Saturday, February 4, 2006
WARNING: I fixing to get all deep and sad... I'm feeling depressed at the moment...
After visiting Jangalian's site and looking at the pictures of boys kissing, I began to think about it and then I felt like I wanted to throw up... Not because I don't like it (I am gay...), but because I won't ever get to experience it before I leave high school... There are hardly any other gay people at my school (because I live in redneckville), I know of like two others... I wish I just had one person in the same situation as me, not even a boyfriend... Basically a lonely person and indifferent towards most things and a little cold on the inside...
I had a dream last night... It was odd... There was a new guy and he was so...appealing that I just kissed him, and he kissed back really well (I've never been kissed, obviously)... But later we were going to the mall and I decided to kiss him again, but this time he didn't kiss back... I said, "You're not gay are you...?" and he replied "No, I'm so sorry..." and it ended... I guess that is all I have to say... Sorry for being so deep... Bye...
Oh yeah... A pic: