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Sunday, April 2, 2006

   new beginnings.....
so yesterday was lonesome without my kitty. my mom felt really bad, and decided maybe we could get him back. in order to get a pet back, you have to go through the adopiton process. when we called, they said he was adopted earlier that day. i was really upset. i had a chance at getting him back, but now it's gone. i know he went to a good family (they screen the possible adopters and they are pretty strict about who they let adopt. thats why i was afraid he wouldn't get a home). im really sad though. i know he's be a good cat, and learn to be happy with his new family. maybe it's better this way. *le sigh*

mom said maybe we can adopt another animal instead. for the whole 18+ years i've been alive, i've always had a pet. we had 2 cats, when i was born. when we moved to the city i live now (when i was 6) we had a cat, and 3 dogs. (we rented my aunts house and they were her dogs). then when we moved to our trailer, i got my first pet..he was just mine...my cat jaws. i had him for 7 years, then he ran away. a month later i got mr. kankles...the one i just gave up....so i've always had a pet my whole life. one night without one was horrible. i felt so alone. i didn't sleep much, it was hard to sleep without him curled up on me. i think i finally cried myself to sleep...

but no more tears...i'm trying to move on. i keep telling myself it was for the best, and that he has a new family who loves him already. it wouldn't be fair to them for me to try to take him away (not that i can...but i would try if i could). and maybe i will adopt a cat who has been at the shelter waiting for a new family...and may be put to sleep if it doesn't find one. i want to save an animal, whose owners had to give it away..and miss it as much as i miss mr. kankles. it wont be to replace him, but to save it from an unecessary death. no animal could ever replace the ones you've lost....never. they just help heal your wounds.

i still miss my bunnie, but i know she is safe at my sisters. i'm gonna go up and visit her soon. at first i felt bad only mourning the loss of mr. k, and not for liqourice too, but i realized it hurt so much because i'll never see him again. and i can see her at my sisters when ever i want (tho its a 4 hour drive).

*le sigh* no song or pics tonite...im too tired. its only 2 am, but im exausted. i think its from lack of sleep lastnight...hopefully i can sleep tonite knowing hes got a new home...and someone who will love him as much as i did....

*~Badkitty~*
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Saturday, April 1, 2006

   sadness
how is everyone enjoying their weekend? hope eyeryone has a nice one.

i got a few sites yesterday. sorry if i didn't get to yours.

i had to get rid of my cat yesterday. it was horrible. ive had him since he was a baby (he was about 6 weeks old when i got him). my cousin heathers cat had kittens, and he was one of them. hes been with me for over 2 years now. after my cat jaws ran away december 2003, i got mr kankles in january 2004. so anyway, i took him to the local humane society. mom told me i could drop him off at my old trailer park, but i couldn't just abonden him that way. at least he has a chance of getting adopted at the humane society. so on the way there he sat calmly in my lap. occasionally he would bury his face under my hand. he would look up at me with his beautiful green/hazel eyes as if to say mommie where are we going? why are you crying?..and that of course made me cry more. when we were almost there..just up the road from the shelter, he meowed a couple times. he knew something was going on. the whole way there, the radio had a bunch of sad songs on too. before we left i told him i loved him and how sorry i was, and that he wouldn't see me anymore, but that he would be okay. i pwt him and kissed him one last time, and handed him over. when i was back in the car i was so sad, i felt bad for not telling him i loved him and i was sorry, but i couldn't talk. so i hopw he gets a new home. i miss him so much already. i still have his collar, and i keep expecting to have him come into my room and sit on the bed next to me. it will be hard to sleep, since he always sleeps with me.

i sat on the balcony last night, watching the storm roll in. seeing the storm was like seeing how i felt inside. the sadness and tears of the rain. the anger of having to let him go of the thunder and lightning. watching the storm roll in and quietly roll out..knowing i'll get over it, as hard as it is right now.

i did manage to go to the store though yesterday. i got my friend alicia something for her baby shower, and got jamies late bday present. lol.

well im not in the happiest mood right now....so i guess that's all. no pics or lyrics today..

*~Badkitty~*
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Friday, March 31, 2006

   The Minstrel's Prayer ~ Cartel
Cartel Lyrics

The Minstrel's Prayer Lyrics

and all these stupid silly songs
keep trying to catch your ear
i'm trying desperately
its just so hard to persevere
and even if you listened
i never had much to say
cause its the same old song
i'm written for the day

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

all these minstrels through the ages
that is really all we are
simply singing for the girl
that makes us try so very hard
to craft the perfect limerick
to wield unending woe
to write such silly songs
and the different never know

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and i'll hold on to the dream
of this beggar's plea and optimistic fantasy
just hold the hand and drop the knee
you're facing love
you're embracing melody

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and oh carry on, oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

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i really really like that song!! i heard it for the first time a few days before i moved. i was packing and had the radio on. the station i listen to, every weeknight at 7:00 pm is "the people's choice" where they play 2 songs and listners call in and vote for their favorite. the one with the most votes is put up against someone new the next night, and so on. well that song was the favorite on peoples choice for about 2 weeks! i was suprised it lasted so long...i like it so much, i put it as my song on myspace..hehe

anywho....well lookie here, another post from me. thats all week. im getting good at this posting thing..haha.

i get to most sites, since like no one posts much anymore. i havent been able to leave comments, but i think it is only on certian peoples sites. hmmm weird. so i may just delete them from my list. i actually need to clean out my friends list...i haven't done it in quite a long time.

hmmm anyone go to Gaiaonline.com? if you have an account there pls give me your name. mine is Danacia

i'm bored. i wish my boy toy would get online so i could talk to him....

haha... well he's online, but sleeping, cuz he lives in england and there is a 5 hour difference betewwn me and him. so it's 11:43 pm for me right now, and 4:43 am for him. (if you can't count) lol.

so anyone have any big plans for the weekend? i don't, but seeing for the last 2 weeks i have spent my weekend with my brother, i may do the same this time. but first i have to go buy my friend bunnie (jamie) a bday present. i made her a prettyfull card. her bday was the 24th...but i havent been able to see her, so it's late.

i commented her with this pic on myspace....



....and now she loves me (possibly more than she did before)!!

i'm rambling.......cuz i have nothing to do!!!!!

i wrote my dad a letter today. he lives in alabama, where his parents are...sortof.. actually, he's in jail ^w^. he was suposed to go to prision, but the prision was too full x.x. wow that kinda makes him sound like a murdurer *yikes* no..he went cuz of a drug bust from a year ago. the guy he lived with had a meth lab. and then when my dad moved out, the cops came looking for the guy, and he was hiding out at my dads new place, so my dad got busted for 'housing' the other guy (. he said he was in the wrong place at the wrong time...tho i have to say i think he was in on the meth lab too...you don't just accidentally come across someone with a meth lab, and take no part in it...im not that stupid) soooooo anywho...i wrote him a letter. i feel bad, hes been there since november, and i havent written him yet. it's not a big deal really...i haven't seen him since i was 13....almost turned 14. which was a long time ago.

maybe i shouldn't have said all that....oh well.....i blame it on boredom, and my complete insanity *big smile goes here >^____^<)

well i guess that's all....im gonna shut up before i say something i shouldn't!

*~Badkitty~*
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