Tuesday, October 18, 2005

   ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*bashes head repeatedly on the keyboard*

678t7uyt 7u6yt7u 7yitu7ytt *chord of d minor*

0.o;


wrong keyboard...


man im peeeeeeeededededded off. no one particular reason. several in fact.
ONE: my dad was in a strop for like three whole days, and when he gets moody, the whole family gets moody. personal reasons, im not going into it.

TWO: I applied for a job, went to the interview, didnt get it. ergo, still looking for a job.

THREE: mum is still buggin me to get a job. IM FREAKIN TRYING!! shes implying that i should go for a supermarket job if nothing comes up soon. NOT EVEN IF HELL FROZE OVER AND OPENED UP AN ICE RINK FOR THE LITTLE KIDDIES!!!!!!

FOUR: i have no money left. i am flat broke.

FIVE: Cadets is pissing me off again.

so ive taken to doing silly little things recently to take my mind off my stress.

I took a walk to Oxleas Woods on Sunday. It was nice. i pratically grew up in those woods, but i havnt been there in the last five or six years. It was quite nostalgic almost. And quite peaceful too. im gonna have to go back after its been raining for a bit, cuz i like Oxleas woods after the rain.
I also saw my old Primary school, the place i was "educated" from ages 5 to 11. the school backs onto the woods and there are a couple of trees that overhang the perimeter fence. I was half tempted to jump the fence and go and have a look, but thats trespassing, and i could technically get done for it, so i didnt. I also went and saw my old house too. its been a long time since i was there. not a huge amount has changed from what i can see though.

I've also taken up a bit of meditating too. a remarkable way of relaxing is thinking about all my friends (inc you guys)and taking a deep breath as i think about each one. Spending some time riding on Luna is a great way to be calm and realxed too.

ill be fine, i just really really need a job. argh!

ive uploaded more Chibi Darke onto deviantart. i will get round to posting it here soon.

till i see you guys next, ciao.


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Friday, October 7, 2005

blasted bumholes in the belfry.
dang it. i wanted to go and see "Howls Moving Castle" at the cinema, but it was at a cinema i dont normally go to, and i wasnt quite sure how to get there, and ended up on the wrong bus, ended up in the wrong place and missing the BLASTED MOVIE! >.< not too mention ive had a cold the past couple of days, so i been kinda down. but dont worry folks. I dont really regret being born. I just say things like that when im uber depressed and upset cuz i cant hurt anybody cuz id feel bad about it afterwards. so i say demeaning things about myself. I dont mean it, i just get moody sometimes.

besides, if i had never been born, i would have never met any of you wondeful people, or discovered the fantastically beautiful world of anime.

i picked up the first two volumes of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex for £7.99 EACH! THATS A FRICKIN BARGAIN!!! i like the lil Tachikoma's the best. they're so kawaii.

"Ta..kun...chi...oh..kah..ma...
tachikoma-kun!"
^^

yeah, so dont worry bout me folks. im still here. YOU WILL NEVER GET RID OF ME!! BWA-HA-HA!!!

ciao fer now...


Thought for the day: "Thats the last time i ask my brother-who-has-been-out-of-the-country-for-two-years which bus to get to the cinema." >.<


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Thursday, October 6, 2005

You live and learn. Then you die and forget it all...

