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Saturday, May 21, 2005

   May 19, 2005
It happened again today, Mrs.Hobbes asked me about my "friend" again. I could feel my face start to grow hot and a stupid smile found its way on my face again.

Man,I always feel like an idiot when I smile that smile he makes me smile. lol a tongue twister, ne? It's one I get with just the mentioning of his name. I almost drop my gaze and I don't know why I get so embarrassed, darn it! Yes, he's important to me and yes, I love him. But things wouldn't work with family unless he became more open with me and my family with him.

He makes me angry sometimes when he isn't here and has no substancual reason to be other than the typical response, "I was sick." Part of me wants to shake him and yell, "WELL SUCK IT UP!!!" I swear sometimes he's such a wuss, but white ppl can't help but be sick for long periods of time. I think of however Joe, Lisa and Ben are when THEY'RE sick and I forgive him...a little...

The other part tries to give him room and understand him, but part is the one who still has hope for him and is constantly waiting outside his door like some kind of lovesick puppy dog waiting for the owner to come through that door at any given moment.

No I haven't called him because I don't want to. That's an obvious lie. lol, I am always want to be with him even when I think I don't want to, but I don't want to be with him if he doesn't want to be with me. Heh strange thoughts and theories of love, ne?

I wonder if he's gonna be able to graduate across stage like Mrs.Hobbes asked me. I wonder if I can invite him to family
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