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Thursday, September 8, 2005
Hey guys...
Another uneventful day here in my life... I was gonna try to finish my friends' info on the poeple that I missed yesterday but I dont have the strenght, I will do it tomorrow... I feel so shitty... here's a piece of a conversation between me and my friend Joyal:
AleXavier R: but he's (Harry) not hes energetic all the time exept when hes with me and I get that he is starting college and that he is trying to enjoy it, but he doesnt even realize that its killing me because he's there and I'm not, he doesnt even notice that even though I'm happy for him I am jealous because he has stress, but its that good kind of stress that come with having responsibilities, I have the stress of not knowing what I'm gonna do tomorrow because I have nothing I have no job, no school, and I'm trying to get my shit together but thats just as hard as starting college it self, you know? He's all I got and I feel like I'm loosing him and he tells me not to worry but I cant help it. I would give anything to be where he is now, doing things, living life, learning... instead I'm at home... I'm even more sleepless than he is, and at least he has stuff to keep his mind occupied and off the stress, I dont I have nothing! I just wish he'd realize that... cuz I always try to look at it from his point of view and I get why he is stressed but I feel like he doesnt take the time to realize how bad I feel about everything and how fucked up I feel because I feel like... well I feel like a fuck up... a failure... and the other day I told him I was proud... and you know what? I have nothing to proud of... nothing at all... only him he's the only reason why I could be proud you know? and I am proud as hell, I just wish he could see that I act the way I do for a reason and not just to annoy the living hell out of him...
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