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	i sahll be very mysterious and not tell you that my name is phil...
Birthday:	a looonnnngggg time ago.
Birthplace:	a hospital...i hope
Current Location:	in a library...tis a sexy library.
Eye Color:	brown, except when they're closed. then...who knows?
Hair Color:	brown. with flecks of blonde when i sunbathe...
Height:	too tall for j00 to comprehend!! bwa-ha-ha!!!
Right Handed or Left Handed:	i am a righty. not a wrongy, a righty.
Your Heritage:	In the beginning...blah blah blah et voila.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	the same ones i wore yesterday.
Your Weakness:	have you got two years? then ill begin...
Your Fears:	i ph34r nothing but rabies. and porn. and deadly diseases. and...
Your Perfect Pizza:	pepperoni topped with pepperoni with pepperoni and pepperoni.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	getting up before 10AM
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	brb (i go away alot)
Thoughts First Waking Up:	what time is it? 7:30? back to sleep...
Your Best Physical Feature:	my ass. no not really.
Your Bedtime:	normally about 1AM, but varies.
Your Most Missed Memory:	how would i know if im missing it?
Pepsi or Coke:	coke (but pepsi with pizza)
MacDonalds or Burger King:	the king all the way
Single or Group Dates:	how the hell would i know? ive never got that far
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	proppa british cuppa if you dont mind. milk, two sugars.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate. na klar.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	yuk.
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	like a US Marine Sargeant
Do you Sing:	only when im not asleep
Do you Shower Daily:	no. ph34r my 573nch
Have you Been in Love:	probably. i forget.
Do you want to go to College:	no.
Do you want to get Married:	no
Do you belive in yourself:	no. im not real. no one is real. LIFE IS BUT A DREAM!!!!
Do you get Motion Sickness:	only when im moving...
Do you think you are Attractive:	im not attracted to myself if thats what you are asking...
Are you a Health Freak:	hell no
Do you get along with your Parents:	on occasion. we like to celebrate when we do...
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yeah. lightning is soo cool.
Do you play an Instrument:	yah. trumpet and harmonica (kinda)
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	um...i dont think i have. DEAR GOD WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!
In the past month have you Smoked:	i dont smoke numbnuts
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	other then my rabies jabs. ^^
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nuu! T.T
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	we call em shopping centres and yes i have.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	uh, no.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	noo
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nooo
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	noooo
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nooooo
Ever been Drunk:	noooooo
Ever been called a Tease:	<< ...>>...me?
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	in a blaze of glory on an adrenaline rush.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	bigger
What country would you most like to Visit:	Japan. (doi)
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	green. or blue. or brown. or grey. or red. i aint picky
Favourite Hair Color:	see above
Short or Long Hair:	longer
Height:	tall, but not as tall as me
Weight:	heavy enough not to float away
Best Clothing Style:	whatever
Number of Drugs I have taken:	like i keep a list...
Number of CDs I own:	tonnes
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	being born occaisonally
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

et voila
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Friday, September 30, 2005

depressed...
"I'm breaking my mother's heart

The longer I stand looking at you

The more I hear it splinter and crack

From ninety miles away

I'm breaking my mother's heart

The JCC of Spring Valley is shaking

And crumbling to the ground

And my grandfather's rolling

Rolling in his grave

If you had a tattoo, that wouldn't matter

If you had a shaved head, that would be cool

If you came from Spain or Japan

Or the back of a van

Just as long as you're not from Hebrew school

I'd say, 'Now I'm getting somewhere!

I'm finally breaking through!'

I'd say, 'Hey! Hey! Shiksa goddess!

I've been waiting for someone like you'

I've been waiting through Danica Schwartz and Erica Weiss

And the Handelman twins

I've been waiting through Heather Greenblatt, Annie Mincus, Karen Pincus and Lisa Katz

And Stacy Rosen, Ellen Kaplan, Julie Silber and Janie Stein

I've had Shabbas dinners on Friday nights

With every Shapiro in Washington Heights

But the minute I first met you

I could barely catch my breath

I've been standing for days with the phone in my hand

Like and idiot, scared to death

I've been wandering through the desert

I've been beaten, I've been hit

My people have suffered for thousands of years

And I don't give a shit!

If you had a pierced tongue, that wouldn't matter

If you once were in jail or you once were a man,

If your mother and your brother had 'relations' with each other

And your father was connected to the Gotti clan

I'd say, 'Well, nobody's perfect'

It's tragic but it's true

I'd say, 'Hey! Hey! Shiksa goddess!

I've been waiting for someone like...'

You, breaking the circle

You, taking the light

You, you are the story

I should write

I have to write!

If you drove an R.V., that wouldn't matter

If you like to drink blood, I think it's cute

If you've got a powerful connection to your firearm collection

I'd say, Draw a bead and shoot

I'm your Hebrew slave, at your service

Just tell me what to do

I say, 'Hey hey hey hey!

I've been waiting for someone

I've been praying for someone

I think that I could be in love with someone

Like You"


"Sjhiksa Goddess"(c) JRB


go and find stuff by "Jason Robert Brown. Listen. Enjoy.

im kinda depressed. stupid job hunting. weather is kinda crappy too. and all my friends have gone uni or college. >.<

my brother is also back home and living with us again. the first time in two years...well, no not strictly true, he did come home for xmas, but this time its more permenant..

enuff blabbering. if you wanna see the latest Chibi Darke stuff, its on my Deviantart page. i fuhgot to load it onto Photobuket, so i cant show it here. bleh.


toodles.




