Thursday, July 27, 2006

   Wow.

Time: 10:02PM. Mood: Lonely. Tired. Song: None. TV show: Pimp My Ride. *sigh* Soo... i talked to Jeremy. i guess we rr gunna wait until the school year comes along. That way we will see each other a lot and not have to worry about anything. it hurt a lot. a lot a lot. Because i loved him. i still do. he knows that. i know that. everyone knows that. i feel sick. blahh. i wanna be with him again... but i guess the only diff now is that we don't have "i love you" online. *sigh* once again. i miss him. oh well. my choice. i am not gunna cry. at least... i am gunna try not to. haha i told my friend that online and she is like, "...BE STRONG" Silly Erica! But me and Jeremy rr gunna be friends with hearts ((lol)) until then. Hmm. Anywhooo... about my day. I have to talk to Mike and Chad... and have our volleyball game TOMORROW now. Urghhness. And today we all threw Lauren a surprise birthday party. It was kinda fun. This Kaylee girl was there... and I can't stand her at all! Everyone had a water balloon war. when we chose teams, Me and Rica were on the guys' team, as always, and Kaylee was on the other team. I hit her... a LOT. Like I did at Tori's birthday party. it was amazing. Kaylee has caused soo many problems with me and Mike... soo... why not his her with many water balloons... yaa know? I kinda wanna go against her in volleyball, too. Spike the ball at her. Sorry if i sound mean, she has put me through a LOT! Urgh to her. Then Rica had to go to her volleyball game, so Tom ((my mom's bf)) took me and his daughter, Moe, jet skiing. Which was a TON of fun, as always =) But for some reason, while we were on the lake, I kept thinking about pirates. In general. It was odd? But last Halloween... I wanted to be a pirate, but i wasn't. I was a werewolf instead. Teehee. But this year, I am deff gunna be a pirate. Woot woot. Though, i did love my werewolf costume! =) So... i guess today was pretty fun! I am soo freaking tired right now though. I dunno why, But i have beenm getting tired earlier and earlier. Which really sucks humongous time. Urghh. I will check everyone's sites tomorrow the best i can... i am kinda blahh. good night && much love ¢¨úDarkheart*, What anime picture/ music video do you wanna see on here next???

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So everyone understands...

Time: 12:41PM. Mood: Bored. Excited. Song: None. TV show: None. Okay. I feel like I need to explain this to everyone as much as to myself. I'm in love with Jeremy... we rrnt going out... we rr together. We did go out though... From November to April. Anywhoo... During that time... he cheated on me twice, both with his xgf whom he "hates" now. Ahaha. And... I never did anything about it. I never got jealous or anything. I dunno. Sometimes I just don't get jealous. So while we rr going out... I become friends with Jon. ((he is one of my bffs now)) and Jeremy got wicked jealous. Then he and Jon started to HATE each other because Jon started to like me and that was gross because... it just was. Ask Silverdragongirl. So in April, Jeremy said he needed to talk about stuff with me and we decided to break up. It was all well and good... but then it got freaakyy. He stalked me to the bowling ally when I went with Jon and Doofus ((i purposely went to get away from talking to him online)). And it pissed me off and he was like all over me and I was just like... crying and URGHH. So later that night, I talked to him about it online. And he said that he thought I wanted him there. jgflkahbgf. Retard. No I didn't. So like in May, he got "together". Though... I don't see how we can be "together" when we NEVER see each other. What makes everything worse is when he lies to me. Within the last month... he forgot to call me 4 times. And then when I asked him why he didn't... he gets mad at me. And it made me mad. So then he got mad at me for always being mad at I was like "well... LOOK WHOSE FAULT iT FREAKiNG iS!" He always seems to PiSS ME OFF at the worst moments. Then for July 4th, there was a huge firework thing where I live. I couldn't go because I was at my mom's bf's house and hanging out with Rica. Jeremy went... with 7 other girls... I wasn't jealous... but I realized that I didn't trust him with all of them. Then the night before I went to Cornell for vball camp... He was talking to his friend's friend from Texas. And all he did online and on the phone was talk about her. On myspace they commented each other a zillion times... I am lucky if he comments me twice a month. And in his livejournal... he talks about how great it was going out with Kelsey and Julia... and he asked me to read it. There is a downer. And all he does is complain about me and everything about me. Yet, he calls me "perfect" ... and I hate when he does because I'm not, and no one is... Urghh. He even lied about cheating on me. Rica talked to him online and she is like... "have you dont anything bad... lying? cheating?" and he is like "no. I've never cheated on her". And she is like "So you rr a liar and a cheater?" It was great. Ahaa. But he gets mad at me when I am not online all the time. It's like... i HAVE A LiFE. I am online a lot... but mostly at night because during the day, I am busy. So we've gotten into many arguements about that. And we fight constantly about one thing or another. What really hurt was when I told him something I didn't want anyone else to know... and he told the person, his best friend, that I didn't want to know most. I told him that, too. And he told Aaron anyways. =( So why do I love him? ¢¨úDarkheart*,

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Blahhness.

