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• ...got a poem published and nearly won an Essay contest...
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• um.. since I saw sailor moon.. pokemon.. and My Neighbor Totoro
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• do you really expect me to list them all.....fine.....Death Note, Yu-Gi-Oh, Naruto, Sukisyo, Gravitation, Loveless, Gakuen Heaven, Angel's Feather, InuYasha, FMA, anything yaoi, etc.....
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• To be a novelist and publish at least one book.. ^_^
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• Watching my slaves do dirty things....oh wait.....you didn't see that!!!!
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008
...I'm sorry...
These past couple days have been hell.. My mind is racing at a million mph, and I'm probably hurting my boyfriend every time I open my mouth. I don't know how many more nights I can take like this.. I haven't slept since Saturday.. And, I don't even know why.. I can't even register half of the thoughts that are running through my head.. It's killing me.. And, I know it's killing my boyfriend, too.. I'm the reason why he got down last night.. I'm just causing so many problems, and I don't know how to help it.. [I want to make time stop], but I can't.. {I want to make everything slow down..}, but I just can't.. I feel useless. I'm only hurting people.. I'm hurting the one that means the most to me.. I'm killing him with every word I say.. I'm worrying him like I never have before. I'm hurting like I haven't in months. I feel like I'm dying, and my heart hurts, my actual heart hurts. I don't know. I'm so scared. I don't want to hurt him; I don't want to lose him.. He's my life now; I can't live without him.. God, I don't know what to do.. I just don't know what to do.. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I'm hurting myself.. I just want everything to slow down again. I want to go back to where this started and redo it. I just feel so bad.. This is all my fault... I don't know.. I just don't know..
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