Sunday, January 6, 2008

hey
peeps my computer is dead as a door nail, the charger stopped working and I had to like let the battery die T_T.

I don't know when I'll be back but me loves you all
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Friday, December 28, 2007

   hello
please forgive my recent absence, a wife to be has alot of planning to do.
I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and spent some quality time with the family even though sometimes that isn't really easy.
I had a good Christmas it was small but it was the best i've had in years.
I'm and expecting grandmother( long story short I have a goat I am her mommy, she is pregnant supposed to give birth in a bit kay, kay)
so I may not be on myo as much as previously but I will not forget about the joy that is myotaku and will visit as often as I can.

I will do my best to get around to commenting when I can I swear on my fiancee's hand, good night, good day, have a wonderful day,


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Saturday, December 22, 2007

   Hello Everyone
This is me, be happy I show my picture XD





Christmas is just around the bend seems like it's getting sooner and sooner each year. Well for those that don't know yet I am engaged, and learning how to get better and not blaming myself for everything and stuff, but that's not for me to go into.


I wrote this for a friend of mine that lost her love lately and I didn't know how else to help
Tears streamed from the young girls eyes falling onto the wooden floor after her eyes read the words left on the paper. Her heart was racing not understanding why she thought they were strong enough to survive any and everything as long as they had each other.

“Marie…”

She turned her head seeing Lily in the door, she opened her mouth trying to speak but no words would come. Lily walked over sitting on the desk, finishing to button the white dress shirt.

“You were always a mess Marie. “

Marie snatched back falling over, her ankle smacking into the window behind the desk. Marie called out in pain. Lily quickly walked over pulling her ankle from the window.

“Hold on, I’ll go get the nurse.”

Lily quickly ran from the room leaving Marie screaming in pain on the floor. A man dressed in blue walked in quietly pulling the screaming girl into a warm embrace. He stood back up still cradling her safely in his arms.

“Marie, I’m going to take you to the hospital, hold onto me if you’re scared, everything will be okay just hold on.”

She quietly cried, holding tight to his shirt.

“No it wont be alright, I’m alone again…”

Jacob looked down at the girl, shaking his head a smile on his face.

“No no, Madame Marie no matter what you are never alone, everyone has someone no matter what. Even though that girl left you, you’re never alone. You have me for a fact, my sister who would die to protect you from hurt…”

Marie blinked wiping out her eyes as they walked in the hospital.

“Marie Galves Manina what the hell happened to you?”

Irys walked from behind the counter walking to Marie, she took the girl in her arms pressing a soft kiss onto her forehead.

“I heard what Lily did, I’m sorry. But for now we need to fix that ankle”

Irys smiled with supreme innocence and kindness that couldn’t help but make Maire smile, no matter how hurt she felt.

“Irys, this is my fault…I never told my parents…and when they found out all this started and it all fell apart.”

She hugged the girl close to her carrying her away into a room.

“Marie never is anything your fault, don’t blame yourself for everything that goes wrong. You’ll end up like I used to be always crying, sad, depressed thinking everything that goes wrong in the world is my fault. My fiancée taught me that it wasn’t my fault. I know that you’re hurting and don’t wanna hear a thing that I say but I think you need to hear this, if you love someone let them go, if they come back it was meant to be.”

Marie sighed laying back on the bed, pulling the tissue from the box. Irys carefully placed her ankle on a pillow, before softly applying pressure around the wound.

“Marie I’m going to pull the glass out, then we’re going to sterilize this little accident and get you set to go home.”

Marie nodded watching Irys.

“How do you do this everyday and still smile?”

Irys shrugged her shoulders.

“I was born to help people, and when I go home at night my fiancée he takes care of everything until I have to work in the morning, then we kiss good bye and I don’t speak to him again until after work.”

Irys began to pull the glass from the wound, she was surprised cause the wound wasn’t that severe.

“Irys someone has been trying to get your attention…”

She blinked jolting back into reality, looking back.

“Baby I’m so sorry, I was distracted by my work. I’m sorry”

He walked over hugging her around the waist kissing the rim of her neck, Irys smiled feeling his lips along her neck.