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Thursday, September 15, 2005

heh heh...havnt been on recently...gomen.
sorry guys, been kinda preoccupied at the mo. its bl00dy hard finding a job (one that i want to do at any rate)

and i have a buncha other stuff to worry about, so i have less and less time to go online, and when i do, its cuz i have to do other stuff.

sorry about me bitchin and complainin.

on the other hand, i have puicked up some more anime/and manga recently. most notably, i have completed my collection of cowboy bebop (yay) and started on a new manga called "Ecole Du Ciel", which is a new Gundam title. ^^


hmm...it be raining today. and we're in the middle of a petrol crisis. fun n games in the lil island of the european coast eh?

whatever. this is what you really came to see wasnt it:



enjoy f00l5
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Sunday, September 4, 2005

where in the heck is everyone?
eh. oh well. i guess it doesnt help i only update at night and then it disappears on the update lists a few hours later.

how is everyone? im fine meself.

i went to see the cave with my friend Rhian the other day. movie was ok i guess. i enjoyed myself though. we had a pub lunch and chatted bout stuff.

i gotta go find a job this week. darn. but anime costs money and i have none, so...

check out my new intro! w00t. new bg pic too. ^^

Thoughts and Prayers go out to all those affected by Hurricane Katrina. If you have been affected at all, my thoughts are with you.

and now, finally, after a short break away we have the return of...

well, you know who...





hes back. and hes taking no prisoners. why should he? hes not a soldier or a cop or anything...

if you missed my photoblog, its still here! just look down.

toodles mein freunds.
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Monday, August 29, 2005

IM BAAACCCCKKKKKKKKKUUUUHHHHH!!!
yesh, im back in sunny (sorta) England. and may i say its great to be back? I cant? oh well.

so you know what this means dont you?

DARKEANGEL PHOTO BLOG!!!! (btw, "Darke" is pronounced "dark" in case anyone was wondering. ^^ *points accusing finger at tennessee*)

working from west to east, we start off in LA...well, technically this bit is Nevada, but its close.



this is the desert. int it fantastic? frankly i find it worrying that one of the words greatest superpowers is made up of mostly dirt.



these are the dancing fountains outside some casino in Vegas. Every 15 mins they play music and the fountains do a dance. and its different every time! how do i know? I watched 3 of em. ^^



This is the Harley Davidson Cafe on "The Strip" in Vegas. Its a lil pricey, but if you like Motorbikes, this is a cool place. We (my brother an I)bought souvenir mugs there. ^^

when we got back from Vegas we decided to go to the beach. This is what i drew in the sand

its kinda squif, but its one of my characters from one of my stories. I actually drew the whole ody, but my camera couldnt capture it effectivly from ground level.

we also went to Hollywood

the famous Chinese theatre where most films premire



R2-D2's footprints outside the theatre. Why? Cuz i am a nerd.

The following was taken o the avenue of the stars, where they have famous people's names on the sidewalk.



most of you have probably never heard of Bob Hope, but hes appeared in many films (hes dead now) and he comes from my home town of Eltham. yes, hes English. so there. ^^

and of course:

you cant go there without a picture of the famous Hollywood sign. ^^

We also went to Disneyland California. Which i mentioned in my last post. which only three people commented on. oh well. ne hoo, i bought myself this hat:

Cuz a man needs a pimpin hat. hell yeah. ^^

Moving swiftly eastwards (we also went to universal studios, but i have no photos of that)
we arrive in tennessee.
why tennessee? Because of this person:

AND this person:


Who are they? Our very own Cee-kari and Flueky respectivley!! Once again, Thanks a billion guys for having me and feeding me!

Here is a group photo:

Left to right is Mitzy, Cee-kari, Flueky and Myself. Mindy, we know what you did in the lake and where you live. You cant hide forever.

