Birthday • 1992-08-03 Gender •
Female Location • Canada (Montreal, Quebec) Member Since • 2006-04-08 Occupation • Grade 9 Real Name • Haidee
Personal
Achievements • Award of Exellence in Drama and Visual Arts. Anime Fan Since • 1999 Favorite Anime • Can't choose ONE Hobbies • Drawing, painting, singing Talents • Anything Artstic
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Currently Listening to: Kotoko-Hane (autographed CD)
Track 6- genei (illusion)
Konnichiwa Minna-San,
The week has started out rather poor for me. I have missed yet another day of school, yesterday I had to go to the hospital and today I had to stay home because the inflammation of my leg didn’t go down as well as the pain…. “Itaiyo”, It hurts.
It all started on Monday, it was the end of first period. The intercom went off, I stood up. At that moment I froze…my right leg…It feels all tight, heavy, and…it hurts.
I walk to my locker and on to my next class with a fake smile plastered onto my face as I ponder on and on: “What the hell is wrong with my leg? This is not normal…I just watched a movie for Moral…this…is odd”. I arrive in the art class, place my black hardcover sketch book at my “desk” (the “desk” is huge it fits like 5 students easy o.o…and to think only my friend and I use it) and limp over to the front desk where all the canvases are displayed. I pick mine up and get the acrylic paints out of the cupboard, then I go get my paint pallet which are near those huge windows (which I LOVE! There so big! They reach from floor to almost ceiling ^^…there really nice)
I see my reflection on the window and notice that my right leg is swelling O_O;; …this is not right… “Why? Why is this happening?”…I ask my friend if she sees a difference between my two legs…she points out that the right one is a tad bit bigger at the lower calf. (I knew it! I’m not seeing things ^w^) She asks me if I ate anything that I might be allergic to? I respond….no, did I hurt myself? No….I think to myself… “The best thing to do right now is go home…I can ask my dad to check it out…he is a doctor after all.” I tell Mme. Chapdelaine (my art teacher) if I can have permission to call home, she grants me permission. I got down to the office, I call home…I begin to cry inside..I just hate having to call to go home from school, they always yell at me...even when I’m sick. My father picks up, I explain trying not to let tears out (I’m sorry..but I’m very sensitive ><) to my relief he hasn’t yelled at me…and has told me to come strait home.
On my way home the tears just come out, I start thinking…what if it nothing big? They’ll all start yelling at me…I don’t want to hear it…I stop…should I go back?...no..I-I can’t there expecting me to be home, and what if it is something serious? I mean your leg doesn’t just swell up out of the blue…I come home, I take the bus…my swelling is begging to go down….Shit! There going to think I was lying! I get off the bus and start walking…I don’t know why...but when I start crying and get all tense…I start thinking of all the things that have happened to me…which drove me into this sick mind which I have…I started thinking suicidal… “It’s not the leg…it’s not the phone call…it’s everything…” I smile as tears roll down my face…I hold onto the arm strap to my book bag…and start rubbing my hand back and forth on it… I mouth out the word
‘why?’ ‘why?’ ‘why?’(…I’m sorry everyone…you guys must think I’m crazy or something…but I’m just so…) I arrive home, I take off my dress shoes and put on my slippers…walk into my room and collapse crying on my bed. My dad walks in, and asks me what was wrong with my leg? I don’t face him to dry up the tears. Then I explain, he tells me to get dressed to go to the hospital, he explains to me that I might have a blood clot in my leg…which can kill me if I don’t get it fixed soon. When I get to the hospital I’m as tense as ever! My feet are turning purple; my blood circulation isn’t doing so well.
I get placed in a wheel chair, and am placed in triage 3. The other doctor examines my leg, and they think that my dad may be right, I’m sent to get a Doppler test; (I didn’t like it >< they made me take off my pants XP) I was in the hospital for hours…I got the results…and I do NOT have a blood clot!(which is good, because I would if had to stay at the hospital-_- and if it got loose into either my heart or brain I would of died)
But what I do have is a muscle spasm…I don’t know why it’s been hurting for two days so far…but yeah I have that XD and I’m happy I don’t have to keep using that stupid wheel chair…before I did the test they had me on that to keep my legs up...I wasn’t allowed to walk. Anyway, on a lighter thought. On Saturday I went to Laronde ^^ I had so much fun! I went on all the roller coasters *laughs slightly* I even went on the new one which is suppose to be more scary than <> (the monster) I think I was called Goliath…or something like that ^^ I remember when we got on the boomerang and the Goliath we were freaking out but we ended up loving them…and before we left, we went on le slash one more time and out boat thingy got stuck in the middle of the ride XD and they wouldn’t do anything...we were wet head to toe suck in some boat thingamajig and they said that we had to wait till the water came back XD heh-heh...it was fun either way...I love getting wet X3
Ja ne
