Monday, March 12, 2007

   ???what happened???

On Saturday I was able to make it. Joe was just on time, but i wasn't able so save him a seat, but he did sit near by. After the last scene of the Act I(which was some weird sex scene, quite disturbing especially if u know the ppl) he sat next to me. I was so happy. we chit chat a bit about spoiled kids and Don Pablo and then the next Act begins. It was quite uncomfortable watching the lame, fake kissing scene with him next to me....ackward........then when the play ended to a unexplained ending he had to go right away. I was quite sad. I wish i could have been with him more.

then a crap load of crap happened today. First he ignores me in the morning then, i missed lunch with him, then i had to pay for a T-shirt i didn't really want for $16, then he ignored me in the hallway. It blew my top. I was going to tell him. At the end of the day, he comes up to me and says 'hey.' That's all he ever says to me, unlike his other friends he actually has something to tell them. I say enthusiastically "ohayo!" and that's when i started to hope for a chance in my decision. We talked and i followed him upstairs, then he ignores me for some reason. that's when it began...

(i tap his shoulder. He hushes me for a moment and then listens)
Me: joe, i have another present for you^^(i gave him a lot this year...)
Joe: How come you give so many presents
Me:(um..you're welcome?geez)Just come! It's at the library
Joe: Okay
(annoying boy thinks i'm gonna rape him. I punch his arm)
Me: Keep going...okay are you ready?
Joe: What is it the people in the hallyway? The door, trash can?
Me: No^^ It's um....*looks at the ground*
Joe: What is it
Me: It's....*tries to keep the usual happy face*
Joe: What?
Me: I won't talk to you for the rest of the year^^
Joe: how is that a present?
Me: I'm annoying and so i should stay away
Joe: from what
Me: you
Joe: why?
Me: because you think i'm annoying. Okay?
Joe: um okay*chuckle* see you tomorrow
Me:No. I mean it I can't talk to you
Joe:why?...
*Mr. B tell walk by and we wave at him. I then drag Joe to a deserted area.*
Me:This is your senior year and i want you to be happy. So i go away...
J:why?
Me:because i'm annoying
J:so is Letitia and Rosie. Rosie hits me a lot
Me:I go away
J:why?
Me:you won't get mad
J:why?
Me:because...........
J:Let's go to the court yard
Me:wait
J:Let's just go to the court yard
Me:wait!
*I grab his jacket*
Me:it's because i still like you and i know you don't want me to so i have to let go...
J:....
Me:.....*i let go of his jacket*
J:...sorry
Me:*blushing(what the hell did i just say?!) No it's okay. Isa will just go away now, okay?
J: we can still be friends?
Me: i tried a long time ago and it isn't working, i have to let go
J:...okay
Me: so we're not talking to each other anymore, okay?
J: We can't be friends?
Me: no, we can't talk to each other anymore..
J:wait, then that just makes it complicated...
me:...just pretend you don't know me...okay?
*i'm about to crack. My lips quiver with every word that comes out of my mouth*
J:okay
Me:so were not talking anymore, okay?
J:..okay
*i walk away slowly*
J: bye


I don't know why i couldn't say my last goodbye to him. I felt a bit relieved as i didn't have to worry if he still liked me or not, but i still miss being with him...but i know i have to let go completely. It's not like he'll notice any difference. He's much happier with other people. ...i don't know what to feel right now. maybe...i'll go cry now...because i want to.

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Thursday, March 8, 2007

   Unpredictable

I woke up at 5:30 and found out after getting ready for school that there was a 2 hour delay due to the snow. I was like "whoA-dAy!" I prepare everything needed for today's adventure: pizza for joe's lunch, his congratuations for getting accpeted present(wallet w/ $1, pinoy treats, Pita Ten book), my lunch, homework.
Arriving to school an hour early i chitchat with Audrey and bother her with her unfinished homework and awsome video ipod(i never knew you could download full movies onto that thing!!!!!O.O) So then Letitia arrives and Audrey compliments on how I(as Letitia's "daughter") am so like her(hyper, funny, odd, happy girl) We attempt to steal her ipod an fail=_=
Later that day at lunch, Joseph is so happy to see his pizza i had for him. But when i got back to our seats he didn't save the seat next to him...i was kinda pissed...i wanted to celebrate his acceptance with him.....i had it all planned-.- it sucked. It being foreign laugage day though, the spanish classes sang an awsome song today. They sang a song about amigos. There was a live student band and everything! The song sounded awsome^^ The only good part of the lunch period.
Next classes I think about telling Joe weather I should tell him or not that he and I shouldn't talk anymore cuz i thought he looks much happier w/o me around and i can't help seeing him as more than a friend. (good point i missed: no math test! thank God! i didn't study at all!)
Later after school I planned on sneaking up on him, but ended up just going up to him. He was excited. He was happy to see the presents. We had a great time chitchatting. That's when it lead to him going away. I'm really going to miss him. He said he'll email me...i hope so. Later we arranged a "date" to watch Pippin, our school play, together on Saturday. I hope I can make it, plus i get extra credit points for english.
eeks!
g2g
paalam

