Wednesday, May 5, 2010

let me touch you daisy;
8:29 PMC
Love Me Chase Me - Carney

My mother surprises me sometimes.
We leave, we don't leave. It's in the hands of fate... mostly. I blow the feather in the wind here and there sometimes. But anyways, new laptop! I can totally update more often now. This effer cost me a lot of money so it better work! Forever!!!

Seriously. I'll visit you now.

- g.
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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

on the floor, you set yours sights on him;
11:05 PMC
Under the Sheets - Chiddy Bang

Hello Everyone(?)
Here's what's happening. I'm working my last few days of work. Three of my brothers are moving out and my mum and I will be leaving for California in a week or so. Um, nothing else is going on.

I feel nostalgic about leaving. I mean, I always talked about leaving this city but never for California. I never really was to excited about Cali. I always prefered somewhere like Calexico or Yuma, Arizona to Redlands, California. It's going to suck a little. Once out there I'll have to decide whether I want to stay long to just move back to Kansas City. The idea of staying out there sort of depresses me because this won't be the first time I give up a steady lifestyle with developing plans for a trip to California where I'll have to start all over again.

I don't really want to do that but I can't really go back and bed for my job back. They've already found a replacement. Fuck. This will be bad. Gah! I don't mean to depress you guys either but I just feel like venting for a while. I'll visit you now.

eehn,
- g.
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Monday, April 5, 2010

i watched you change;
5:19 PMC
"Change (in the house of flies) - Deftones

Hello Lovers.
Here's the dealio, my grandmother's been sick for the past few weeks so my mum's decided to go down to Mexico and take care of her for a while. Now, she did not mention whether she would come back and weirded out on me last Friday saying that a co-worker of hers can drive her down to Mexico because we had discussed it a lot in January and February. Well, the moving part; allow me to elaborate. My mother's always wanted to move to California and I had originally agreed to move with her but after months of indecision, I gave up on the plan and decided to make my way here, in Kansas City with or without her. She pretty much gave up on me moving with her but, here's what's happening: since my grandmother got sick my mother's been freaking out and finally told me last Friday (not Good Friday but the one before) that she wanted to finally leave KC for California but she wanted to extend the offer to me and see if I wanted to go.

So, here's what I stupidly answered: "Yes, I told you already before that I didn't care about leaving my job or my friends. As long as I have a date of departure, I'm good." -- Well, I have been for the past week and a half debating whether I made the right decision. Whether I'm ready to go. I had originally decided to merely drive her to California & Mexico, not stay there, but given the circumstances and that crazy look in my mother's eye, I've agreed to stay with her. So, this past Monday I spoke with my manager and put in my 2 weeks notice. She scrambled to get a replacement for me, found one and now I leave on the 18th of April at 6 AMC.

Before then, I must get a driver's license, my eyes examined, my cat's Health Certificate, and a suitcase for the travels. My mother's agreed to stay in California and move between there and Mexico and I'm going to see if I can find us an apartment and jobs because we go there with nothing. No jobs, no housing, nothing. We'll be staying at a family member's place that I find highly uncomfortable. I am NOT looking forward to it and I fear what may happen if we fail at building a new life and yet, my heart flutters at the possibility of making it. I don't know; I'm in a weird sort of hysterical panic.

...

So, that all said, I apologize ahead of time for not being able to check in for the months that follow but like I said, we leave with nothing. I don't even have a computer and if I did, the family members don't have wireless.

Life hates me.

i remain respectfully yours forever and forever,
- g.
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

tell that bitch she owes me a new pair of pumps;
1:33 PMC
"Full Moon" - The Black Ghosts

Hello Lovers.
Still alive. Figured I'd check in finally. I missed you guys. Um, I'm supposed to be at work right now but I'm having a ride issue. I'm supposed to use my mum's van but my brother has it and disappeared in it this morning. He doesn't answer his phone and given that he was out the entire night last night I'm not sure if he's just passed out at a friend's house or he's been arrested or what but this is really annoying. The weather's beautiful and I appreciate taking the day off but not when the other receptionist has been there since 6 AM.

My brother sucks ass.

Anyways, besides all that nothing's new. There's drama at work and there will be more now concerning some missing money. Fun, fun, right? I think the vet clinic's going under and I've felt that way since the day I started working there which is a shame because some of the doctors are awesome. I fear what will become of the place and I really don't want to have to look for another job because that will take me forever.

[sigh]

Whatever. Um, I know I probably shouldn't have exposed so much but I feel better doing it. So, enjoy kiddos. I'll visit you now.

- g.
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Monday, March 8, 2010

you && i were meant to be;
1:02 PMC
"Freak on a Leash" - Korn

Hello Otakus. No, I'm not dead yet. Just out of body. Um, I've been in weird moods all month and today is no exception. Just wanted to check in and see how everyone is doing. Hopefully doing well. Um, spring is barely starting to show and I took a walk which made me feel a lot better today. I should probably do it more often. Anyways, like I said, I hope everyone is well and that your weeks are going by much warmer in weather than mine are. If that makes sense.

i remain respectfully yours, etc, etc,
- g.
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Monday, February 22, 2010

i am yours now;
12:52 PMC
"Islands" - The XX

Hello Otakus.
We have been without wireless internet for sometime so forgive me for not checking in frequently. Not a lot's happening. The winter won't give up and keeps snowing us in for days at a time. Well, not literally snowing us in but one gets lazy when it's cold and snowy outside. Lol. I claimed my taxes last week and am getting back a considerable amount which I'm putting forth to my moving out fund. I'm very nearly there. Yay, me. And I've been catching up on my reading. I am reading my classics again and with the lack of computer I've been writing everything long hand and am enjoying that more than typing right now because I can spend hours writing when I'm bored and once I finally look up from the page I can just go straight to sleep instead of wait for it to happen at night. I missed writing long hand.

