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Thursday, January 17, 2008


Bleh.
Hi.
Haven't updated in a couple days..

Who cares.
I'm bored.
I hate things.
Ugh, my head hurts >_<


Uhhhhhhhhh

Bye.

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Tuesday, January 15, 2008


Yet another boring day yesterday....

Texted some.
Talked online some.
Had a snow day.
Realized I woke up on my own so I got all excited and looked at the clock and was happy no school.

OMG I just got this awful pain in my stomach. >_<
It hurt sooo bad.
Luckily it was only a moment.

Reminds me my back killllled in this one area earlier.


Anyways..It's 11:51 PM.
I'm bored.

Not much to talk about.

I'm such a boring person.

I need to get a life.

Well... best organize my ROTC binder and go to bed.
Good night people.

Oh and I shall braid my hair.
I think I'll put it in two french braids.
Hm?

Anna thinks I should be a hair dresser..
Just cuz she thinks I do a good job when she has me braid her hair at lunch.
That's all I do though.
I'm not good at much else.
I always just throw my hair up in one of those messy buns.

I wish I could do hair all nice and cool.
I suck at doing hair I know I can just do braids thats it.
But at least it's better than how some people can't even do their own hair I guess, right?
I forget who, might have been Anna that told me she couldn't.

Oh well......

I wanna put blue and black streaks through out my hair.
Not big huge chunks but noticable.
My mom won't let me though.
And I can't get blue because stupid ROTC
"No unnatural hair colors... blahblahblah"
By the time I'm old enough to get it done, I'll be too old and not wanna anymore.
I hate that so much about things.



Ohhhhhhh welllllll.......

I'll talk to people and do what I had said and go now.
Bye bye!!!







7:36AM.
My mother really need to fucking mind her own damned business.
She needs to not come in my room every morning and just creepily sit at my computer and have her feet up on my bed looking through cell phone at things.
And rumaging through things on my desk.
Or going through things on my computer.
I hate it she acts so fucking stupid sometimes.
I know this is the only way to tell her basically.
I'll get bitched at later but I don't give a shit.
Go fucking get your own life and stop ruining what of I life I have.

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Monday, January 14, 2008


Hm, i wanna have a snow day today.
I wonder if its snowing yet.
Supposedly it's supposed to snow like 6-12 inches.
I hopehopehope it does.


Quite a boring day.

Texted some.
Watched Monk episodes on DVD.
Talked online some.
Stayed up til 7 in the morning.
Slept til 1:30.
Not even the least bit tired currently.
I kinda wanna shower but I really don't feel like it.
I odn't feel like havign to get undressed and stand there for however long and get all cold from the water after a while.
And I don't like towels so I soak things.

Hahh... sorry.
Laid on the counter a bit too.
'Twas fun.


Blahh, I go lay down now.
Or maybe I;ll pause Monk and go quick shower and then lay down and watch Monk.

I think I just might.
My shoulder area all fucking itchy.



ITCHY DAMNIT!!KJHR*#&R

Bye.

OhandIneverwannabeinarelationshipeverwithsomeonenoreverlikesomeonebecauseitcausestoomuchtrouble.
I'msosickfoallthebullshitpeopleseemtogothhroughfromthings.

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Sunday, January 13, 2008


Boring day.
Up til 4.
Slept til 3.
Got bitched at by my whiny mother.
When I wasn't even doing anything but trying to look for scissors.
So then I started to retaliate.

Then my grampa came over to watch the football game with my dad.
I let the dogs in and I wasn't bringing them upstairs yet.
And she started bitching at me.
So I was ignoring that she wanted them upstairs.
So she ran down to the basement to get my dad.
She thinks that's such a threat but its not.
I'm not afraid of him anymore if she calls him to make it seem like he's gonna kick the shit outta me.
Doesn't faze, phase? me anymore.
Ooh, what wonders dictionary.com is.
I love that site.
It's FAZE.
Wooooo.


Hm, Patriots won.
My mothers surprise I don't like football.
Considering that's its rough and stuff.
And that I like hockey better.

Thing is I like hockey because I can follow where like the puck is better than a football.
But if I had to choose a second favorite sport to watch.
It'd be football.
But hockey is deffff. first place winner.


Anywho...

I'm bored.
And there's no one online to talk to.
Fuck.
I'm kinda worried about Britt but I don't think anything'll happen, I wanna think that at least.

And I'm kinda hungry, I haven't been eating like, alotalot lately.
Not because I'm trying to lose weight or anything but just cause usually after I get sick I don't have much an appetite for a bit.
But yea, if only that would happen all the time, hah!