=issa-

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Monday, March 5, 2007

   no home...

my mom hates having had me and my sisters. she hates my dad. i feel that she has gotten so materialistic since she moved to the US. Before when i would ask her what she wanted for her birthday she would say kisses and hugs and now its just louis vutton and rolex. Everytime i spend money on a shirt she looks dissapointed. She wants to kick everyone out of the house..She doesn't want to see my face again...i remember when my mom said the word, "i love you" and up to now they're still just words to me. I need help...i feel alone. I don't know what to do.

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Friday, March 2, 2007

   bullet points

i don't feel like writing much so here are some highlight of the past 2 days:

Thurs:

-joe's catupult
-retreat w/ 3rd, 4th, and 5th graders(expiremented with mushrooms)
-fun activities
-relaxing day w/ no classes

Fri:
-sucky
-grades mailed
-joe ignores me again(HELL!WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH!!)
-forgot phone
-debate(team 4 death penalty=lost cuz someone didn't work on his arguments>.<)


the end....i miss thursday...now where's my time machine. If you could travel back sometime in ur life when would it be?

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

   Back on track

This week started of pretty good with a 2 hour delay from the snow over the weekend. Tehe...Joe was happy to see me.*sigh* its been weeks since i saw him so happy^^..hehe mes happy. After school we went over to Giant with a yet another conversation about being cheap and video games. I forced him to eat some sushi, which he still isn't a fan of, but has gotten over his hypothese of throwing up afterwards. I'm planning on giving him a little celebration lunch for his accptance to University of Maryland, Baltimore County. I'm so happy for him^^

Tuesday we had a good orchestra session, plus the cookies were extra great that day. MMmmmmm, soft and chewy^^

Wednesday(hey! Today!)
I had a bad start with me being late to school and all, but then lunch came. I had a great home cooked mog-mog(beefsteak)and then ate a bunch of my friends left over fries. Joe was so eager to sit next to me again^^ Tehe...i know i sound pathetic, but i was really happy he did. After lunch the day ended i face the usual group of guys who tease me. Mleh, i don't mind, kinda fun to play around. Then i'm back to the library. and i think i have to go now! Bye!
Paalam

=issa=

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

   Mleh...

Still alive, I'm gonna post up later. Prob on Friday or something. Mood today:Ups and downs....

Question of the Day: What makes guys laugh on a bad or tired day?

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

   Two Down and what's this??

(typed this on Tuesday, but didn't get to post it)

So this morning I crammed for my Science exam. Put kinda distracted to actually understand what I was reading. I came to school pretty early and so chatted with some of my friends and gained instant energy. Letitia and I talked about her conspiracy and then she wet all crazy about the hot backup dancers in some Madonna MV. It was quite amusing to watch her twitch and giggle to herself...So later that morning Joseph comes up to me. I say hello and continue getting essay help from my friend. Joe then pokes me and hands me a present. I was shocked! I opened it to find a box of candy canes and a cute, fuzzy hat^^. He told me that the candy canes were a $1...and then his mom thought of the hat...very generous of him. But hey, a present is a present^^. In his card it said,
Dear Issa,

Hope you have a very Merry Christmas

Love,

Joseph


I was so happy I hugged him and thanked him bunches^^ but still confused...

So it came about exam time. First up was history and felt like passed with flying colors!^^ Flashcards really are helpful! Then comes math and I did pretty okay. I probrably missed 3-4 question, but,eh, it was out of 140 anyway.
Then as day finally ended. Joseph, Allen and I went to eat a Generous George's. Once we sat down and saw the unbelievable prices we left. So we then lingered at GameStop. Joseph told me all the games he thought were stupid again and then greatest games of all time. Then from there we went over to 7eleven and still considered the food to be expensive. We got back to school and a friend of mine, Tom dragged me away from the group as I cried, "My shoes have no friction!!!"
He then planned selling me on ebay. tehe^^
So they left and I'm stuck in the library again. Woopie. g2g study. bye!



So....today's news:
This morning some asshole(excuse the language he really made me mad)kept falling into me on purpose as his group of friends laughed then he said some racist joke and that really threw me off. If there's something i really suck at, it's standing up for myself. I tried holding back my tears. I didn't want my friend to get mad at them or those guys to see how weak I am. But then my friends Katie and Cici went up to their faces and defended me. I know this won't be the end. I'm real scared. I don't want it to get any worse and I just suck at keeping a straight face. I really hate it.

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

   Another rare Day^^

So this moring I crammed for a Histroy and Science test. I thought it would be a sign of no good of the day to come. Was I wrong...