“It’s alright, I came unexpected and you were helping someone.”

Irys smiled kissing his lips briefly before walking out pulling him behind her.

“Baby I have to go get the medicine and stuff for her, watch her while I’m gone.”

David smiled pressing a kiss on her forehead.

“She’s special?”

Irys nodded backing away from him.

“I can’t tell you as her doctor, just watch her please baby.”

He nodded smiling.

“But you have to give me a kiss first.”

Irys laughed grabbing his shirt collar pressing her lips lightly on his, taking his opportunity David grabbed her legs pulling her up into his arms as she wrapped her legs around his waist, kissing him again. David slowly slid his tongue in her mouth.

“HEY IRYS THIS ISN’T YOUR MAKE OUT SESSION PLACE GET BACK TO WORK!!!!”

Irys jumped a bit parting their lips, David let her drop to the ground but kept his arm protectively around her.

“Baby I don’t like him.”

She nodded pressing her head into his shoulder.

“But I have to do my work, so let me finish and then we can talk.”

David nodded kissing her cheek.

“I’ll be with Marie until you finish.”

She nodded before walking off towards the main area. David sighed walking into the room where Marie lay.

“She loves you…”

He nodded sitting down.

“And it took me years to realize how long she had stood by waiting for an invitation to be with me. I was so foolish to let anyone else have her.”

Marie tilted her head to the side a bit, wondering what he was talking about. David sighed again looking at the curiosity on her face.

“I guess I can’t keep you wondering, I met her online years ago because of one of our friends. She asked me out after knowing me for a few months but I had a girlfriend so I turned her down, thinking she was just looking for love. Then my life went to hell, I hardly ever got online worrying her so badly but I was to blind to see. Until the year her ex left her, she was hurt and I was hurting my life was still so horrible and she was being more and more affectionate, and I honest to god liked it but I couldn’t explain why…she asked me if I would be hers but again I had a girlfriend….it broke her heart left her unable to speak to me. She liked the attention, and I like the affection she gave me…”

“That old story, David do you ever forget?”

Marie and David looked up seeing Irys in the door way, a red mark on her face, David jumped up out of the chair and walked to her, gently touching the wound.
“He hit you….that son of a bitch hit you.”

Irys softly kisses the side of his hand, wanting his comfort. David sighed.

“Take care of Marie I’m going to talk to that man.”

She sighed.

“Baby just drop it, after this I just want to go home. Okay?”

David nodded letting Irys walk to the bed, carefully beginning to wrap the ankle.

“Marie, I’ve called your parents and they said that you could come home with me and David for a while, until you heal.”

Marie nodded sitting up hugging Irys.

“Get me some crutches and I’ll walk to the car, thank you Irys.”

She smiled patting her back softly.

“It’s alright, I was born to help people. David go out to reception and get the nurse to get crutches for us, I’m just about finished here.”

He nodded reluctantly walking from the room. Irys finished wrapping the wound tying it tight but not to tight.

“Okay now I have to get you some medicine for infection and go by the school and get your work for a few days. Marie listen you don’t have to stay with me if you don’t want to, me and David only want what is best for you.”

Marie nodded wiping her eyes out.

“Yeah I know, but I want to stay it’ll be a nice break from mundane life.”

David walked back in carrying crutches and paperwork for Irys to sign. She quickly signed the papers to take Marie out, but turned the paper over and began to write her resignation.

“Baby I’m proud of you, this is the first step you had to take and you did it without me having to tell you to.”

He softly kissed the top of her head rubbing her back.

“No matter what Marie never forget that David and I are always here for you even though we don’t “love you” as a girlfriend would everything will turn out fine.”

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

   heya ^^
sorry for not updating recently i've been talking to mi amor or my love, alot on elfpack since elftown doesn't seem to like us to much. *laughs*
I do get on myotaku when I have nothing going on and I have to check for messages like 80 times during the day cause I like to rp, and I've had one going for two years and I don't want it to die.
well let me think, what's been going on since my last update.....well my goat is pregant and she's eating like no ones business, but she still lets me pet her and such when I go to feed her.
My step-dad is as big as a jackass as ever, please pardon my language if it's not allowed but I'm tired of getting in so much trouble cause of that stupid....*growls*
I'm okay, and I'll do my best to get around to updated sites as soon as i can <3
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

   Hey ^^
how is everyone doin'? It seems like everyone has some high tech, profile thing. Well not me...mainly cause I don't have a clue how to set one up, so it
wont never change. Cause it confuses me!

well my tummy is growling but I'm to lazy to get up and cook something to eat...

