I feel like I want to type, but I don’t know what to say. I’m too emotionally drained to put it into words well. I just want to belong, to feel like I’m worth something in my daily life. I want to feel like I contribute, at least a little bit, to the happiness of the people around me. I’m not even asking for my own happiness right now, just as long as I can feel worth something. A friendly smile, or simple answer to my comments. Instead of a stare like I’m the biggest asshole in the world for saying anything at all.We all need to be needed, right. And it’s a dreary thing indeed to feel not needed. And that’s how my past couple of days have been, dreary experiences. I don’t understand what it is about me, that people tend to come to the conclusion that I’m a waist of space. Who knows, maybe I am and I should just learn to accept it. Or maybe I just need to work a lot harder to show them I can do something to be proud of once in a while. I’m so tired of being useless. And I’m so tired of being cold.
It’s true what they say, no one can change your life for you, you have to do it for yourself. But what if you don’t have the means to do it? Gods, how I wish I did though.
