Monday, April 11, 2005

   life...

Why does life suck? We will never know... It just does... F*** LIFE!!! F*** EVERYTHING!!! Why dosen't everybody just leave me the f*** alone! I want these cuts to bleed me to death... the deeper I cut, the more I forget... I only wish I could stop... but the pain does such a good job... Why dosen't life come with a manual? BECAUSE LIFE'S A B****!!! Why don't you just deal with it... The only way it's going to end is if I stab myself with this arcenic laced knife... Oh... that would be nice... I could slit my throat... stop my breathing and choke for awile... ha ha... that would scare the piss out of that son of a bitch... I could hang myself from the ceiling-fan... funny... You'd get hit when you walk in the door... But theres that one girl... she wouldn't like that idea very much... And I don't want to hurt her... So I might as well just lay here... cold and lifeless... Not hurting anyone... like a f***ing vegetable... waiting to die from malnutrition or something like that... A slow... painful death... Wouldn't that be nice... A knife in my chest... No more memories of that past shit that happened... ha ha... I'm dead... I get to rot in hell... No more me... No more pain for anybody... Because I'm dead... Now everyone's happy... even me... cold... lifeless me... laying on the fire... finally smiling... happy as a f***ing lamb... If only... p.s: the quote meant "We extinguish the light, We render it's death, Violent light, Light is dead."

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