Well my friend is coming over today unless she starts hacking up a lung then she's gonna go home,
cause her brother, her, and her mother are sick right now.
but I haven't been sick that much this year, I can count probably two days that I was sick. It was when I caught the stomach bug from my friend's brother. I'm actually banned from her house cause I pissed her momma off cause I brought my
hamster Yashi-kins in her house cause she was my only hamster left and she had just suffered an eye injury and I didn't want to leave her all alone in my house.
And if you dont know yet, my goat Kesi is pregnant. She's probably about 2 months along, she'll probably have the baby at the end of this month or in early to late February, it depends when she starts showing....how do I say this without sounding like a pervert...umm....until her tits start swelling down with milk.

my dial up connection is being a complete dumb ass, and it is really pissing me off. I hate dial up so effin much. I've lost the connection twice and it's getting on my very last never

Piccy Time!!!!!! <33333




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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

   hey
if you can't tell I'm now obsessed with a Spanish band named Kudai. The song that got me addicted is called Tal Vez. Though I'm still not quite sure what it means
one person says No and the other Sometimes. So I'm not very sure what the entire way.

piccy time!!!!


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Saturday, December 1, 2007

   hiya
well I'm at my friends house for the weekend, we sorta both needed on anothers company from the recent events of becoming single losing our lovers, I affected more than she was.

But we both found out that her ex cheated on her and the last leg of their relationship. And when he lied to her he lied to me and now I hate, (okay I don't hate it's to strong a word just higly dislike) and I've known him for 10 years and I never even thought that he would ever do that.

Well I guess you can never know how well you know someone until they piss you off by doing something really stupid.

November has been the worst month of my life, but it ended on a good note when my new friend Ziggy or Mike to most come to Georgia with me, my friend, and her mother and sister. So we were on the road for almost 8 hours if not 8 hours and by the time we got in we crashed...me and my friend at least...don't know what happened to the others and at that time didn't really care...minus Ziggy he's new in the country and has the most delicious accent I've ever heard...minus British and Spanish still make me melt into very nice puddy XD.

sorta a post over load today I know but I'm on a roll. Well I guess that's all to post about today I'll check back for comments and I've already commented today so ha!!!! xP


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Friday, November 30, 2007

Chapter 2
Christine blushed a-little sitting next to Allison.
“I haven’t seen you around, miss…oh I’m so silly what’s your name?”
Allison couldn’t help but smile at the scatterbrained woman who had graced them with her presence.
“I’m Allison and this is my brother Michael…um…um..”
Michael chuckled watching his tough as steal sister turn into puddy.
“We’re Brookefields, Alli can’t seem to form words right now.”
Allison shot her brother an angry glare, Christine laughed picking up Allison’s glasses.
“Aww, Allison I’m so sorry your glasses are broken.”
She sighed sticking the shattered frames into her purse. Christine quickly grabbed her hands.
“Love it’s alright you don’t have to worry I’ll replace your glasses and give you a warm place to stay and everything, please don’t blame the children for they don’t know any better than their parents teach them.”
Allison looked at her brother as if she was asking permission to live with her new friend.
“Alli, baby I don’t think that is the smartest thing that you should do. You’ve barely known her for five minutes and you wanna go home with her, that’s not the smartest thing….damn it Alli don’t give me that look, no one else stood up for you when you got thrown in that asylum and if you make me have to relive that I’ll never forgive you.”
She nodded looking at Christine sadly, she mouthed, I’m sorry. Christine nodded smiling brightly.
“That is perfectly fine, I’ll just come home with you. And he can’t object to that since he should want to make you happy right.”
Michael mumbled something under his breath but nodded reluctantly. The waiter poured the cup of hot tea into Allison’s lap. She screamed surprised falling out of the chair gasping for air. She was hurting. Christine and Michael looked at Allison but didn’t move trying to get to her side.
“There will be none of that in my establishment, learn well you little bitch never ever be all gay at my place of working.”
Michael nodded biting his lip, he wanted to get up and punch the bastard out who had hurt his sister but that would only have called more problems.
“I understand, I’m sorry, this is the only place my sister could remember from our child hood, I’m so sorry I’ll never let that happen again.”
As the doctor walked away Christine dropped by Allison’s side, tears were streaming down her face.
“Mikey I wanna go home….”
Michael jumped to his feet quickly picking up his sister from the ground. Her body was trembling, not because she was scared but because she was hurting. Christine stood pulling Allison’s purse from the chair quickly chasing after them.

