Thursday, June 22, 2006
ok this sucks....why the hell am so insecure? by bf said he would dtay with me...but in some ways.....i just get....so unsure, am never going to let him know...but i'll keep it here and inside me....i'm not even going to tell his friend, i don't want anyone to know......at leats if they don't read this they won't know.
he and his friend said that he would stay with me but sometimes i think and....well it kinda scares me....i don't want to loose him. my bf hasn't been talking to me that much.....he knows i have my finals and well....he really doens't talk to me that much anymore....but their over....he wants ti know my score and if i passed....could it be that....the reason he didn't talk to me was cuz of the test? or was it another reason....?i am just so worried, i haven't talked to him on the phone, i don't even dare to call anymore.....but i think i'll wait untill saturday....then i'll call him....makes me sad......not being able to really talk to him.....we used to talk but it seems that we have lost it.....i don't want to loose him....i really don't, so i'll hide this from him.....he will not know.....
he always talks to his friend, seemes that i don't excsist anymore.....he knows he can talk to me anytime, he knows that i'm always gonna be here for him......
~Alucard's Blood Angel~