Thursday, November 18, 2010

my kiddliwinkz how are you all doing??? gonna go theatre later and watch the glass menagerie with school. am excite but i beg i dont get lost XD well i got internet on my phone so i best not or im officially a retard lmao. so anyway give me the gossip guys. nothing has happened to me but who knows what the weekend will have in store for me. love yuuz xxx
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Friday, November 5, 2010

WOOOOOP!!
it's bonfire/guy fawkes night tonight but i dunno if imma watch the fireworks lotsa my frends are going but i just wanna spend time with the family. aaaaaanyway can't wait for christmas. hopefully i'll get atleast one present. wanna by all my family pressies so i properly need to save up and then i can SHOP AGEEEN!! lol i realised how much i love online shopping cause i hate having to take off and put on clothes its far too stressful. anyway soz how this post is random and ewww i been posting in like three consecutive days lmao like the olden days huh haha anyway i g2g but i love you all sooooooo much. all the best my babies xxxx
~CHU
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Thursday, November 4, 2010

IT'S NATIONAL SAUSAGE WEEEEEEK!!!
lmao only found about that today. didn't go school cause i couldn't be asked so i got nothing to complain about =[ love yuuz all especially you know who MWAH! toodles xxx
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Hi CHILDREN!! am feeling ill but that don't matter sooooo how are you all. that song ' Like a G6' is aaaawesome lol i soo feel like dropping outta school. i just feel its my place and it aint like i'm academic or anything. but i know imma regreat it. but i got this year then another and i dont even know if i want to go uni. i doubt it though. i tell you if i had more money i would be round the world by now. anyway tell me how you all are and hope to hear from you soon. Much love but especially to BritLaw, The Fuz and Faroe. You guys are the greatest =] xxx
~CHU
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Monday, November 1, 2010

HIYA!!! how was all of youz halloween weekend. mine was okay. very tiring though. saturday i went anime convention which was nice got pocky =] and then sunday i went trick o' treating. i know its mad. ME! who is 17! lol but it was fun though sooo give me the gossip and i hope all of you are doing great anyway i g2g eat my treats haha xxx
~CHU
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Thursday, October 28, 2010

hiya children
well i'm official a freak as i like hannah montana and iyaz's song. but yeah realised that i act like a 14 year old despite than im gonna be LEGAL!!! next birthday. i can't wait. making sure that all my mates have 18th birthday parties and that. eeeek except i gotta stay on an extra year so my maties will be leaving me ToT but hopefully i'll stay in contact. well life ain't to good atm but whatever i don't care anymore sooo tell me what's up with you all and post all dammit =P love yaz xxx
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Friday, October 15, 2010

Hey my babies!!!
hi my children how are you all doing? i'm very well. am in a good mood but have a belly ache. i have a lot to think about like for my future and everything but i dunno what to do. how i wish i good just peek into the future and atleast see that i'm happy and settled then i really wouldn't find it so hard to live. have been depressed lately but i think it's more stress related then having confidence issues. i'm convinced one of my media teachers is out to get me cause she proper came into my class and asked it i stole a camera. not saying it out like that but STILL! so yeah i'm having a hard time lately. hope it gets better soon. anyway i love you guys and i hope you're doing better than i am lmao xxx
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Friday, October 8, 2010

heya guys howa you all doing? i'm alright i guess. have made some really bad decisions lately. am really worried about my mental stability lately. dunno why but i don't think i'm normal. but yeah anyway i'm doing okay at school. am juggling a lot of subjects at the moment and have already had two break downs in the past month. can't tell no one though but if thats what it takes to pass my exams then so be it. so give me the gossip guys. anything special happened lately? love ya
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Saturday, September 11, 2010

Hey how you. it's poem time and they aint all too good as i did them right now off the top of my head so yeah...enjoy.

if i slipped away in a deep dark sleep
would you cry and lie with me
why cant we be the modern romeo and juliet
and die so peacefully


what it love truly
a fake and a fraud?
a lie to make others behave?
waiting as your life fades away
for the One to walk through the door
you can hope and you can fucking wish
but it's like believing in the lord your god
nothing can help you, take you out of the dark
you only got noone but yourself
so you don't believe me?
you'll learn soon enough
that there aint no reason to be alive
am i a depressing waste of space?
fuck yes to hell with me
but if you knew the shit i been through bitch
then maybe you'll be able to understand me
i believed in him, loved him so much
but as usual i was dropped like a stone
ignored, left alone, not a word from him
and now he wants to be my best pal


i cant express myself cause i have no words to tell
so i stick a fake smile on my face
it gets me by whilst strangers are around
but it starts when i'm all by myself
it stalks up to me holds me by the throat
torturing and tormenting me
there aint no getting out, escaping myself
i'm too afraid of who i'll become

when will i die? how will it be?
wishing that the time will come soon
cause nowadays i cant breath all to well
nurses think its nothing bad
but they dont know the pain that comes with
i cant breath in or i get stabbed by a pain
so should i just not breath at all
or should i just bear through all the hurt and pain


i've never had control of my life
so is there a point to start now
who knows what is right for me
i guess only the man upstairs.
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Thursday, August 26, 2010

hey howa you all? have pretty much had a reality check today as i thought about all of the bad stuff that has happened to me and realised that i'm a well rounded person despite but the journey hasn't been easy so i want to thank you all for being there for me and i wish you all the best for the future xx
~CHU
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