Saturday, September 30, 2006

   well i made up my mind......finally. (((I DID IT))))
well yupies i cutt my hair as short as i can get it even though i'm a girl.....#$# i'm going to shave the rest of it off later when i'm not so tired.cause fucking hell cuting your hair that short with sizzers takes fucking for ever i was in there for like 4 hours * . * eehhhh......in the bathroom that is.

it doesn't look to good right now because i aint done shaving it completely off.

it's strange that no one had to go to the bathroom the whole time i was in there.thank god.thats a good thing ^ - ^ man i'm so tired but now i gotta go for a walk.




T - ,T CRYS BUT I"M SSSO TIRED!!!!
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   pics of my new bedroom and new kitten Korea MilkShake
this is my old bedroom i use to have when i lived in Missouri.

wwee my kitten MilkShake!! she is sleeping on my lap right now.=^;^=meow.
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   i hate the South see my hatefull cool pic i made on D/A
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/40617832/

th knife stabbing a lil screeming person might disterb you.

XD HA HA!!
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Friday, September 29, 2006

   oh Maannnn.........>.
Well right now i'm listening to Trigun Music
-how sweet -

Just found out today that i have to move back to Minnesota on the 3rd and ssoo i have to read all of my library books before Saterday witch is tomorrow.*sighs T/M is making me feel so coizy*


well i'll be siting here reading Calvin and Hobbes...then Garfield books in my room.

my fav comics are Calvin and Hobbes,Boon Docks,Jeremy,Chiken weed lane, and i think thats it.



Note: Please people send me sad E;Cards and/or pics to make me feel better....the best thing to do is to find the saddest and most crying pictures ever to really make me feel happy.i want pics of characters crying.Please find some really good ones.i have dial up so i have a hard time finding any my self......

i've made up my mind once i finally get moved back to my grandma's house in MN i'm going to go to foster care...i'll have to try my hardest.

Ha ha i'll be able to go on the computers in the library and go on here cause if i do get put in foster care i can go to public school again.

Wish me luck every body.#$#

if i had a gun i would of already shot my self in the head.
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Monday, September 25, 2006

   well this was.....#$# OKAY WTF?!!!
it was pretty damn funny and cute my dad's pupy Chihuahua chased my poor kitten out of my room really fast that my poor kitten got a bag stuck to her fooot the hole way out .

> . < it was so gay because she acted as if the bag was eating her or something like that and the fact that the dog was behind made all the more spazzed!!!!

XD
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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   i'm breathing in to scream as loud as i can!!!!
well i'm gooing to only eat a lil at 2:PM every day and if i go past that i'll have to just not eat until the next day.around that time.....so do you think i can do it or not?

i haven't eaten anything today and i went past my time when i was suppost to eat and so i have to wait tell tomarow.i eat last night so it wont be to bad.

it's sucks for me though because i don't have the right kindof foods to be going on a diet...no money to buy anything either so thats all we have is.whole made bread,Rice,Oat Meal,water,jelli,peanut butter,butter,sugar,brown sugar,eggs,frozen hamberger,chiken and vegitables,sometimes when we are lucky we get milk,bannana's and store bot bread........

i start to feel wrong after going 2 days with out any fruit!!

i'm a girl damnit i need feminine foods DAMNIT!!!! i don't even have the stuff to make a salad!!!

AAAHH!

>.< this ssoo sucks.


i'm not even going to put seasoning on my food or butter so you know it's less fatning.
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   My Step Brother lives in New York now City!!!!
Holy shit!!!

i just found out a few days ago my awesome Step bro lives in New York!!

he went and saw the fireworks and went to the two trade centers and hes said it was like one big hole in the ground.

o.O sweet i wish i could live in New York City.!!!

