Friday, January 20, 2006

   A little bit of ranting, but after that it's all good...
Hey everybody. How's it going?

Sorry I didn't post yesterday.
Ya' see, I had a dental appointment yesterday...for my soon-to-be braces. Nothing major was done yesterday, and I was in and out in 20 minutes, so it was a relatively comfortable experience compared to what going to the dentist is usually like for me (plus, my new dentist is really nice, and he was friends with my mom before he even became a dentist). I get my "spacers" put on a week from yesterday, and I get the regular braces on a week after that.
-_-' I'm really not looking forward to these braces. I know I really shouldn't complain, especially since my case is a cake-walk compared to what most people go through.
But still, it's going to be crap having a sore jaw all day every time I'm wearing those stupid bands. It's hard enough to concentrate on schoolwork and artwork when I'm completely comfortable, and I get migraines really easy thanks to my dad's genes, so the next 14 months are going to suck like Hell & fire if my predictions are correct.

And afterwards, in the car ride to the grocery-store and then to home, my mom of course made it worse. She honestly doesn't care about what my brother puts me through, nor that now I'll be dealing with him on top of my jaw-aches. According to her, "that's life".
I was a dumb-ass for ever thinking my parents were my friends. They're just stepping-stones to bigger things, easily manipulated by those willing to manipulate (and by that, I mean my brother, who's had my parents half-dancing in his palms these past few years). It's a shame really, that my parents are so oblivious. We could have had a good, strong relationship if a certain little faggot weren't constantly lying about me to them.

I've also been dealing with that issue here on The Otaku I vaguely mentioned a while back. Every time I try to push it out of my mind and enjoy something, it seeps back in and saturates every thought. I try to push it out of my mind, because thinking about it makes me very, very angry...
I'm afraid it may boil over soon if I don't bring it up with you guys (like I said, it's something pertaining only to The Otaku), but I'm even more afraid of what will happen if I do mention it here. I'm worried that I may lose friends here, or at least lose my respect for them by bringing this issue to light. I'm afraid of the constant barrage of insults that may ensue. Well, I'm used to that part by now, but this time they'd be coming from people I consider(ed) my friends. If you're a close-enough friend of mine to be reading this, then you're likely involved in some way.
*sigh*, anybody have something that made them feel like this once?

I hate to saddle you with my emotional crap like that. I'm not depressed per say, I'm just...angry.
Ah, I need to stop whining. I'll compensate for the above with some fun stuff. How about that? ~_'

Today marks the triumphant return of ElvesAteMyRamen to The Otaku! She left saying she expected to be back about a week ago, but little did our Elvin heroine know that the Verizon company had it in for her...in the for of a service delay! (*Dunh-Dunh-DUNH!!!*)
But anywho, Lindsey should have functioning DSL service by the 30th, and until then she's gonna' use the lickity-split computers at her recently graduated college. Congratulations, Lindsey-chan, on soon being permanently free from the strangle-hold of dial-up. ^o^

Speaking of dial-up, about how much longer should I wait before submitting my 3 new pieces of artwork? I don't want you dial-ups to get overwhelmed, but I'm eager to submit these new ones, especially since I need to make up for how slip-shod those recent two were.
(In case you're unfamiliar with what I'm talking 'cause you've been absent, I submitted 2 fairly crappy pics earlier this week. Why submit them if they were crappy? I like to keep my work in chronological order, and I want you all to see every pic I finish so you can see my processes and how I improve. So, no need for a critique on these since I know they're crappy, but a quick look would be appreciated at some point.)

I'll comment on your posts later tonight (yet again, I've read them already, I just need to sit down and comment on them @_@). But, I need to vacuum the house and get some homework done first. But I promise I'll get to you all! ^_^

I'll leave you today with the first piece of photography/Photoshop art I've show-cased here on my site: "Consumption pt. 2", by freakyhedgehog...

This piece was done about January 2nd or so, if I recall.
As you probably guessed, it's about those pesky Holiday bills. Normally, the tones, camera-angle, positioning and layering in a piece like this is used to convey the overall emotion of terror. But here, it's used for an idea involving humor (though some of you may argue that Holiday bill are coupled with an overall sense of terror XD).

I'll see you all tomorrow! (I hopefully will get to go on a manga-run as well!)
By the way, though it's probably at the bottom of your list of priorities, any prayer you'd be willing to give me would be greatly appreciated.
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