Monday, August 13, 2007

so today... hmm

i slept till about 12 30 really.
but i laid in bed for a while. i got outta bed and it was 1:09.

i went on the computer for a bit

around 4:30 i went to find my mom and ask to go school shopping.
i have:
3weeks.
2days.
and about 7 and a half hours.
till i start school.
its 12:17 am.

but yea. she caught the frog that was in the pool and i took it and put it in a bucket of water.
then she was being bitchy so i sprayed her with the sqirt gun thing and went to my room.
where i went on the computer again.

then
yea. i went downstiars and she got me two pairs of shoes.
these awful looking black sketchers and these like pinata looking masks on a pair of white whatevers. like slip on sneaker type things but without laces. idk what theyre called.
and they looked so ugly and she thought they were skulls. she doesnt know what i like whatsoever.
she doesnt care what i like.
shes stupid.
she goes school shopping the day im not home all day.
and if i ask her to go anywhere shes all like
oh i dont feel good"
"im tired from work"
she sits on her ass on the computer all day.
she doesnt have that hard a fucking job selling god damned tickets.

so yea i went to my room again.

i went back downstiars.
she was throwing things at me and i called her a dumbass.
she was trying to hit the puppies -_-
but yea....
i threw my sisters shoe she threw at me back at her.
she yelled at me when i asked her or my dad to go grocery shopping
they havent gone like actual grocery shopping in like a month.
only a couple times they go get like milk or bread or whatever.
thats all. -_-

my dad and her always get mad if i ask them too or they say maybe and never do.
i admit i dont need to eat a bunch but i still need to eat.

i was getting a headache earlier and a stomach ache from not eating all day.
i had a freeze pop thing and it held me over for a bit. now im in pain again.

i hate my parents.
i truly do.
only reason i love them is cuz theyre family and its nature to.
but otherwise i could care less.


stupid people.

whatever.
im gonna watch house again and maybe over dose on tylenol seeing as how taking about 50 ib profen pills before didnt do jack shit andi did it several times. =/ eh whatever. i should become anorexic and my mom would like me better.
like me at all even.
stupid cunt.
[relmdhgnf

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

so i got up early.
which was unhuman.
i took my pj pants off. put some jean shorts on and put my pj pants over those. and took a tshirt with me and kept my sweatshirt on.
last night and this morning were like fucking iceeeee!!!

so yea.

the onyl food i liked there was the hamburger.
and the watermelon sorta.
the ferry boat thing sucked.
then i hung out with my dad and my papas niece annie and her friend tanya. theyre we in their twenties.
we went on the corkscrew.
and then the extreme frisbeeeeeeee!!
it was so fun!
not as fun as i expeceted though.
then my dad and i went on the roundup and this wipeout thing and the seats were kinda small.
and im definatly not that like anorexically thin people.
hahhh!!!!!
neither is my dad.
being big boned and having some weight isnt that bad but ugh.

anyways. then annie tanya and i went to this haunted house thing and my dad and krissy went on the bumpercars and then the feris wheel.
my brother and grandfather left when they went on the buper cars.
and right after my dad n sister got off theferis wheel annie and tanya left
then my grandmother sister dad and i went to a candy shop and got those long tubes you can fill with flavored like pixie stick sugar.
then we went on the train and i kept getting in trouble for wealking ahread of them because my feet hurt so i walked faster and it hurts less and yea. -_-

then i went on the psychodrome and its supposed to be dark and strobe lights and rave music. they had music halrf the time and didnft fucking turn off the lights. my dad asked the lady and she said it was for safety. -_- WHAT THE FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then i took my sister on the caterpillar thing. and then we watched fireworks.
then went and got drive thru mcdonalds.
and dropped my nanny off at her hosue and went home and here i am.

also i was sticking my tongue out at her camera and my sister was trying to take a picture and my grandmother hit my chin and i bit my lip and now i have a big bump on it. -_-
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Saturday, August 11, 2007

so yea colorguard was fun
only brittany sam and i showed up.
we were working on dropspins.
and fooling around.
and trying to teach stephanie things. hah
i was spinning around in this big blue skirt in teh band room.
it was funny.
brittany mom was taking me home and i showed them where matt lives. and her mom yelled hey matt matt!! out the window and beeped her horm
and then she turned around and did it.
and turned around again and did it but the door was closed the third pass by,
it was hiliarious.
its funny usually when were in her moms car on the way to places.
=]

i layed out in the hammock for like three or four hours.
it was fun.

then my sister got home and we were gonna go swim and she got afraid because there was a frog in the pool so we ended up not going because i didnt wanna go alone cuz it gets boring and the frog wouldnt get out from under the stairs down in we have.

hmmmmmmmmmmm

ariel might not move=[ waaaaa

yea.
i think thats it.
im gonna go shower.
i have to go to canobie lake park today for my grandfathers reunion thing for work.

night!
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Friday, August 10, 2007

So yea, today was alright.
I'm writing this at 10:32 PM.

Hahhhhh...

Nathaniel keeps coming in my room and playing with everything and he gets upset that I get mad at it.
It's annoying.
-_-

I have colorguard today!!!!!!

Brittany's mommy is picking me up and we have practice from 10 till noon.

I don't know what else to say.


