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Sunday, May 15, 2005


   another poem and something good!!!! ^^
Image hosted by Photobucket.com hey you guys! here is another poem from me and jess ok?

I’m trapped inside something I cannot be
But people don’t even help
My misery is crawling inside of me
I want to scream and shout

First, I thought I was in love
Turns out that it wasn’t true
Second, I got bored
Third, I hurt myself

And these scars don’t help much
Cause people find it weird and uncool
I look at them and tell them
‘How would you feel if you were me?’

Their eyes look at me
I know what they think
They think I’m crazy
Which isn’t true, I’m just being me

It kills to know that your best friend is scared of you
They think your gonna be gone the next day
So when you see them and smile
They get happy, but then crawl back into their darkness of knowing

Lonely is only a question of feeling and faith
Yet I don’t feel either
I don’t feel anything
I’m numb inside

Nobody can save me from what I feel
It’s my choice, I’m alone
Only to me is what I think
And if you tried, id forbid

But I found love the other day
It brought something I’ve never known
It gave me feeling
It gave me what other people have had

I still don’t think love is true until you find what you need
But this person is what makes me happy
Deep down inside, I don’t love them
I’m lying and he doesn’t know

He thinks I’m just like any other would think
So I sit there and take all this shit
I should be the one crawling into deep despair
Wondering if I’ll ever live

Don’t know how I do it
I’m still alive and I keep people from thinking other thoughts
But I still have my desire for death
I know I need help

So I’m giving it all away
Gotta stop. I don’t know how
Somebody try and help me
Before I die and go to hell.



but yeah there is that. anyways! im so happy right now! ^^ this moning/we thought it was still night i got my kiss! heh it was....words cannot describe it! im good....shuichi's soft lips against mine and our bodies entwined i was in heaven....i will never forget it! NEVER! but im not too sure shuichi enjoyed it though...didnt seem like it....but oh well i am now the happiest yuki ever and i so wish i could do it again! ^^; ok im gonna shut up about my love life now and let you guys uh...go? oh yeah we ended up staying in bed late this morning and we almost got caught! bol it was funny. so we ended up not going to daytona....but thats ok...cuz i can hang out here with my pet dogs and shuichi! lol well talk to you laters! loves byz!


yuki

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