Saturday, December 8, 2007
The ranting / observations of a real life nobody.
I guess.... I'm just going to rant on this key board so some thoughts will have to stand still and stop[ spinning around in my head.
Whenever I see things from kind of a distance, like where the mountain ends and the sky starts? To me, both of them at that point look flat, and sometimes they just kind of just...stay that way. And then, I'll continue looking around and I'll see a bird fly by and some dust kick up ever time I put my foot down and then realize that that those things, they don't seem flat. My mind will wander some more and then realize that thoughts and people are alike in that sence of things. Some thoughts, no matter how close they are to non-subliminal comprehention still seem flat, either because they aren't very clear to you or you just don't like them, or, you simply know they just cant be true, and no matter how fun they are, they'll always just be in your head, or maybe down on paper, but never quite real. Then, there's people. They seem to be the people you see everyday, but they are only "seen" but your brain doesn't register anything but there existance. And even then, there are people who you see and hear talk every day but its always the same thing to you, they always wear the same expression and always talk about some how the same thing. And then that makes me realize, that they all have thoughts too. They have feelings and opinions too. I know I knew this before, but its still something I cant really comprehend. So, I kind of just, well, dwell on these things while not really thinking about them at all, but then, a thought comes and attacks me: Your the same to them. They see you as a person that isn't really comprehended or a person who just exists. But.... some how, having all these "people" that aren't even really seen or understood gives us all a place. A purpose. We all make a huge difference, even if we do nothing, want nothing, or achieve nothing. Something still makes us some one. I realize that that something would be ourselves. Isn't that funny? Once I got done with all this thinking, i realized that I was still staring at the mountain / sky point. It still looked flat. But, now it didn't feel flat. Not any more. Isn't life funny?