronger than hunger, thurst, sex.
I really think I am going to fail my next exam; I know nothing about it. I am also conflicting on the solution to loveless life. I wish I had a final solution this this trouble of life. So many problems would be fixed by killing vast amounts of people; does this make it a good deed to kill or bad. Killing people to save other people or things is good but killing is also bad. It dosn't matter in the end; everything that was and ever will be will turn to nothingness. What difference would it be to proporgate the human race or set it aflame; everything will return to zero. God has never existed in me, only the demon that is myself. Hollow.
Maybe I will be given kindness and return to my carefree shortsited self. I should return to studying; see you next forever.
I am sorry. I totally forgot about this place, sad in a way. Anyways Last week I had two exams and the week before I had another exam; I have just been packed. I am on my final day of my 4 day weekend, it went too fast. T_T
I went snowboarding yesterday; had fun until I landed on my head pretty hard. I didn’t see stars but for the past hour or two of snowboarding I had a massive headache and had a poor sense of reality. I feel a lot better now but my body feels achy from snowboarding. The reality thing was freaky because I hate not having a sense of reality; it made it even odder when I went to http://www.cracked.com/ and saw the 9 Real Life Mad Scientists which the last two freaked the fuck out of me, especially the second one. Don’t go to that topic if you get freaked out easily.
My birthday is coming up on the 23 of this month. Going to be 20 years old. Man, I feel old. -_-
I have been studying hard over the past few weeks. Got an 88 on my phys exam and a 76 on my earth exam (made a mistake, could have gotten an 80 or something); I am dreading the results of my Calc II exam.
Just thought I could mix up the videos with one of these.
Its late at night so night.
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Done anything exciting as of late?
Wow, its been awhile. To tell you the truth I completly forgot about this. The short of it is that I have been really really busy. I will more more later.
It is Saturday; what a pleasant day to live life. You are resting from the hectic week and and not worrying about the week ahead (usually).
Today (or now yesterday) I went down to the city of Golden to get my bike fixed; had a lot of work to do on it so I had several hours to kill and not the will to go back up that hill twice. Golden is a town about .8 miles away from my apartment and about half a mile below my apartment altitude wise. Walking around the town several times I had a pretty good time. Some people from my collage were there serving hot chocolate which tasted pretty good, just LOVED the marshmallows. Later I found this little pizza place and ordered a small pizza, I got an entire full pizza. 0_o I was able to eat all of it but it stuffed me well. (I could still function properly though) I was going to see the movie “Underworld: Rise of the Lycans” to kill some time but I have no time because the next one was in a few min and the next one would finish after my bike would be fixed and probably when the shop closed. I traveled abit more and found this art museum, I think it was closed but it still had some art I could see outside which looked really nice. Upon seeing the barber shop I pondered on if I should cut my hair; I have been meaning to for some time but the problem is that I have grown very accustom to my long thick hair and would feel somewhat sad about cutting it. I then later came across this ice cream shop and decided to partake; I got a malt and it tasted really good. This made me contemplate on all the eating making me fat because I do believe I am somewhat fat or growing, even though I am somewhat thin. I went back to the bike shop to find it is almost done early so I waited next door in a coffee shop.
Later I went to the movie “Underworld: Rise of the Lycans”; I thought it was a really good movie. Need to be 18 or older to see it. Yay werewolves. :3
I’ll think up other things to say another day.
PS: thanks for the 4 comments. ^^
PSS: New VG Cats comic up. Its about the loss of zombies in the Dead Rising Wii version.
Here is a random video for your pleasure.
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What is your fav. Anime?
I have been trying to pre study for the past few days; no luck. I wanted to test a game and got completely taken into it (played it all day). And yesterday I had a mini party with my friends, alcohol included (rum and coke ^_^, and something else T_T). We watched Fight club and played Halo 3 and rock band. I was kinda…really drunk; but I could walk, talk, kick ass on Halo (ish), and 90% on Rock band.
Last last night I stayed up all night and didn’t eat the next day, so I am feeling pretty out of wack.
Going snowboarding again today. I hope to have fun and not feel so much pain.
I am having mixed feelings about a lot of things. There are so many things to say but not much to say it with… I do feel, I am not sure. I suppose I need a good nights sleep.
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Well, I am back. I got back from my Mother’s house and am not back home in Colorado. But when I post this I will be home. I feel as if a spear head in stuck right threw my chest, feels true my pain and by pressure.
Read all 4 Twilight books. I was not too much of a fan of what happened to someone in the 4th and how they seem so “perfect” now. *rolls eyes*
Watched The Soup; good show. It is interesting how they show how Tyra tries to focus everything onto herself.
I think that is has been a long time, so I should tell you about myself. I hope that a good few people see; I miss the days of 16 comments, but if its 5 then I will be very happy.
I am 19 years old white male. I soon will be 20 and it does make me feel odd how I will have spent 1/5 of my life. I am 5’ 10”, 150 lbs, dark brown hair, dark blue eyes with abit of yellow, glasses, currently have long hair (for a guy) and facial hair but I might change. I also have a few scars, the most noticeable are over my eye, on my shoulder, and a medium to large sized x on my chest. I am somewhat muscular (I think I can lift 250 lbs) and have very little fat, I want to get more muscle and less fat as time passes.
Parents are divorced and they have done the he said she said thing on me. Born in Alaska and moved from there to Texas to Trinidad (Caribbean island) back to Texas and to Colorado for collage. My father is doing well with money but I want to get a good job to make money so I don’t have to worry about money; I went to Rome once. Feel deeply in love with someone on here…god…I don’t know how much one person can love another but…I loved her a lot. I would jump off a bridge for her if it would save her; but we split up. I have not talked to her for awhile because…I changed while talking to her and said really bad things.
I have had my first kiss but never…yah; I feel bad and good about not having that happen. I love animals but am not as loving towards humans. I love wolves. I am shy but I like to be around people I know. I am a republican; don’t like liberals, mainly the loud mouth ones that try to force themselves on others. I love to learn but I don’t like learning from school. I believe I am a bad person; I also feel as though I have an evil part of myself in myself, that’s what I was talking about with the end of the last paragraph.
I think I have said enough about that.
Things I have done recently. I went to a place with wolves and was able to pet a wolf, she was really nice and soft, very shy though. I went snowboarding; it was fun but the pain afterwards was…well…painful. Visited Father’s house and mother’s house for Christmas and new years; had a nice time.
I have seen several movies over the holidays: Eagle eye, Valcary, Marlie & Me; I think that is it.
Eagle eye was good; it is like the terminator mixed with Die hard 4. I am not too big on Shiela Buff movies but my mom really liked it.
Valcary was a good movie; I take away from its points because Tom Cruse is in it and it was weird to see him in the movie; I add points because of the historical value. (PS: I love the uniforms)
Marlie & Me is a great movie; it was funny, cute, and realistic. If you are going to see it then have a tissue in it because it is a tear jerker, especially if you every had a dog or pet.
Benjamin Button was a really good movie, my mother loved it. It is a mature-ish movie so if you are young then you should go with a parent.
Looking back on old images and old things on my computer…I miss the old days. What I would give to go back to 2006. Old life, old friends, old l…well, the old die and the new days come. I remember coming home to listen to other’s lives, help them, and have them comment on my life and what I wrote. I remember the person I had feelings for…the times…so…odd…
Wolftrest, I am sorry.
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