Time: 2:28AM. Mood: Tired. Song: None. TV show: Futurama. Argh. I am soo tired. Nuthing much happened today. We never played volleyball because Mike was being an asshole... ((he seems to be that a lot, doesn't he?)) ... so Me, Danielle and Lauren hung out. And then Tori came over. Then me, C-boy, Bryan and my Mom went to the lake to swim. And me, Tom, Moe, C-boy and my Mom went to see POTC2. It was my second time. I love that movie soo much. Anywhoo... yepp. I'm gunna have people put their votes for music vids/ pictures/ whatever in their comments. I got bored of the clickie thing. Lol. I get bored easily, I guess. I'm "together" with this Jeremy duude. And I love him a lot... but I dunno. Things don't seem too great between us... considering we NEVER see each other because of his religion... which sucks huge time. So I dunno. And I have tried to talk to him about it many times, but he thinks we rr great and he won't listen to me! URGH. What is up with people not listenig to me? Tomorrow... well I guess later today... me and Rica rr gunna go against Chad and Mike. FOR SHURE THiS TiME. And we, hopefully, rr gunna win. Because neither of us wanna try hard. Ahaha. If i say that to Mike, he will say I suck at volleyball and I will get even more pissed off at him... which won't be anything new. I will post something up later today. Good night everyone!! ¢¨úDarkheart*,

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

   Today =)

Time: 10:42AM. Mood: Hyper. Hungry. Song: Take it all Away - Faktion. TV show: None. Yea so me and Mike rr hanging out today. Then we rr gunna have a volleyball game... Me&&Danielle vs. Mike&&Chad. This should be interesting because Mike and Chad beat us twice. They think it was 3 times but the first time, they cheated. Too many carries in too short a time if you ask me. Soo the second time, Me and Danielle let them win because we didn't wanna play in the first place. And then third time, we played rock paper scissors to see which side we got and me and Danielle got the good side and Mike and Chad kept on complaining... Actually... MiKE DiD BECAUSE HE iS A LOSER! Ughh. So we had to switch and Me and Danielle got bored because Mike kept saying they were better so we let them win again. Today I am showing NO MERCY. Mike is freaking going down. ((You seriously have no clue how bad I wanna spike the volleyball in his face))! URGH! Hahah. Soo... I watched InuYasha last night. I missed a few of the episodes because of volleyball and we don't have cable at home, so I was a little lost but I knew what was going on. I'm sad the season is almost over. The episode was really good though. I can't wait until next Tuesday =) EEK! I wanna know what is gunna happen like really bad! I'm pretty hungry. I wanna eat haha. Well... I am gunna go and post LATERR tonight. Vote on which anime music video you want to see! Muchlovee. . . ¢¾Darkheart*, THiS iS WHAT EVERYONE VOTED ON. I used a song by Armor for Sleep because I think it went well with the video. Another Hellsing video for wolf37841 =) You should all check is site out. It is pretty awesomeee.

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

   Urggggh.

Time: 11:42PM. Mood: Annoyed. Song: None. TV show: Family Guy. yea so my friend, Mike, ditched me today and it is kinda pissing me off. We planned on hanging out and he has my cellnumber and everything. Look at our convo online... and tell me if I got out of hand or not...-- Mike: heyy Me: yo Mike: wutz popin Me: Nuthing much. you? Mike: same jus chillin and listning to music Me: Sweet Me: I didnt see you today . . . Mike: so u noticed Me: No shit. Where were you? Mike: around Me: Oh. If you didn't wanna hang out with me, You could have told me last night. Mike: i figured u didn't care Me: oh. Me: It's okay. me Danielle and Lauren hung out because you didnt wanna. Mike: i figured that u didn't care if i came cause u usuall don't Me: you never come over. Mike: cause i figure u don't care cause u proly got more important shit to do than hang out wid me Me: like sit around alone?! Yes. Me: That's what I love to do. Me: It's my hobby. Mike: well i figure u would rather talk to jeremy cause u kno he makes u feel so great Me: I barely talk to him! I'm usually outside or playing ps2... or sitting around here... ALONE. Mike: o Me: Exactly. Mike: well thats wut i thought u do Me: well you could have told me instead of ditching me Mike: sry i was kinda busy Mike: like i went skateing LIKE I SAID I WAS then i had to mow a lawn wid tim cause we have a busniss then skated more then hung out at 1 of the ppl i skated wid houses then hung out wid chad Me: it's okay. you didnt hang out with me all winter. Im used to it. Mike: I TOLD U I THOUGHT U DIDN'T WANT TO HANG OUT WID Mike: ME Mike: U DIDN'T MAKE AN EFFORT 4 US TO HANG OUT EITHER Me: m. Mike signed off at 11:42:32 PM. All winter he ditched me because I was with Jeremy. Urgh. Everything always goes wrong. His sister is one of my best friends, too. Though... she will stay my friend, I know that much, but Mike still likes me from last summer... and i DON'T KNOW. URGHH. Now he is back online... hmm. I'm trying to talk to him. Anywhoo... Today was good. it thundered and POURED out while me and Mom were playing volleyball... so we kept on playing. Then my brother got caught in the second downpour. And it is supposed to rain all week which SUCKS. And we lost POWER. That is why this was posted so late. Sorry. Talk to ya'll tomorrow. GoodNight . . . <3Darkheart*, THiS iS WHAT EVERYONE VOTED ON. And this is a special video for wolf37841 =) Check out his site. It's wicked awesome.