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

   Paradise's Nightmare Chapter 1
yes I did right this, it's all original from me, I hope it's worthy for the eyes on theotaku

The town was buzzing with life, children laughing throwing snowballs at one another, their parents watching from the nearby café. A woman dressed in blue camouflage jeans and a black spaghetti strapped shirt began to cackle awkwardly looking at the children.
“What are you looking at Dyke?!”
She looked up at the man who had jumped up yelling at her, he backed away the look in her emotionless green eyes made him tremble.
“Last time I checked you weren’t the president of the entire fucking universe. And I was laughing because I remembered when I was with my brother on this very street before my father got sent up state for murder!”
A boy quickly ran up, hugging Allison around her arms. She looked back seeing the innocent blue eyes of her older brother.
“Allison I told you, you can’t act like this in public, especially in front of the children. Please forgive my sister.”
She forced her way free turning wanting to slap him but she couldn’t.
“Michael you don’t understand, that bastard got on my ass cause I laughed. Because I laughed! And he called me a dyke!”
Michael sat his sister down, rubbing her hand. A waiter walked over glaring at the girl.
“What can I get you today sir?”
He looked up.
“Tea, two orders of tea please…”
Allison sighed, pinching her nose. Taking in a few breaths.
“Mikey, It’s not my fault you didn’t spend a day in that place. It’s not my fault, it’s not my fault I’m gay…I’m sorry Mikey…”
He rubbed her hands softly kissing her hand.
“Sister, please understand, your sexuality isn’t your fault. You were just programmed different than us…”
The parents pulled their children from the streets quickly walking away, one child through a ball at Allison hitting her in the face, knocking her glasses to the ground. A woman run up holding a tissue under Allison’s nose.
“My apologies, people here don’t take kind to what we are…”
Allison looked up, meeting the warm brown eyes of a well dressed woman.
“Love you stick out like a pink flower in a weed patch, I’m Christine Miller…”
Allison blinked several times.
“Christine…you’re beautiful….”

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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

   The Most Beautiful Doll
A most beautiful doll sat on the shelf in the store, the daughter tugged on her mothers jacket begging and pleading for her to allow her to get it. She said, "Mommy, please mommy, I wont treat her like the other ones, please mommy look she's so pretty." The mother sighed never really able to tell her child no. "Fine, go and get someone to help us get her down." The mother said smiling at her daughter. The estatic child ran off grabbing one of the helpers hands. Leaving the store with the beautiful doll the girl held her tight hugging. Rushing into her room quickly playing in her doll house. A year later the doll lay broken in the toy chest, with the girls brother's toy fire truck on top of her. She had been tossed aside just as all the other dolls the girl had gotten, her mother walked in finding the girl. "Why does she treat her toys like this...?" She asked herself picking up the disfigured doll. Her face had been melted her body chewed on by the neighbors dog. She sighed walking back to her room and began to fix the doll. Remolding her face, making it even more special, but coloring it a greyish blue, drawing what looked to be stiches down it where she had to fix it. She made a little outfit for the doll. " Most beautiful doll ever, now she is even better." She sat her on the shelf next to her other dolls. Her daughter looked in, seeing the doll. "Momma what is that ugly thing." Her mother smiled, petting her daughter on the head. "That is the most beautiful doll in the world."



yes I did write this, took about 20 minutes to get all my ideas together...I hope ya'll like it
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