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Monday, February 28, 2005

I have some stuff I get to get out of my head.

I am now 100% sue that I have feelings for this boy. And because of that I have never been so afraid of anything in my life. I am still trying to figure out when this happened and why I've been so oblivious about it until now. I can seriously see my self falling in love with this boy and I really don't want this to happen. First of all is the distace. He is currently studying in Maryland which is approximately 900 miles from where I am in Nassau. This is torture for me because there is nothing I want more than to bee able to look at his face and reach out and touch him. This is all very new for me cause I can't remember feeling like this before.

Another problem is with me not wanting to be hurt. With the knowledge that I could possibly fall in love with this boy, I'm scared that if he leaves me I wouldn't be able to get over that. My emotions are very strong and control me. Do I really want to lose the control I sought to achieve all of these years?

The next problem is that I don't think I can make him happy.

I can't tell him these things. The only thing I do is push him away from me and I realy don't want to. But I have to protect me and him. I had no plans to fall for him and now that I have I don't know how to tell him or if I ever should. I'm frustrated to know that I feel this way and I'm confused cause I don't know what to do. I'm a wreck!!!!
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