I still eat though, just not meals or anything.
snacks here and there.

Eh, I'm kinda hungry but I don't feel like eating right now.





I'm gonna go lay down and watch a movie.
The Invisible.
Usually I go and get a snack.
But I don't feel like one...
I want wavy chips though.
Mmm..
Too bad there is none.
Maybe I'll get some plain chips.
And another glass of milk.


I wanna go out driving.
I might go to my aunt's upstate today.
Because her birthday was yesterday.
But that probably won't happen.
I don't really wanna get stuck in the car, but Idon't really wanna be stuck home all day.

Oh well who cares.
I'll go to bed now.
It's almost one in the morning.

Well, after my movie of course since I probably won't fall asleep during it, but who knows I could.
I'm gonna be laying down anyways......


I'll just shut the fuck up!
Good night!?




Oh and, I don't think I ever wanna be in a relationship with someone.
They all seem to damned complcated.
But who knows.


I'll probably never be in a relationship ever anyways.
So it's not like it fucking matters.

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Saturday, January 12, 2008


So today, well yesterday.

School, shittyshitty school.
Brittany actually went!
But I didn't get to see her =[
Oh well, I'm glad she went at least. =]

Got there during homeroom right after the pledge.
Some DUMBFUCK wrote this stupidass article bashing ROTC.
He got it sooooo wrong it's not even funny.
I can't even begin to explain how fucked up he is.
People in homeroom were soooo pissed off.
The guy even said nearing the end,

"I know a several ROTC or pro-military people are going to be ready to lynch me within seconds of reading this."

What a dumbass.
Honestly it was THAT utterly retarded.


Hm, wore my uniform.
Changed before I was officially allowed to.
Two periods before considering I didn't ask if I could change for cooking class and I did it before the period before cooking right after lunch.

So yea, naughty me.

In foods class this guy Adam ate the little chocolate pudding pie by taking three bites. It was hilarious kinda.
He got like $3 and something cents.

Uhmm, colorguard did absolutly nothing!
Stood around and talked to Stephanie.
I love how I call my teacher by her first name, haha.
It'd be weird calling her Ms. Morris, because I have her dad and he's Mr. Morris.
So yea.
It's just strange.

Uhmmmmm......

My dad convincened me into helping him clean the kitchen up.
So I did.
And so I got to go to the movies.
Went with Brittersanys.
But before that i was playing on the Wii downstairs with my dad.

Then I was upstairs using this hand-held massager thingy that like has three feet and vibrates and makes an obnoxious noise when you leave it on a hard surface and makes the dog star at it funy so it's hilarious.
But Jules like me to use the on her better than petting I think, she especially likes in on her tummy.


So thennnn I went on MSN on my dad's computer downstairs and Brittany wasn't online.
So my dad convinced me into calling.
The usual two ring, ohh there goes the answering machine. Hang up time.
Then magically she came online within seconds it seemed.
And so blahblahblah went to go see Juno.
Oh, saw Silly!!! Finally.
He's so adorable.
I took pictures, and she took some but the computers being a dick and wont let them upload and the laptop wont connect to the internet.
So yea.
Went to the movies, car ride was funny.
Thought I lost my camera though.
Then I got out the car and it was between the seart and the door.
My hands were holding on to the handle and my feet were in, I hadn't sat and my dad tried driving away.
Retard. -_- It was funny though.
Hm, was sooooo damn busy there.
I accidentally walekd into the mens room because I didn't read the sign. cause they're high doorways, and the signs are above them.
So I got in and there was urinals so I was like, WTF?
Then someone flushed so I like booked it out of there and was laughing my ass off and Brittany was making fun of me haha.
Went in the rightttt bathroom after we finished getting drinks and such.
I double checked even, and almost ran into this lady.
It was hilarious I thought.
Saw the movie, pretty good.
Didn't know what to really expect, but I liked it.
Uhm, yea.
Brittany had to piss and shit.
It was funny.
I wanted to follow my dad into the bathroom and scare him but then I realized I shouldn't because he probably was taking a piss.
He pees a lot.
Uhm, so I was gonna jump out at him when he came out but I was talking to Brittany.
DAMN YOU! YOU DISTRACTED ME! lol.
Anyways, uhhhh.
Brittany was telling me she was basically about to give birth to her shit when we were on the way to the car.
I came up with the birth part.
She looked like she had to pee to, so I asked and she said yes.
She should learn to not be such a germaphobic.
And use public bathrooms.
At least it's not like a port-a-potty or a gas station bathroom.
Lol, oh well she'll just have to suffer with having to wait til she can use a bathroom when she has to go.
My daddy ran a redlight, near the road down to the police station which I find quiert humerous.