#$# not fare.

my step syblings are so cool and lucky i have two step sisters and 1 step brother my oldest step sis is my younger step sister's half sister and my step brother's half sister also Jerel and Felicia are half black because their dad was black. and Jenny the oldest one had a white dad so yeah duh she is fully white!!^__^HHMM i love them all.

i miss my step syblings.

my brother Jerell that lives in New York now hes like 19-20 years old now.and the sister are in thier 20's the oldest one Jennifer has three kids two boys and one adopted black girl.

my other step sis is married also but with no kids because her husban has retardation in the familey and my step sis is to worried about her baby coming out wrong so she wont have any of her own kids.

my Step bro he isn't married ofcourse but he has no problem fitting in with every one and making friends because he is so cool and he is hot my step sisters are hot to.

my step sister's husband get along together well they are both hot to!! god i would love to see them make out together > . < YUMMY!!!...-_-but sadly they are all Jehovah Witnesses so that ain't going to happen well exept for my step bro hes not a JH anymore .
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Saturday, September 23, 2006

   Please can you help ME ((((ANYONE))))i'm dieing........
i really want a gun so i can shoot myself in the head.

i'm going to started banging my head against the wall to feel better i'm in so much pain i can't even cry....it could be because of the OD is why i'm haveing a hard time crying when i need to .

i want to die.......

if i don't get away from living with my dad and if i don't kill myself i'll end up being in some lock up place lice prison,jail or hospitals,spychiatrick ones to......

my dad has already hamred my soul and it's geting more and more hurted.

my dad wont even let me go to public school or show me how to drive or....show me how to do anything he is one of though obsessed perents where he has to hind you away from every body he wont even let me have friends.

i'm so fucking dence and under eduacated that i can't wait tell i'm 18 and figure every thing else out on my own i need help!!! in witch my dad wont help me at all....when i do anything wrong with the law my dad blames me for it and still trys to make him self look good that hes such a good perent.it fucking really pisses me off.cause my dad is a bad perent hes sucks really badly hes is such a bumb.....

every girlfriend my dad has had agrees with me and that my dad is a fucking jerk.

my dad is such a loser he just trys to make his girlfriends look bad that he still is perfect.compared to his girlfriends anyways.

he just goes and makes things up and say that his girlfriends where the ones that was screwed up.

i was thinking about cutting my hair as short as i can get it and then shaving it off because of the hospital from my ODing my hair wont stop falling out from the roots....they gave me vitemin pills but after i went back home my dad didn't think i need any pills to recover from the OD.and the stupid hospital didn't tell me or my dad hardly anything though fucking assholes eeeerrr !!!

my dad's last girlfriend said that my hair is ot healthy because i'm not geting enough vitemin pills.

so yeah...i hope my dad can get the right ones.

if he doesn't and my hair wont stop being so fucking stupid i'm going to shave the fucker off!!!!

my dad is such an asshole that he just doesn't care.he probly wont buy me the pills.cause he thinks i'm stupid and that my hair is not falling out.he just wont listen to what i have to say.....

my dad always threatens me that hes going to have me comited because he think i'm the fucking stupid one.hes the only perent i have around .so i have no one else to get help from every time i try to get help from my dad he just gets mad at me and argues!!!!over nothing to get mad about he is just so fucking ignorent.


I FUCKING WISH THE FUCKER WAS DEAD.


if i had a gun i would kill my brother and dad and then i would kill myself......

i don't want to kill or hurt any one because i em not evil or anything like that i'm not cruel.

and that is why i wish my B and D would die so i wont have to kill them.


i could just use a knife but that wont work good enough because they might survive from it and i might live to and besides i don't know how to kill me or some one with a knife i'm not strong enough to.

i could run infront of moving fast traffic that would work but then i would still have a chance of living so that is why i really can only use a gun to my head so no one can save me.
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Friday, September 22, 2006

   A Hot Pretty boy from a Band called B Kool!!!! Osamu Hashizumeresized
Osamu HashizumeOsamu Hashizume

damn hes so fiiine don't you liike?

i fond him on some site when i was looking up on J singers.
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

   i was listening to my radio while reading my comics!!!
Ok,When you have your Radio on loud anough to here all the way in the frackin bathroom(((mine is right next to my bedroom mind you ^-^))),once at least you here three songs go by....

-_-U know u've been in the bathroom to long!

- ^ - ^ Note:Constipation doesn't count for
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after awhile i was listening to this morning show thing and it was about what is the shalowest reasons to dump some one!!LMAO!!! one of them said it was because every time he would eat in front of her she noticed that he always chews liiike!! A COW!!! ^ ___ ^ Heh.....

i wouldn't brake-up with some one just because of that!!! i would laugh my ass off every time i saw him eat instead of geting annoyed by it i find some thing like that very entertaining. #$# then why don't i have a boyfriend????

>.> i thank my self for reminding myself *;* that i'm alone because of my pathedic excuse for a male perent...EEERRRR
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