I didn't go to sleep til like 6:30 in the morning yesterday and my brother woke me up at about 11:30.

Hah, Brittttaaannnnyyyy if you read this before practice.
Please call my cell phoneeee!!
To wake me up.Cause you know I sleep forever into the depths of the day.
Please please pleaseeeee.


I'm going to go take a shower now.

It's 10:35 PM now.

That was short.
Oh look,
10:36!

11:56
OOOOOOOHHHH. Almost midnight. oooh and tomorrow I'm going to Canobie Lake Park!

Ohh, and I took a nice long shower that was nice and cold hahaha.
i was dancing and singing along to my music hahaha

Cmon cmon cmon cmon turn midnight!!!!!!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!>!>!>!>!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?]
midnight good ngiht.
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Thursday, August 9, 2007

I don't feel good, my stomach hurts.
I was stunned, absolutly stunned when James IMed me today.
He called me "cat grul" like he used to.
I don't know, it was his nickname for me.
When we used to be the best of friends.
Him and Brittany were all I had for friends.
I knew him about a year and a half by now.
After it became a year things started going downhill.
It was sad.
He didn't realize how much he'd made me feel like shit.
And he'd get mad at me for feeling like shit.
And eventually I'd gotten fed up with it.
I don't remember the last time I talked to him.
I do remember that last time I actually pressed hard though, the Monday night I got back from South Carolina on April vacation.
I still have the scars.
They're the most... defined shall we say.
There's a line but you can see where the actual cut was.

That was the last time I did it.
Basically at least.


Sooooo, anyways.
I feel bad for Brittany, Emily, and anyone else who lost Mattie.
You all seem so sad...
He seemed to have been real great of a person.
I'm sorry he died...
But you know, he's in a better place.
So people say it is.
Sorry, but I just personally don't exactly believe in it.
But he's free of pain and is getting complete and total bliss.
He is happy all you can hope for.
But it'd be better if he was still alive.
I sort of wish I had met him.


=/..
Anyways...

Nathaniel isn't sleeping in here tonight.
Yay!!
One of the puppies peed on the air mattress and he flipped out.
He's sleeping in the camper with my dad.
He was beign such a little shit today.
I almost took the knife on the counter and killed him.
I threatened to...
And I was being mean to him becuase he was being a dick.
It's to replace the one he doesn't have I guess.
Hahaha!

I don't know what else to put...

OOOOhhh, my sisters staying overnight at camp today I believe.
Yay!
And tomorrow Nathaniel leaves!!!!!
And tomorrow I have colorguard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, good night.
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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Yeaaaaa.
So he kept changing the air amount in the matress and it was getting annoying.
I wanted to suffocate him with it.

He came into my room and changed the channel and laid on my bed.
He kept putting his feet on my pillow and I threatened to shove a brush up his ass or hit him in the balls with it.
He stopped.

=]
I'm so caring, huh?
I'm such a loving cousin.

I went to see The Simpsons Movie again earlier.
I went last Tuesday too.
It seemed shorter this time.
It was still good though.

Nathaniel was just being such a fucking little shit today though and it sucked.
I wanted to kill him.

My parents need to go fuckinggrocery shopping.
Nathaniel won't stop bugging and asking me for food.
It's annoying and I'm just like No I don't have anything else damnit!"

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I'm going to go nuts.
Good news though!
He's leaving Friday because he has to be home for something on Saturday!

Another good thing!!

COLORGUARD FRIDAY!
10am till noon.
Woo hoo!!
Then On the 18th We're doing a carwash I think for new uniform things.
OOh, Saturday I have to go to Canobie Lake Park and hang out with my brother's girlfriend's brother.
He's my age but a few months older I think.
His name's Ed.
But yea, I have to hang out with him there if he comes.
He thinks I'm a bitch because I don't talk to him.
I just am not a great conversationalist.
Sorrrrrry.
If any of you have talked to me you know that.
Unless it's Brittany usually or someone in my closer family.
Blahhhhhhhh.

I haven't anything else to say good night.
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Yea so I made a new site because I was sick of my mom reading it all the time.
She'll probably find this one in time.
Oh well, I like the name.
My cousins like "What's that mean?"
So here, asphyxiate is to suffocate says dictionary.com and lapse was a fault or mistake.
Suffocated mistake.
Yeaaa...
I basically just liked the word asphyxiate so i wanted in it there.

Hahahaha he just like spazzed out and flipped around.

He hugged me and like slid his hand down my shirt and I was justlike wtf dude and pushed his arm back.
And he threw my underwear at me and he's like here have your thong Caitlin.
I told him it was a thong idiot.
Weridoooooo...

Yesterday he kept talking about my boobs too it was strange.

Ummmmmmm, I forget what else.

Ooh.. my mom slapped me across the face because she threw the dogs outside and I called her a dumbass and she said something and i said fuck you and she slapped me then ran away calling for my dad saying i was gonna hurt her . i threw her shoe at her barely and she told myy dad i hit her. -_- i was like i didnt fucking touch you retard.

she wanted him to come beat up on me like he used to. fun fun fun fun fun
i can take her but not him. hah thatd suck.

Ughhhh... I dont have anything else to say so good night.

Yea, I know the typing blows. I kept messing up.
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Monday, August 6, 2007

Let's see how this looks shall we...
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