I came to school and actually had a conversation with Joe. It's been so long since we've had one. We talked about Secret Santa, crying about anime, and looked through my sketch book.

After the small chitchat I packed up and got ready for my Sci test first period. I think I did well, most of it was multiple choice and the answers were pretty much common sense.

After a few classes pass by came lunch. I was getting pretty hyper from I dunno what and that's when I browsed through my friends National Geographic and found a picture of something very amusing(not going into detail ;))

After that I skip to my History class. I come in and my teacher goes up to me and says, "You're not going to take the test."
I'm confused until he explains to me later that since I was one of the last standing finalists in our trivia game the other day, I didn't need to take the test.^^ I was so happy I thought I would cry! Note: I was failing history b4=_= Now I finally raised it to a B.

After dismissal I roam around the school with bear paws that I cut from my plushie(I thought I was going to sew it back together when I cut it, but then I forgot that i didn't know how to sew^^;)I scared Joe once he got out of the bathroom, then Amy while she was busy looking for a book in the library, and the Allen or Alan or something(Joe's cousin)tehe He screamed funny^^ As 4pm neared I and Amy went around the school and she did some awsome ariel flips! SOOOO COOOL! It was like the things I see in martial arts movies, but in real life!
eeekss!g2g study!
Well, I'm thankful for today^^ I needed a good school day to lighten up the past months or endless pain of work^^
Paalam

=issa=

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Friday, December 8, 2006

   Update!

Soooo...things are going okay now in my life. Sorry I've been gone^^; I've just had a dark age for the past month who knows when it will come again. Anywhoo, today actually the past week I've been bouncing off the walls, exploding with happiness. I dunno where that came from...
We had a Christmas door decorating contest this week and I was suprised that our adivisory won! Thankz to my cut up moose plushie I brought. I seriously thought it wouldn't be of such importance to the door decorating since I had cut the limbs off. But then some guy had a bright idea how hanging the moose with garland and then hung the arms on the hallway ceiling. The arms then held a sign saying, "Grandma's Revenge" (referring to the song "Grandma go ran over by a reindeer) TEhe! So happy nows! We get free doughnuts yay!!!

I've been nominated to go to a summer program to Governer's School so I'm working pretty hard on the portfolio I have to present. It's pretty hard to get in so I'm not going to be optimistic about it.(plus if i do get in, we'll have to shorten our trip to the Philippines!NYAHHH!) I'm frustrating with the 3D models, but I think I got the hang of it. I'll take pictures of them when their done.

Joseph....We're pretty much okay now.^^ WE've passed the ignoring stage of breaking up and are close again. Speaking of close...he's been a little too close lately. This guy isn't really into touchy touchy(kinda shy), he never even hugged me when we went out! But the other day he wrapped his arm around me as i tried getting past him in the halls....ODDNeSs!!


Well that's enough of an update. I'll try posting every other day^^ THough I have exams coming up so maybe my posting bonanza will start 2 weeks from now. CHRiStMaS is CoMing Up!!

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

   Birthday!

Yesterday morning felt like any other morning until I opened my email. My cousin, Vito, sent me a cute hamtoro b-day card. He made a great attempt to write in english^^ luckly i could still understand the rest in tagalog.

Then I went downstairs to get hugs and kisses from my family. I was planning to do nothing really that day. I was just going to renew my ID and go to piano lessons, but then we ended up eating a Olive Garden and walking in the mall. Man, Olive Garden has tons of pasta! I stuffed my face good with "tour of italy." Pretty big dish, so i got help from my family in trying to finish it all. At the end of our dinner, I opened presents. My younger sister, Bianca, gave me a cute school supply set including: journal, pen, tape, tissue, stickers! Then my Ate gave me a personalized CD mix and Happy birthday signs. I thanked my family bunches for everything!^^
During our stay at Olive Garden, 3 of my friends started calling me at the same time, tehe^^ It was pretty funny. One even left me a HAPPY HAPPY HAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAAAY messege in my voice mail.so funny^^

After our trip to the mall we went to a pinoy mass and then ended up eating again at the reception there. They had the best desserts ever! I sneaked some extra palitao out. Yum yums!
Then we went to the grocery store and bought an ice cream cake and later rented some videos.
At home we blew out the candles did our cheers and watched some movie.
I had such a great time^^ I wished days like these would last forever.

Vito's card^^

ello! thanx for reading todays post!^^ Now u gets a treaty weety! Yays! To bad I can't give it to you for reals...so don't fuss over not getting a real prizey wizey! just do DA HAPPY DANCE! lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa....okay i'm ending this. or should I move onto another subject...i love bubble tea....mango bubble tea...coconut bubble tea...lychee bubble tea....*Slurp *chew *chew *chew. I've recently hooked on Pita-ten. The characters are so kawaii and plus ppl say I'm a lot like misha and shia^^ tehe...OKay Dokay! time to explore the world now. bibi now!

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