Uhm, went and saw Silly more.
He was climbing all around me while Brittany was busy grunting in the bathroom and complaining she couldn't shit with me out there.
It was the funniest thing ever. >_<
I should've video taped Silly climbing all around me trying to escape and should've captured her grunts.
Sorry Britt, it's too funny not to mention.
Hmmmmmmmmmmm, took more pick-terssss.
Oh yea, I ran her down the hallway in a Wal-Mart carriage that was near the elevator when we got out.
Hmmm...
Then I went home.
And Jules stood there and smelled me for like... ever.
Because Silly made me smell all ferrety.
And the puppies were sniffing my pants and shoes.
Jules was sniffing my sweatshirt, had he paws on me smelling me.
Wouldn't leave me the hell alone haha.
Now I'm here sitting on my but talking to this dude on AIM.
He's from on here, it's Grif 2.0 I believe, so go visit him.
It's quite strange I'm telling you to visiting someone I barely know.
But eh.

Oh and I got a message saying I stole someones Dai, which I thought was funny.
And yea Ddayday knew the person and said that she could have only one Caitlin/Caitlain.
She has one of each, but she's known Caitlain longer so she can keep her I don't matter all that much.



Anywhoooooooooooo


I'll shut up now because this is getting to be a very long post that's taken me almost an hour to like finally finish.
but I was doing other thigns to so not exactly an hour.


Good night!






Caitlin™

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Friday, January 11, 2008


I hate being sick.
At least I'm mainly better though.

But my body's startign to ache again, so maybe I'm not as better as I would have hoped-ish.
Oh well, My stomach doesn't hurt so much anymore though off and on it does a bit.

I'm so bored.
I don't wanna go to school tmorrow.

My tooth hurts.
And there was just this sharp pain in the tip of my thumb.


Played on the Wii a bit today.
The Legend of Spyro: Enternal Night or something like that?
I can't get past this thing yup gotta move the thing up and get it in the air then press the A and thrust it forward into the root wall.
I do as it says but can't seem to manage to do it.

I hate video games with a passion sometimes,

Hmmmmmm..........

I should get to bed.
It's almost one.
I'm not so much tired just feel weak and need to lay down.
And my heads starting to hurt.
Whatever.
Good night.
Nothing left to say.

*collapses and passes out*

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Wednesday, January 9, 2008


Democratic Presidential Primary
Candidate Votes Percent Winner
Hillary Clinton 78,909 40%
Barack Obama 72,982 37%
John Edwards 33,846 17%
Bill Richardson 9,347 5%
Dennis Kucinich 2,793 1%
Joe Biden 455 0%
Mike Gravel 279 0%
Chris Dodd 135 0%
Precincts Reporting - 222 out of 301 - 74%






Republican Presidential Primary
Candidate Votes Percent Winner
John McCain 55,277 38%
Mitt Romney 47,692 32%
Mike Huckabee 16,923 12%
Rudy Giuliani 12,887 9%
Ron Paul 11,658 8%
Fred Thompson 1,771 1%
Duncan Hunter 759 1%
Precincts Reporting - 195 out of 301 - 65%





So that's the outcome of the presidential primary in NH so says WMUR.com

Magically my phone appeared in my bed this afternoon.
My dad took it maybe.
I shook out my blanket and cleared off my bed last night.
Idk, I don't really care anymore.
So yea, at least I have it back.


Uhhhhhhhhhh so bored.
My head hurts too.
And Suposedly my 504 expired because my mom didn't get another note to bring in.
So I'm fucked basically.
I;ll have to get up and go to math.
Orrrrr be late a lot and get a shit load of detentions resulting in suspension after a while.
Or a Saturday suspension.
Whatever, that's pretty shitty.
I hatehatehatehate school.
It can go take a huge painful thorny dildo up the ass.

Hahhh...

Oh look. 11:11 make a wish.
I don't believe in that bullshit.
I wanna text but don't wanna.
Probabl talking to someone and get mad or something.
Because the other person will get pissed off..
yaddayaddayadda

I'm so goddamned bored.

I;ll go and like shower now or something....




Maybe I should go swim in the tub with the puppies.
They need baths soooo bad >_<
And hair cuts.
Atleast Maple cause hers stands up and it's all coarse and yucky.



I need scissorss....
Then I'll give her a hair cut and wash her up then take a shower.
Perhaps.

I;ll write more after because I can't post this yet for it to be on tomorrow, or well today since it's for technically tomorrow, but today when you're reading this.