Fast track to new york...well, home actually. I dont have any pics of New York (other than an air museum, but you guys dont wanna see that) so instead, heres the end result of too much time in New York with a credit card:



a shelf with no space whatsoever left on it and enough manga to fill a camera on its widest setting. i have waaay to much manga. ^^;;;;;;;;;

so thats it guys. My holiday in a nutshell. or america. ^^

oh, one other thing, I mangaed to pick up a Brush pen whilst in LA!! which means i can do decent Chibi Darke Strips again!! and i have the time to do it cuz I dont go school no more!!! woo!!!

see ya guys later!!
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Friday, August 26, 2005

   at the risk of sounding like a lil kid...
Disneyland was awesome!!! seriously, i had the best time ever there. all the shows and rides were fantastic. The Hollywood tower of terror really got my heart pumping, but for sheer adrenaline rush, the new and improved Space Mountain took the cake. ^^ The whole magic of the place swept me away. i guess because i watch a lot of anime, i felt really in touch with my inner child, the lil guy who longs to be the hero and have great adventures. My brother really got into it too, and he's 21. ^^; i have to admit though, whilst watching the parade and the character Alice waved to us, we felt a bit lost, not sure whether to wave back or hide behind our cameras.

we hid. ^^;;;

i bought me an awesome hat too. a Mad Hatter Hat. its sw33t.

today we went to Universal Studios, which was cool too. Shrek 4D and the Back to the Future ride were my favs but the other shows were cool too.

and now i have to go home. T.T i dont wanna go home. it means i have to work and stuff. dang it! oh well. i guess i gotta get all this anime i bought out here home. ^^;;

have a fantasmic time whatever you guys are doing. heres a lil pic of me (on the left) and my bro on the new Buzz Lightyear Astro Blasters ride...


just check out our expressions!! LOL
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

   VIVA LAS VEGAS!!!
w00t. i had an awesome time in Vegas. me and my bro drove down there on the sunday, spent the night and came back yesterday. there is a hella lotta desert between LA and LV but it had its own kinda beauty. me and my bro got through a lot of CDs. and a lotta gas. ^^; seriously though, whats the big hoo-ha about gas prices here anyway? we paid $30 to fill up the car. in engalnd, the same amount of gas would cost us closer to $50. you guys have got it good. your problem is that you drive big fsking SUVs that guzzle gas and you use em to drive two minutes down the road everyday. jeez.

ne hoo, Vegas was awesome. we did a lil gambling (tho im technically underage) and i won $4 and 25 cents (tho it took me $5 to do it so i made a loss of 75c) and i also won a few dollars in the hotel we stayed in. The hotel was abit of a dive, but at 20 dollars for the both of us for one night, i guess i cant complain.
We watched the fountains dancing to music outside the Belagio hotel/casino, which is really immpresive, and we ate at the Harley Davidson Cafe, which is really cool.
when we got back today we went to the beach. I drew one of my characters in the sand, giant sized. ^^
tomorrow we're gonna go disneyland and we're also hoping to get to Universal Studios this week to before i have to go home.
its almost over. gonna have to go home soon (pay the bills >.< )
but ive been to Hollywood and Vegas, gonna go Disney and Universal. what more could you ask for in a holiday?

ne hoo, you guys have fun. ill try and post once more before i go home. later peeps.
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Friday, August 19, 2005

   MINDY GROPED THE POPE!!!
LOL and we wont let her forget it either. Poor Mitzy. ^^

The last days in tennessee where absolutley fantastic, with the last day spent on the lake. brilliant. Oh, i also spent the night at ambers the last time i posted too. On her couch...and got woke up by the ever psychotic Bullet (the dog) who was licking my armpit! oh well, poor dog. ^^

Im really missing Cee kari, Flukey and Mitzy tho. It was a fantastic week. as they say "time spent with friends is time well spent" and i whole heartedly agree. Im gonna have to get go back someday. Perhaps when you girls graduate huh? stay in touch.

the flight over to LA was lame, but tolerable. and LA is fantastic. Ive spent the last couple of days in the sun...and got a little sunburnt ^^; we're also planning to get rent a car (my brother and I) and go and see the sights and mebbe even go to LAS VEGAS BABY!! YEAH!

*sigh* i dont really wanna go home at the end of all this, but i need to find a job and start to work off the expenses of this holiday, and raise money for malaysia and stuff. BUT, thats for when i get home. fer now, i am enjoying life to the full. ^^

my exam results actually are released today. My A Level results. However, i told my parents not to tell me what they are. Ill found out when I get back (in a week or two) and ill tell you guys. Im hoping to get at least Bs in all three subjects, but ill be happy with a C in music tech too. as long as i did better than last year.

Ne hoo, thats the latest American Adventure update.
see ya next time.

signed
The Pope
(long story, but gives you a insight into the title)
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