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Monday, July 24, 2006

   HELLO =)

Time: 10:40PM. Mood: Hyper. Song: None. TV show: Futurama. Heyy everyone. Wow. This is kinda late to be putting this up. But I had to lol. I went to the camp as a commuter and I didn't like it. Some of the girls thought they were amazing and they weren't so they got bitchy. And the courts hurt and I could keep on listing things about it lol. Anywhoo... I am in a better mood now and will most likely explain more tomorrow. Right now I am kind ahyper/lazy/watching TV. =) woot woot! Soo vote on what anime music video you wanna see tomorrow!! Good night everyone and much lovee<3. <3Darkheart*, THiS iS WHAT EVERYONE VOTED ON.

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

Hello Everyone!

Time: 9:53AM. Mood: Tired. Sick. Annoyed. Lazy. Song: Paperthin Hymn - Anberlin. GOOD MORNiNG! At least... it is morning where I am. =) Well... last night I had a dream about... uhm... this next volleyball camp I am going to ((tomorrow)). I woke up feeling sick and I still feel REALLY sick. Which isn't kool. I really don't wanna go. But last night... I went with Doofus, Amez and Alien ((nicknames lol)) to a DD game. It was pretty fun. I saw my cousin there and a lot of my other friends. But my one friend, Alien, cannot take a fucking joke and it gets annoying. She punches me for every joke I make and I am seriously pissed off. She is lucky I have some self-control because I could beat her ass. Doofus had to hold me back from punching her once. Ugh. Her punches don't hurt because... I dunno... They don't... but like... still. It annoys me. Wouldn't you be annoyed, too?! UGH! And tonight, I think I might go and see Lady in the Water with my friend, Danielle, but I'm not shure yet. It is my last night with my Mom before I go to camp and I get homesick. Blahh. So I will see how I feel because right now I am really sick. I feel extraordinarily lazy right now. I wanna watch TV or something but there is nothing good on. Super. Anywhoo... I am gunna go and eat something because I am starting to lose my appetite and I've gotten seriously sick from that before... hmm. I'm gunna post something later tonight most likely. or wicked early tomorrow morning. I am gunna miss everyone here. Have fun next week. I will if the girls there rrnt bitches again. *cough* Seriously. But at least I am learning a lot about volleyball. <3Darkheart*, Click Here to get this from FreeFlashToys.com! Click Here to get this from FreeFlashToys.com!

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Friday, July 21, 2006

I'm Homeee.

Heyy everyone! What's up? Nuthing much is going on here. I came inside from playing volleyball a little while ago. Now I am listening to music =) hehe yay! Anywhoo... Volleyball camp was fun. Sometimes. Actually... the majority of the time, I hated it. I mean, I love volleyball... but some of the people were kinda really rude and I accidentally hit one of them in the face when I served the volleyball... which made me laugh. A lot. But the whole practicing part was really fun. I learned a lot and now I have a freaking six pack. Lol. It's kinda funny, in a way. But on Sunday, I have to go to a camp in Seneca Falls. Hmm. It's gunna be five days again. But a lot more work. Superrr. I kinda wanna go, but at the same time, I really don't wanna. Ahaha. Uhm... Hmm... I will most likely put another post up later because I have nothing else to say right now. Muchlove ¢¾Darkheart*,

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

   Volleyball Camp.

Omgg. I think I am gunna start using this again. Teehee. Woot woot. Well tomorrow... I am going to volleyball camo until Thursday. The camp is in Cornell and it is gunna be wicked hard. =) I am exctied and nervous, though. EEK! I'll comment back ne one who comments me. muchlove ~Darkheart

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Saturday, April 29, 2006

Blahh

Hey... havent been here in a while. So... anything new? Im in New Jersey for the weekend. How exciting. I dont know what to write. umm... <333bye

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