Hahhha.... I still haven't got up outta my chair.
It's 11:54.

i love how you can navigate away from the page and then go back to it, not clicking like add post again but the actualy page and this is all still there.
11:57.

My head still fucking hurts >_<

12:03. Mkay.

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Tuesday, January 8, 2008


So.
I still can't find my phone.
And it pisses me off.
My mom swears she didn't take it.
Someone did and i promise you that.
It's NOWHERE in my room.
I even cleaned up to look I just have to take care ofthe garbage.

It's nowhere to be found.
NOWHERE I TELL YOU DAMNIT!






Blah.
Schools so fucking boring.

I have mental issues.
And I'm stressing out.
It's not fun.


Hmmmmmmmmmmmm


I'm watching Waitress, it's good so far.



I think I was gonna say something else but I forget.


Oh well.
Good riddens.



Oh yea.
I don't have school today because of presidentaial primary voting
But my sister does. =p




"Thank You"

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We’d be alright,
We’d be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won’t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I’d never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You’ll remember me my friend,
You’ll be wishing I was there for you.
I’ll be the one you’ll miss the most,
But you’ll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You’ll wonder why,
You’re all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

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Monday, January 7, 2008


Fair is foul and foul is fair.
So.
I'm bored.
I found the background picture, and liked it a lot.
So I made a new layout.
You like?

Changed my song too.

Stupid HTML was stressing me out so badly.
But before that I didn't feel good.
So I went in the bathroom and opened the window to let cold air in.
Because the bathrooms the smallest room with a window, it'd cool down fastest.
It's still too ho in here but I feel better than I had.

My ass hurts.
From this chair.



Soooo...

Brittany cancelled.
Said her mom was being a bitch like last time.
Oh well.
I should give up on wanting to ever hang out with her.
It's never gonna happen.
And I bet you if she see's this she's flip out on me again.
I wasn't mad at her and then she was acting like I was so I got aggravated and left.
Sooooo...
Yesterday was stressful.
And my neck still hurts.
I think its the way I sleep.
And I shall not fall asleep with my phone again tonight.
I give up on texting too.
I think I need to give up talking to them because I just end up feeling one thing and it gets all pried into when I don't wanna and then I flip out and stress out.
And i just need to take a break I think.
But I can't go to school with out my phone.
I left it in my bag the other day though. On silent so I wouldn't be tempted to text.

I just absolutley despise some things.
They got mad it seemed when I was just trying to say goodnight and sorry for being all weird and stressed and just.
Ughhhskdjgnk

I give up.
I give up I give up I give up.



And no Brittany if you actually read this, the rainbowiness has nothing to do with sexual orien-fucking-tation.
I just liked the background I have.
Geez.

Oh and my mom can fuck off if she thinks that too.
Cause she can't mind her own business and stay off the site and stop prying.
UGH!


I hate my life.
-
_-
My legs all tingly.
And It's now past midnight.
Sooooo goodfuckinggoddamnednight.




Did you know that the phrase...

"To be or not to be"

Is actually him contemplating life and death?

I actually fucking learned something in school O_O!





Oh god I hate my mother.
She knows I've been texting.
And just cause I was real tired.
She got pissed.
But she alwqays gets pissed at me.
And took my phone.
And I'm really pissed off.
Cause if my dad took it my iPod would be gone too.
Atleast he's not as nose.

God damnit I hate my mother being so fucking nosey.


Well, I have a stomach ache.
So yea.
I'm leaving.
Maybe I'll stall and my dad won't realize til later so I'll get to stay home and get bitched at.
Hmmmm...

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Sunday, January 6, 2008


So.

Textful and boring day.

My back hurt a bit in one place then another.
Took a shower and my neck hurt.
My chest kind of hurts, and my arms.
My body aches.

Had to go to my grandmothers for dinner because of my moms birthday.
Boringggg.
Played Rummikub.
Then Go Fish.
Then attempted garbage.
My sister kept cheating the little fuckhead.I'm watching Catch Me If You Can.



Might go to the movies later with Brittany and see two movies.

One Missed call.
Which looks awesomeeeee.
And Juno.
Which looks pretty good as well, forget what its about just i know I liked it from the commercial I saw once.

But i don't know if we can.
Or if shes gonna bail out on me like usual.

I really hope not.

She said she'd take my cell phone and chuck it at the screen if i was texting.
I don't think she'd do it.
I'm gonna text just to piss her off.
=] As a joke of course.

Uhm.
I'm bored.
Nothing much else to say.
watched part of The Nightmare Before Christmas at my grandmothers.

Now nothign else to say.
Good night.

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