Besides that, nothing's going on. Work as usual and that's it.

Anyway, forgive me again for not checking in and I probably won't for another good while. Until I get a computer with reliable wireless connection. Until then, take care lovers.

i remain respectfully yours, etc, etc,
gabby.

post script: where's Jamo? Did I miss something?
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

throwing out vice like grenades at the table;
9:43 PMC
"I've Got Your Number" - Elbow

Hello Lovers
I apologize for the lack of updates, I just haven't been all there lately. I've had a shitty day and I'm hoping the end of this month will come soon. I effin hate February and not for the Valentine's thing either.

Anyways, my real reason for posting: new colours (sort of), new music, new avatar. I hope you all like. Esp, the music. I effin love this little playlist. If you watched the movie you'd understand it more, I think. So, go to your local indie movie dealer and find Elvis and Annabelle. It is worth it!

with love,
- g.
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Monday, January 11, 2010

One gets all of you, two's jealous;
12:14 AMC
"Audience of One" - Cold War Kids

Hello Loves
I missed you all. I haven't been here in so long, it feels like. The weather's been shitty and I feel like I've been running 100 miles a minute. I'm hardly ever home unless I'm here to use the bathroom, shower, or feed my cat. I feel guilty because whenever I get here he almost looks excited to see me. Lol. Poor douche. Anyways, here's what's happening at:

Work: The Powers That Be let go of the other receptionist and now it's just my sister-in-law, Marina, and myself working up to twelve hr shifts at a time. But we've been closing the clinic early because we only get like one to two appointments due to the horrible weather out here. We've been bombarded with snow like you wouldn't believe and it sucks because as soon as you notice the snow melts, the next day, more falls. Fun, fun. T_T. Which brings me to the next update,

Home: Like I said, despite the horrendous amounts of snow we've been having, because of work, I don't get to stay home much. The weekend is actually the longest periods in which I'm home and even then it's only 2-4 hours that I spent actually awake here. If I am here, I'm either asleep or in the shower or eating. Shameful, actually. My mum's working overtime so I don't see her unless I'm picking her up from work, dropping her off at home, then heading to work myself. That drive is like just five minutes long; her job is so close. Um, I've been saving my little pennies to try and find an apartment soon but it cost extra to for one that allows pets so you can only imagine how that's going. Our washing machine doesn't work either so I have to spend extra money I usually save to go to the laundromat. Besides that there's nothing else going on.

Social Life: is literally nonexistant. I go out with my brother and his wife mostly because we all work together. We have dinner every day after work. I haven't physically talked to any of my friends since the winter of '08 and that's down right horrible. I went out on Saturday and damn near cried when the night ended. I didn't even go out with my high school friends. They were all girls I met later. Eehn. It was fun though. I've been in this irksome phase and have been bothering my sister-in-law (who's like my BFFF) to take me out drinking for my 21st birthday, which isn't til June, so we decided to prep me by starting a little early so I my senses wouldn't be surprised. At least, that's how I explain my actions. I didn't drink more than enough to get me buzzed and ended up sleeping in the next morning. I still remember the entire night and woke up without a headache so I think Saturday night was successful.

I'm pretty straight edge and have been most of my life so God, one or two drinks, I think, in my situation is long overdue and necessary. If you knew half my life's story you'd agree too. So, that all said, I'll leave you all to ingest this speech and I hope to visit you all soon.

Also, my little brother got a Mac laptop, isn't that messed up? He makes me so jealous.

T_T,
- g.
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Whites, whites, whites of your eyes.
11:48 AMC
"Hang Me Up To Dry" - Cold War Kids

Fuck you, winter.
I'm driving to work in a blizzard tonight. My, what a season. I'll update later this week if I make it home alive. I really just wanted to share my thoughts on the weather. Take care and stay warm.

- g.
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

you last just as long as it serves you;
11:10 AMC
"Explode" - The Cardigans

Hello Lovers
I haven't updated in a few days and seeing as I finally have the time, here I am. Um, I just got home from work but I'm scheduled to go in again at 3 PMC today. The other receptionist is still on her leave of absence so we've been taking in 10-12 hour days. Not to mention the holiday season, I've been stocking up on presents and am pretty through shopping. Well, not so much finished but I just don't have anymore money to spend. Lol. Aside from that we've had a pretty rouch week over here. I won't get into specifics but in a way, I'm pretty happy that Christmas is so close. Maybe in wake of the holidays everyone will kind of relax and take it slow. I intend to anyway. I used to stress a lot, almost to the point of hyperventilation but for the past year I've relaxed a lot more and have tried to take set backs in stride. No matter how enormous and pivitol they are. Worrying only makes things worse and makes your decisions irrational so, yeah. That's my thoughts anyway.

Um... I could've sworn I had more to talk about. I would explain the enjoyments in watching your cat react to you after sedation and surgery but I don't think it'd be that fascinating for you guys as it was for me. Blooping kittens are the best thing in the world in my book. Lol.

Seriously, I hope you guys are enjoying the holiday season and please, fill me in, who's finished their Christmas or other Holidays' shopping? What did you buy and for whom? I'm curious.

with love,
- g.

post script. also, I'll be working Christmas Eve from 7 AM to 3 PM so forgive me if I don't visit that day or post. I'll try to on Christmas Day or the day after. Take care kiddos and watch those holiday foods, they'll go straight to your thighs.
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