Monday, May 23, 2005

i am sorry if i worried anyone with yesterdays post... i have not been feeling well lately... and do not know what compelled me to choose that from my notebook... that did happen... i know that a few of you did not want to hear that... but there is no escaping the truth... i am useless is this world... i bring nothing but sorrow... hate... pain... this world would be better off without one as faithless as i... i have lost all... Lindsey... Sharon... Caitlyn... why... i am eager to see you all yet again... but... would you recognise me... for... it has been so long... since we have been face to face... would you welcome with open arms... would you just stand there... as if you felt as though i didnt belong... this question shall be answered... weather sooner or later... but theres one girl... i know not how tight she holds our promise... i cant die if she cant die... i dont want to chance it... i dont want to feel as though i have brought pain upon her... i am lost... forever within the deep forest that is life... laying there... hoping to die... to be taken... wondering if i will find what some call "happiness"... what i have forgotten... Where will i go after i have left this mortal world... up... down... will i remain here... forever haunted by that which has happened... that which i have lost... that which was much like family... better than that which i know as family... friends... i am sorry if i have taken even more of your time... i am just a waste of space... until fate brings us... yet again... face to face... for i need to attempt to get some rest... it is currently 2:30 am... and i must go school tomorrow...

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