Friday, March 16, 2007
Today is going to be bad and boring..
I guess it started last night when I wanted to go out with my mom after she dropped my brother off for this school thing. But my neighboor was like, lets go to the bar! So, I didn't get to hang out with my mom.
Not that I usually want to hang out with her but, I had this dream the other day that really freaked me out. Usually, my dreams don't bother me that much but I don't know... It was basically my whole family died and I was the only one left. I don't know why it freaked me out so much but it did.
My mom is supposedly going to take me to the music store today to get my amp for my electric violin. My dad actually keeps asking me when my mom is going to take me to get it. haha. It's funny.
I found an old friend on myspace the other day too! Well, he found me but whatever. He says he's popular now. Yea...I'm glad someone out of us is. So, that got me thinking of why everyone at my school doesn't like me. I'm really really shy so I really don't know how to talk to people I don't know. It's just really uncomfortable. So...since I don't respond to people the way they want, they think I'm a bitch. And then they tell everybody else that and just like any normal person on this earth, they just believe them without getting to know me. So...yea. It makes me sad to hear him say that he's popular. And it hurts to. He won't notice it ever but little comments like "It's really weird to think I was unpopular once." ...It really hurts.
Well...eh..I sound really...I don't know.
I guess it shouldn't matter if your popular or not. It's kinda hard not to worry sometimes.
Anybody else have this problem?