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Tuesday, September 21, 2004


Oh God I wished that I could disappear into thin air.....
Sorry to rain on your parade you guys. These past few days I got really depressed,scared and nervous for no reason.
Everyday I got up around 9 am...only wishing that bedtime would come sooner. I just want to stay in my room and read my books or draw manga or listen to CDs...but everytime I try to chill out, a nagging feeling tells me that I should not enjoy myself in times like these.
I live in a house away from loads of my friends. I am the only 18 year old living in the area ... there are loads of primary school kids living in my area, just loads of young children and nobody around my age to get along with.In my household there are my parents: dad(who works all day and comes home late in the evening) and my mother (we don't get along very well,she's very quiet) and my sister(she's at school most of the time) and my brother (what an asshole but I love him so). Every single day I only see these same old people, talk with the same old people. I find it very dull and boring. I wish that I have a good friend living nearby.
All of my friends are going to uni in September, not me cuz the fees are too expensive for my parents to pay so I have to go to uni next year,which is sucks! (I want to do a science course in uni! Future MAAAd scientist!)
*for those of you who are able to go to uni, you should count your blessings...
Everyday I check on MyO, it gives me stuff to do and I can make new friends. Thank God for MyO.
Sometimes I would play songs on the keyboard or tackle a few songs on the guitar. Music keeps me sane.
When I draw, I forget about the world.....
Everyday I yearn for someone I can get along really well, someone who listens to my deepest inquisitions and someone I can talk to for hours and hours... true love waits,eh?
*chickenburger feels hopelessly romantic ^_^
But most of all, I want peace and joy in my mind, even just for a day................
yeah, this is a side of chickenburger that you don't really know...^_^ she can be very sensitive too, you know, not just a cuss-happy weirdo!^_^
Enjoy, make me happy, talk to me, I will appreciate it very much.

*love and mashed potatoes,chickenburger*


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